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▷ ► ► ▷Today is the only day Jaewon preferred staying in rather than going out and celebrating, which is quite weird in itself. After all, today marks the day he was brought into the world. Normal people love to celebrate, do something exciting on their birthday but Jaewon wanted nothing but to stay alone. His mind wouldn’t allow him to enjoy this day, instead he made it as depressing as he possibly could.
He sat in the living room, contemplating what exactly he felt like doing. The lights were off, making it rather dark despite it being midday. It didn’t help that the curtains were closed, blocking any light to come in. You would think his friends would notice, but it’s been over 10 years and not a single person ever questioned his one day disappearance. He was never surprised though, everyone just lives their own lives and only ever come to Jae when they need something from him. He didn’t care, he never actually thought of his friends as actual friends. To him, they were just people to keep him occupied. He hates the thought of trusting someone only for him to get hurt for believing in them.
Honestly, he’s not too sure why he’s like this on his birthday. Maybe it has something to do with having to spend another year without his parents and wondering why he was kept alive while they’re no longer around. At one point he was celebrating with his ex and he loved it for the two years they were together, but now that’s just a nail in the coffin to why he must feel so disconnected with the world today. It’s not like him to be so alone, to feel so empty but that’s what he feels every year on the same exact day.
A single cupcake with one candle stuck in the middle of it was placed on the small coffee table. The lit fire slowly making the wax shrink as Jaewon would just stare at it. His elbow was rested over the hard surface while laying his cheek against the palm of his hand, his mind just clouded with everything that wasn’t part of his usual happy-go-lucky self. Deep in the back of his mind, he heard the faint words Happy Birthday Jae, sounding as if it was his parents voice from years ago mixed with the sound of the only person he truly loved as well. He felt a sting in his heart for a short moment before finally blowing out the only light in the room.
“Happy Birthday, huh...” He’d mumbled to himself, dropping his arms down onto the table and letting his head fall upon it, continuing to just stare at the single sweet dessert he bought for himself. “another year gone by.”