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[patricia-blogs]

A Tribute to my Fake Boyfriend

I have friends who sent me messages asking why I didn’t tell them anything. My photos with Jac were my profile photo and cover photo for the past few months. They thought that I already have a boyfriend. Yup, he was my fake boyfriend.  

I heard the news a day later. To say that I was devastated is an understatement. When I heard it, I was in denial. It just can’t happen. He woke up after his surgery. He even posted an Instagram Story!!

I decided to check social media: Facebook, Twitter, and Instagram. No posts from his family. I checked his latest photos on Instagram and I saw some comments that confirmed the news. They were posted hours ago.

Hours after, I went to the chapel; still hoping that it was fake news. I arrived a bit late for the mass so I waited outside. When the mass ended, my Dad saw me and told me to come in. I immediately went to the coffin, alongside my parents and sister. The moment I saw the body inside the coffin, tears instantly fell. It was really him. He was only 24.

Apparently, some people thought that he was my crush. That’s not true. I didn’t have a crush on him because from the very beginning I knew he was my cousin. Our mothers are cousins. Even if he’s a distant cousin, we are still related. I know its hard to believe that we are cousins ‘cause we definitely don’t look alike. We went to an event together and some of the people we met really thought that we are a couple. I suddenly realized that he’s the only man I ever brought to an event. I usually bring my sisters or female friends.

This was the last time we talked offline. 2 years ago at a wake. 

I reread our messages and saw this. I totally forgot that he said “Labyu” to me before. May kailangan kasi siya. HAHA. Joke. As you can see I didn’t reply “Labyu” back ‘cause that would be weird. And honestly, I can’t remember him giving me anything. I never got that “something.”

I even trusted him with my cameras more than my own sisters. HAHA. Here he is with Penny (my DSLR camera). 

He is the only guy who knew and followed all my social media accounts. I even congratulated him for finding my Tumblr account. LOL

 He used to work with James Reid and Nadine Lustre aka JaDine. He only have good things to say about them, which made me so happy because I stanned the right people! He even watched On the Wings of Love (though I think he wasn’t able to finish it)! OTWOL is my favorite Filipino teleserye. He even photobombed JaDine’s viral photo after admitting their relationship at Araneta Coliseum 2 years ago!

When we reunited in 2013, I can’t remember being awkward with him. We just clicked instantly as if we’ve been hanging out for years. It also helped that we share similar interests. He is one of the few people in my life who saw the real me (I have multiple personalities. :P). Despite all of those, he understood and genuinely accepted me. I shared with him my life secrets and problems. Whenever I feel down, I just send him a simple hello and by the end of the day I felt better. He was my confidant, best friend, and advisor.

He kept our photo in his wallet, which was unfortunately stolen. Whoever stole his wallet, I hate you from the bottom of my hypothalamus!

He is handsome, smart, creative, well mannered, generous, and kind. He is such a gentleman that he actually made me realize that I am a girl. HAHA. Bakit nga ba wala siyang girlfriend?? 

He carried my bag after a long day. I actually refused his offer, but he insisted. 

Thank you, JAC for setting the standards real high. I am actually preparing myself to be single for the rest of my life. HAHA

I will always remember you this way. :)

I really thought we still have more time. When he died, that’s when I said that God is unfair and actually meant it. I still consider his death as the biggest heartbreak of my life. A part of me died with him. I have been crying every day for 6 months already and I am not even exaggerating.  

I am doing my best to move forward, JAC. I’ll try to keep the good vibes rolling. I hope you are proud of me. I miss you so much!!

It was an honor to be your fake girlfriend. I love you forever. ‘Til we meet again.

Please check out his blog and YouTube channel. Unfortunately, someone hacked his Tumblr account. :( His videos with Wil Dasovich are on his channel.

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Dinoy’s is a small resto just nearby ABS-CBN where we would usually eat at back when I was still at MYX. It’s got some pretty cool art on the walls and of course, good food that’s the closest we could get to home-cooked food in that area. This night, I met up with MYX friends just to catch up and as usual, it was a fun time (even though we weren’t complete, again). It’s good to hear everyone’s doin fairly well and things are just like how we left it! Well... kinda. Hehe. Til’ next time!

Keepin’ the good vibes rollin’!

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Well this sesh was probably the most sudden we ever had, but like I always say; “things are always better unplanned”! And that night proved my theory right, once again! Let’s just say many problems were solved. Girl problems to be specific. And of course the regular ratchet-ness with the brothers. Priceless.

Keeping the good vibes rolling!

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Late Night Hits - Tagaytay Roadtrip

It felt so good being able to chill with this group of high school friends even though once again, we were not complete, it’s still never a dull moment! It’s funny comparing how we hangout now compared to before, now that we’re all working and have our own different schedules.

This late night hit, we decided to take a roadtrip to Tagaytay and eat at this Korean resto that apparently offered a promo that we couldn’t resist! So we took our chance on it! Unfortunately for us, because of the traffic and other circumstances, we didn’t make the cut! We were already there sitting and ready to order in the resto, just to find out we weren’t gonna get that majestic meal, hahahuhu... But, we had a plan B! Nearby was another Korean resto that offered the same food. Although they didn’t have a special promo, we ate there because well, we were all pretty hungry already!

Of course, while were at Tagaytay, we wanted to spend the night right and stay as long as we could so we went to what they said is the biggest Starbucks joint. Oh and I tried one of those secret Starbucks recipes, the Nutella Frappucino, and I gotta say it was heaven!

