Hesitate (2)
Part 1 Part 3
Here is the second part to my Jaebum series. Hope you guys enjoy.
Plot: You finally reunite with Jaebum but does it end well?
Word Count: 2,719
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The man pulled you into his embrace and let out a hearty laugh, causing a warm feeling inside you. You held him tighter. You wrapped yourself around Jaebum, forgetting about the world around you.
“Y/N! Aish! Don’t choke me.”
“I’m just so happy to finally see you.” You smiled, laying your head on his shoulder. You peered at his side profile and when Jaebum turned his head to look at you, you couldn’t help the flutter in your stomach. Your face heating up, finally realizing how close your faces were to each other. You were caught in a trance when someone beside you cleared their throat.
Lifting your head up, you remembered the rest of Got7 were standing there with men you assumed were their bodyguards. You blushed with embarrassment. Slowly detaching yourself from Jaebum’s back, you begin to compose yourself.
You take one final look at Jaebum. He’s giving you a boyish grin. “Sorry Y/N. Let me introduce you to the guys.” You turn to the others, who all wear suspicious grins on their faces.
“I think we can introduce ourselves, JB.” Jackson engulfed you into a hug. You already knew who all the members were. You have been a fan of Got7 since the day they debuted. They were not only Jaebum’s friends, but his family. You even had the opportunity to briefly meet Jinyoung, when both him and Jaebum became JYP trainees nine years ago.
You couldn’t help but to giggle at their excitement. “Ah Wang Puppy! I’m so happy to meet you too!” You wrapped your arms around him. He screeched into your year. “Oh my god! She called me Wang Puppy!” Jackson was ecstatic and you couldn't help but be filled with joy. He was such a ray of sunshine.
“Hey Jackson, she came here for Jaebum and not you.” You looked up at Jinyoung, who was laughing at the grown puppies excitement. Jackson finally let you go after everyone scolded him.
“Jinyoung, it's so good to see you again.” You went over to hug him too.
“Yeah, it’s been too long.” He gave you a warm smile.
“What!? How come Y/N is so friendly with Jinyoung?” BamBam looked hurt.
You laugh at his reaction. “I actually had the opportunity to meet Jinyoung before JJ Project was formed.”
“Now everybody shake it and shake it for me!” Yugyeom sung causing everyone to laugh.
Each of the guys warmly greeted you.
You glanced at Jaebum, noticing his dark expression. When he noticed you staring at him, his demeanor changed to a softer one and he smiled at you..
All of the excitement caused a small scene outside the airport. There were a few Got7 fans who recognized the group, so you guys had to leave before a mob attacked you.
They directed you to their car and decided to take you out for dinner as a way to welcome you back to South Korea. You were a tad bit sad since you had hoped to have some alone time with Jaebum, but you pushed the feeling away for the time being. They were a happy and energetic bunch; they constantly made you laugh. All the nerves you felt earlier had been forgotten. The only thing that still bothered you was the expression Jaebum wore after you’d left him alone.
You inspect him from across the table. He was leaning on his hand, looking out the window. He seemed melancholy, but you couldn’t help thinking he looked angelic, and so breathtakingly beautiful.
Jaebum didn’t notice you staring. He just seemed so detached from the lively conversation around him. You wondered what was on his mind.
Before you could speak up, BamBam’s scream caught everyone’s attention. The others secretly poured hot sauce into his drink. Knowing how awful this was, you just couldn’t help but to laugh. The poor boy looked over at you, “Not you too, Y/N. Please don’t laugh at me…” He pouted. Seeing how hurt he was, you frowned, “I’m sorry. It's just your reaction was funny but I do agree the guys are awful to do this.”
You looked around you, the rest of the guys still laughing. “Guys, that was terrible.” Mark wiped the tears from his eyes. “Oh Y/N, it was just a small prank.” You understood that but it was still awful.
But unbeknown to you, Jaebum finally tore his eyes away from the window and looked at you. Your laugh so beautiful and pure. A laugh he dearly missed all these years.
Why weren’t you laughing with him like that instead? Why were you more interested in the other guys? Jaebum decided it was ridiculous to feel so jealous, and instead started to enjoy the dinner with his friends. What was he thinking? Of course you were having a fun time with the guys. They were always having fun and he was just brooding. Why would you pay attention to him when he detached himself from the scenario. He takes a deep breath and studies your face.
