#iwrotethisin2009

[itsdre22]

"Can you feel this" by Andre Thomas #Poetry #Writing #DoWhatMakesYouFeelGood #Life #smile #IWroteThisIn2009

[svintolivia]

how could your feelings fade?

8 months strong,

but you say it was 1.

whether it was 1, 3, 8, 20 or none .

my feelings for you have never faded.

before i was gay, i was straight.

you were my first love, the one .

the one who was on my mind every night before i went to sleep.

every time i closed my eyelids,

your face appeared .

before i knew you were the one, you were just my best friend.

the one who knew everything about me.

the one i shared secrets with.

the one who was there for me, when i need a shoulder to cry on.

was i just infatuated with our friendship?

cause i can't have feelings for this girl, that's not .. me .

i moved away, and while i was on the highway

i found myself to write a txt message to you that said,

"i never pictured myself saying this, i hope you won't think of me different,

i'm still the same best friend you've come to know & love..

but what i'm about to say might change how you feel about me as a person,

i hope you don't judge, but understand where i'm coming from.."

as i wrote the message, explaining my love..

a tear rolled down my face,

reminding me that i've fallen in love with the same gender,

something i've always thought was wrong.

as you replied to me, in shock.

i realized, i fucked up.

i ruined the best friendship i've ever had.

that now you'll never think of me as , just my friend.

i'm now the girl who couldn't handle just being friends.

i fell in love. but was not told the same in the end.

a year later, and you tell me you're attracted to girls now.

was this a joke? or were you just trying to make fun of what i said a year ago.

she continuously kept saying that she was bisexual, and sure of it now.

i refused to say that word, i didn't want to label myself.

i felt like she was lying. making fun of me for what i felt.