There I learned one of the most intense games - Monopoly cards, which pretty much tests your friendship. I swear, if you haven’t tried the game, you WILL get addicted! Just be warned, afterwards, you might not have any friends anymore (and money) hahaha!

We hung around there and played til closing time, which sucked because we still wanted stay, so we took a walk around and went off back to Laguna. But, we didn’t stop there, because the game was not yet over! The night was still young, so they stopped by at my place where we played for another good two hours or so. Yup! That’s how addicting it is. 

Never a dull moment with these guys and I’m sure we’d have another night like this soon!

Keeping the good vibes rolling!

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Lost In My Mind

And we were all in such a hurry to grow up. 

I thought I had everything figured out. But like they say, "change is inevitable." My goals and my vision for myself after graduating from college have and are slowly changing. 

Call it a semi-quarter life crisis, but I'd say it's the phase of REALizations. Things just keep getting more real! It's honestly devouring me from the inside with all the pressure to succeed, finding what I really want in terms of career and just the overall stage of adulthood (bills, tax, legal documents, etc). 

It's true that you should expect the unexpected and that things are never as they seem. You won't really know how one thing is, unless you actually try it. This applied to me with my first job, which fortunately opened so many other doors for me. However, that's what got me questioning the plans I've set for myself. Being a person who likes to explore, challenge myself and try new things, I am now considering taking opportunities for career paths that I’ve put aside in my mind before. 

I've learned an endless amount of things about the media and entertainment industry, and of course, myself - strengths and weaknesses (new and old). As of now, I am sure of one thing... and that is that I want to stay working in that same industry. Whether it be online, TV, radio or print - I know that's where I should be. No matter how draining, dirty or toxic it can get. What I'm not sure of is what exactly I want to do. Before, I always wanted to be a successful graphic artist, writer, host, VJ/DJ, actor, commercial model, director... so many different things and it’s only now that I’m actually being given opportunities to pursue some of these! I've tried all of these before back in school/internships and realized that I have potential in those career paths, but I never really focused on one thing at one time. Plus, I was lacking courage, experience and motivation.

Now, as I freelance here and there, I’m trying out different things related to one or more of those career paths I’m aiming for, in order to discover what it is I really want and should pursue. I’ve taken some of the opportunities that have come my way, while the others are pending. A couple weeks back, I was offered a road-manager position. I also had writer position offers. My most recent offer was to join a talent agency where they manage aspiring artists. I know that if I take one, I’ll probably lose the others, which is why I’m under time pressure to make a decision. It’s not everyday that these kind of opportunities come my way and I’m truly grateful for them. Now it’s my part to make a choice, because there’s so many other factors to consider. But it realy is passion over anything.

Now usually I’m the advice-giver - that person to go to when you have a problem. But lately, I’ve been the one to reach out to my friends and family to ask for their advice on this, because I am honestly lost at the moment. So this the part where I am asking for advice... what should I do?

*This post was written awhile back on my phone, on my way back to our condo in Makati when I wasn’t 100% sober.

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MYXMO! 2015

MYXMO! 2015. Last year’s MYXMO! was extraordinary because we celebrated OPM where the very first MYXMO! was held - the Araneta Coliseum! This year, we had it at the MOA Concert Grounds on Halloween and what made 2015 extra special was that this year we kicked off the no. 1 music channel’s 15th Anniversary!

As expected, it was another solid night with the MYX fam and it was so good to see everyone’s faces again and catch up! Here’s how it all went down!

Last year it was extremely tiring for me as my job for the whole night was to interview all of the artists that performed that night! Let’s just say I lost my voice by the end of the night, but it’s all good! This year, since I’m now just freelancing, I was taken as a photographer so I started on my assignment asap. I was unexpectedly attacked by the “Darrenatics” - the hardcore fans of a young artist here in the Philippines. Haha, but they were all nice so I was able to do them a favor.

While I was doing my thing outside, the MYX VJs all arrived, prep’d and were ready to get the party started! The line-up of artists this year was awesome but for me, I was really looking forward to seeing Hale, Callalily, Roxee B., Silent Sanctuary, Abra and Stick Figgaz to perform! They didn’t disappoint! I also learned about a fresh band called The Ransom Collective and was really feeling some of their songs.

Reunited of course with some of my closest friends from MYX, caught up and pretty much took advantage of the free and unlimited drinks available backstage, haha. #sorrynotsorry

Can’t go into detail with everything else that went down but all I can say is that there was no better way I would have spent Halloween, than at the biggest party of the year - MYXMO! 2015!

Keeping the goodvibes rolling!

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BNO Roadtrip. This was just another unplanned night out with the fellas! We all finally had time to meet up and just chill. Although our original plans never pushed through, it was another solid night with my homeboys! Good to know nothing’s changed. Some of these guys were my closest high school friends, while the others were from college. And now, all I can say is... “You tell her... hashtag FBoy mode!” HAHA!

Keeping the goodvibes rolling!

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Reunited. I finally had the chance to hangout with some of my closest college friends one night in Makati. Although many of our plans didn’t push through (and we weren’t complete), we still managed to have a priceless night - just like old times. You know you’ve got the right friends when you haven’t seen each other for so long, yet when you meet up again, it’s like you’re just picking up where you left off!

It’s weird, because before we’d talk about thesis and school work. But now, we actually had those mature, adult talks about work and life in general. Never thought we’d all make it as far as we’ve come and I’m genuinely proud of each one of these crazy people! Til our next hangout!

Keeping the goodvibes rolling!