He couldn’t help but notice how much you’ve changed. The last time he saw you, you were just twelve years old so of course you’ve matured. What fascinated him the most was how you beautiful you were without makeup. You had such a cute nose and beautiful, delicate lips. Your eyes sparkled whenever you smiled or laughed. To him you were perfect.
After the small incident with the hot sauce, everyone returned to their dinner. Another hour goes by when it is decided that everyone is ready to head back home.
“Hey JB.” Jinyoung who was sitting next to him, poked his side. “We’re going back to the dorms. Are you ok?” Jaebum nodded his head. “Yeah, i'm fine. Lets go.”
The drive back was quiet but pleasant. You sat next to Jaebum. He was leaning on the windowsill, looking out. You couldn't help but smile at how peaceful he looked. With heavy eyes, you yawn and lean on Jaebum’s arm.
He turns his head in surprise; noticing your sleeping face, he smiles. He brushes the hair out of your face, taking in everything about you...
The car finally comes to a stop, causing you to stir in your sleep. Jaebum can’t help but chuckle. “Hey Kitty. We’re here.” You smile in your sleep hearing your nickname. This takes Jaebum by surprise. You were peacefully sleeping but you still heard him. Feeling conflicted, he gently shakes you awake.
Your eyes slowly flutter open, and you sit up. You look at Jaebum through lidded eyes.. “We’re here already?” Jaebum nods and helps you out of the car, with one arm he holds your bag and with the other he holds you close to him. You lean into him and let him guide you to where the rest of the guys already got themselves situated.
You smile at them. “Thank you for letting me stay here until I can officially move into my dorm.” You stepped away from Jaebum and bow to the group.
“It's no problem at all, Y/N.” Jinyoung gave you a reassuring smile.
“Actually there is one small problem.” Youngjae spoke up. “Where is Y/N going to sleep?”
“Oh well that's obvious! She will stay in my room!” Jackson exclaimed, hugging onto your shoulders.
You were so caught up in all the excitement that you completely forgot about the sleeping arrangement. Your cheeks heat up at Jackson’s suggestion. Before you could respond, Jaebum smacked Jackson’s hands away.
“She is not staying in your room.” His voice was stern and angry. “She will be staying in my room for the time being.”
Jackson was not hurt. He just seemed to give Jaebum a sly smile. “Oh really? You want to keep Y/N all to yourself? Alone together and sharing a bed?”
You stared at him in shock.
Jaebum was speechless. His cheeks flushing pink for the millionth time today. “What? Of course we’re not going to share a bed. She will take my room and I will stay in the living room.”
You reached out to grab Jaebum’s arm. “I don’t want to cause you any trouble. I feel bad that you would give up your bed for me like this. I don’t mind if...We slept in the same room.”
You mentally slap yourself. How bold of you. You start to stutter, trying to explain what you meant but your voice was shut down by rowdy laughs. The boys all laugh and tease their leader.
Jaebum’s face grew tight and he gritted his teeth.
“Uh...I’m sorry Jaebum. I didn’t mean anything by that. I just feel bad that you would have to sleep on the couch for the next two weeks.” You try to explain it to your best friend. Seeing that the teasing would not stop, you hug Jaebum in an attempt to calm him down. “I’m sorry…” You whisper.
You feel his muscles relax in response to your touch. “Come on guys. You are making Y/N feel uncomfortable. She will end up hating you guys if you don’t stop.” He chuckles. He couldn’t help himself. Your touch did something to him. It made his stomach do flips and he felt a heaviness in his chest. You were always able to ease him of any pain with something as simple as a touch.
The rowdy gang calmed down, watching you guys closely.
“Oh my god. Y/N is amazing! She easily calmed down Jaebum.” Mark watched you in awe.
You hid your face, suddenly growing shy but not letting go of your friend.
“My heart! This is just too cute! You are like Jaebum’s guardian angel! Oh my god. I am going to die from all this cuteness! Just get a room already!” Jackson was teasing.
You burst into laughter. “You guys are so weird.”
You slowly let go of Jaebum and look up at him. “So? Where’s your room? I’m about to pass out from fatigue.” Smiling at him sweetly, he shows you to his room. Before walking away, you turn to the guys and wish them all a goodnight. They all look at you fondly and wish you sweet dreams.
With one last wave, you turn back and run after Jaebum. He leads you to a room in the back of the house. He turns on the lights and sets down your luggage by the closet. You take a moment to explore his place. It wasn’t anything exotic. While you were taking everything in, you noticed a photo frame on one of his shelves. You inched closer and gently pick it up. Your lips raise up into a small smile. It was a photo of you and Jaebum. You seemed to be about ten and Jaebum was fourteen. The photo was taken in a park where both your families frequented together. It was a photo of Jaebum smiling and giving you a piggyback ride. You were having the time of your life, laughing and joking around with him.
