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[emodbsk]

heroine 6

[ofvisualshock]

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      Staring at his now empty cup he sighs before getting up to get more ice. Pouring a good amount of whiskey into the cup. Using a chopstick he stirs his whiskey before taking a long gulp, sighing out as if it was the most refreshing thing he's ever had. Another drunken night.

    He brings the whole bottle with him and returns to his spot on the couch, where there laid a notebook and pen. Perhaps a new song... His two cats rush off to play and leave him alone in his large living room.

    The TV had long ago been turned off since he couldn't even focus on whatever he had been trying to watch and the noise was only irritating. But in the silence like this he was reminded of how alone he was. He thinks back on when he had four people to look after and fuss over. Four people to nag and check up on. Jaejoong swallows the painful lump in his throat, biting his lip in the process before he downs more of the whiskey.

      As if that would ease the pain. As if it would help him rid his thoughts of how much he missed them. How much he missed all the laughter, even the bickering and fighting. His life had revolved so much around them. They were a part of him and he even had them inked to his skin as proof.

      But they didn't need him anymore. They were perfectly fine living their lives. And Jaejoong was so proud of each one of them. Despite some hardships, everyone was pulling through. And he tries to remind himself that he too was doing more than fine. He was very successful and he still loved making music and performing. He still had lots of fans who supported him and counted on him to continue making music.

     Then why did his heart ache like this? Was it because he was now forgotten? He was no longer needed. The members who have grown to be apart of who he was did not need him, but he needed them. He chuckles bitterly at how pathetic he is. Things will never be like they used to be. He wouldn't wake up early to cook and make sure everyone except himself had breakfast. No more writing notes or texting or calling to check up on them. Or staying up late to talk with whoever needed it. And he should be fine with that. But he isn't.

     The urge to call and text then is strong. In the past he would have. Especially in his drunken state. For being the hyung who never cried and took care of everyone else, he sure has cried a lot while being alone. But he's past tears now. He won't call or text them because they most likely won't respond. He'll be ignored. Perhaps two may answer or get back to him later, but the other two won't... The two he wants to talk to most, most likely won't want anything to do with him.

He downs the rest of his whiskey before picking up his pen and notebook again.

A sharp pain in his chest makes him sigh and let his head fall forward. His heart breaks a little more each night like this.

Nights like these he realizes without them he feels so all alone...

[dbskfanficlist]

Hiii can you recommend som- cough** a lot**cough vampire and wolf fanfics of TVXQ although I prefer YunJae ship it could be any ship in tvxq since their my ultimate bias group ya know😏 it could be bloody and smut and angst etc. I just need some good stories. thank you

I’ll try my best to help ^^

To all under-aged readers, heed any andall warnings that the author’s post if the story happens to be rated.

If anyone has other vampire fics that they’d like to rec, please feel free to do so. This isn’t a definitive list. It’s just what came to mind while I was thinking up titles ^^

Yunjae:

Possess by little-passions (vampires)

Claire de Lune series by Caleyedoscope(werewolves)

Feather Hurricane by Caleyedoscope(werewovles)

A Taste of You by _Mirabella_ (vampires, wip but the author still updates regularly and has a goodtrack record of finishing her work)

Touch by Caleyedoscope (vampires,Jaeho)

Mine by hattukissa (vampire)

The Wolf Within by hattukissa(werewolves)

Join Me in Death by hattukissa(vampires)

In Joy and in Sorrow (sequel to Join Mein Death) by hattukissa (vampires)

Daydreaming by fanficaddiction(werewolves + click the tag titled “extra: werewolf!verse” at thebottom of the story for companion fics featuring other DBSK pairings)

Enigma by hurleysunn (vampires)

The Alpha Sub (werewolves)

Red Windmills in Moonlight by Wedspawn(vampires)

Lupis Cavi Cautum by Orionsroad(werewolves)

Eternal by meheartyunho (vampires)

My Pretty Hero by be-ddelusionall(vampires)

Les Miserables by Quilla aka tempo(vampires)

Nothing but the Blood by yukimiya877(vampires + I think you need to join her livejournal community toread this one. Joining isn’t moderated though).

A Century of Sleep by arrowlights(vampires)

At the End of Forever by orinionsroad(vampires + I’ll be nice and give a warning that this fic isconsidered a sad one).

Turned by beeswaxing (vampires + thisone is unfinished and probably not likely to be finished, but it’sstill a fun read).

Bloodlust by Yuniquekimchi (vampires)

Beast of the Matter by Lunarrays (werewolves and vampires + link leads to the masterlist. Just scroll down til you find the story title)

Craving Sin by Queenlucifer (vampires)

Under the Red Moon by habitate(werewolves)

The Chase by habitate (werewolves)

Feral by habitate (werewolves)

What’s Hidden in the Woods by megera23(werewolves)

Corruptela by leprixx (vampires? Ithink Jaejoong’s a vampire, but it’s never explicitly stated)

Moonshade by Smartcat ( werewolves,also unlikely to be finished, but what was written still makes for anice read)

Minjae:

Bites by be-ddelsionall (vampires)

Do We Sparkle? By intacte (vampires)

Yoosu:

Blood Siren by equilibrium (vampires)

Homin:

Soul Burner by Caleyedoscope(werewolves)

The Colors of Mercy by Atriums(werewolves)

Fixation by enigmaxempress (vampires +lots of other pairings in this oneshot)

Minchun:

Contract Kisses by Caleyedoscope(vampires)

Jaechun:

Heartbeat by be-ddelusionall (vampires)

[violablebambimaknae]

We believe!!!!!

Love love love ~~

[sarasweaterpaws]

Not THAT Drunk Jae... XD

This one is for my own Jae; you know who you are. ^_~

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My gifs/my edits.

[musings4the5]

Credit:  @jaejoongmoods

[graphicabyss]

So the other day I went into my video drafts and found several mostly done fanvideos from 2 fandoms ago and it felt like if I don’t finish them now, I never will. More than anything, I felt the need to complete this one. After all the shit that went down in the last few years, it was soothing.   

[socialistseunghyun]

Seunghyun’s cake says happy birthday dearest byeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeee. I’m so glad he has friends like these two 😌