#jacqisjournal

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I just discovered a band that makes me feel that feeling that makes me feel the most alive and all of a sudden I am 17 and 20 and 22 and 32 and life is so achingly magical everything is going to be okay

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i’m dating a 50 year old woman & it’s a dream come true & at this point in time I genuinely can’t tell if it’s my mommy issues or a real connection but whatever it is, it’s giving me butterflies & making me kick my feet & giggle so I don’t careee

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no matter how far away I stray or how deeply lost I feel within my own experience, music always grounds me back into my soul. it’s the center of everything for me. it brings me back to aliveness when everything feels heavy and hazy and unrecognizable. music is love and pain and connection and ecstasy and experience and home. it makes me feel vibrant and life feel intentional. live music especially is like medicine and three days of it genuinely healed a very broken part of me. it’s such an incredible gift and I wouldn’t want to live life without it.

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TW: violence, SA

my feed is covered in Epstein files, my body is covered in bruises.

I scream about justice for survivors, my therapist urges me to stop blaming myself.

my heart + stomach are constantly on fire with the ache I feel for the strangers in the news, the fear I felt in my chest quickly dulled into an empty numbness.

and I don’t know which feels more unbearable.

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Does that even make sense?

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“Wisdom”

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i’m about to get so fucking weird

(again)

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I am an artist & I am the art.

It’s crazy to me that people don’t believe in magic when we are all capable of creating something that has never existed before & will never exist again. Each of us are something that has never existed before & will never exist again.