“I remember people thought it was so weird that we were friends because of our age difference.” Jaebum spoke up.
You put down the photo and looked over at him. “But it never bothered us. We never thought about that. We were too busy just being friends to worry about anything else.”
“Y/N. I really missed you. And I want to apologize again for how I treated you before you left…” He lowered his head in shame.
You lift his face up and peer into his eyes, smiling. “Bummie, that's all in the past. I already forgave you for that. I know you were just upset with me leaving. I wasn’t happy about it either, but I had no choice.”
Jaebum takes a moment before finally meeting your eyes, his brimming with tears. “Y/N, how are you my friend? You are too nice to me.” He laughs through the tears. Smiling, you caress his cheek with your thumb. “Bummie, you are precious to me. You were always by my side. You protected me and I dearly appreciate you for that.”
Minutes pass by with you being in each other's embrace, just talking about the years you’ve been away, either crying or laughing when appropriate. Jaebum acquainted you with all his adventures as an idol. Fascinated, you listened attentively as he recounted his memories with such fondness. With eyelids growing heavy, you yawned.
“I’m sorry, am I boring you?” He chuckles. You instantly shake your head no. “It's just really late.”
He looks over to the clock on the side table. “Damn. I didn't mean to keep you up so long. I was just ecstatic to finally have time to talk with you.” You nod your head in response and lay down on the bed. Sluggishly replying, “I’m glad to be back...I dearly missed you, Jaebummie.” Moments later, you were sound asleep. Jaebum smiles and drapes the covers over you. “Goodnight Kitty.” He gets in next to you, making sure there is space between you.
At the crack of dawn, your eyes flutter open. A strong burning sensation in the pit of your stomach inducing a panic from you. Your throat constricted, you try to call out to the sleeping figure next to you. “Jaebum…” Tears assault your cheeks, the searing pain intensifying, you try to shake Jaebum awake.
“Mmmm. What is it?” He stirs a little.
“I...Jaebum…” The agonizing pain makes it difficult for you to speak but you try either way. “Bathroom?” A moment passes before he finally replies, “The second door on the left.” You dash off to the bathroom where you barely make it in time to empty the contents of your stomach. The aftermath leaving a burning sensation in the back of your throat. Tears continue to flow , your stomach empty but the pain still there.
Minutes later Jaebum finally hears the muffled cries and bolts out of bed. He abruptly stops at the door of the bathroom. “Bummie, it hurts.” You howl in pain, tears rolling down your flushed cheeks. You are sitting in front of the toilet, clutching your stomach. Jaebum takes a step towards you. That’s when he notices the thick, dark red liquid in the toilet and on your lips. Blood. He falls to his knees, crouching closer to you, and engulfing you in his arms. He yells for help, not knowing what to do, his heart shattering at your sight. He hears the rapid movement of his friends but his mind can only concentrate on you.
“Oh my god. Someone call for an ambulance!” Someone shouts as the rest of the house was engulfed in a panic at the sight of you in such a state. Jaebum could hear the blood pumping in his ears. He was in shock but tried staying calm for you and he whispers to you that everything will be okay. He then proceeds to hum in your ear, and rubs your back to help calm you down. His heart beating rapidly, he tightens his hold on you. Time seems endless, with you crying into Jaebum’s chest and the pain not sedating at all, it feels as if many agonizing minutes have passed and the pain seems to keep getting worse. Jaebum whispers in your ear, “You think you can stand up? Let’s get you somewhere comfortable in the meantime.”
You weren’t entirely sure of yourself right now but you sluggishly nod your head. You force your legs to stand, Jaebum right by your side, helping you out. He is holding onto you, to help steady you. Leaning on Jaebum for a second, you take a slow step forward but once your foot comes in contact with the floor, your legs give out. Before you could fall over, Jaebum is at your side instantly, catching you in his arms. “Y/N, are you okay?” You can see his eyes waver, concerned and worried about you. Before you could respond, the overwhelming scorching pain in your stomach intensifies, your body burning up and your vision fading. You fall limp into Jaebum’s arms. “Y/N!” He yells. The last of your senses to go was your hearing, you could hear Jaebum’s horrifying screams but soon even that became distant and foreign until it ceased altogether.
