u choose: "i won’t leave you. i can’t lose you. get up…" or "don’t you think recently we are becoming too close?"
“don’t you think recently we are becoming too close?”
bomin doesn’t say anything in reply. what is there to say, really? it’s true that he isn’t exactly the most sociable guy out there –– but he knows a few people, and amongst those few people, there were even fewer that he felt close to. jaein was someone that bomin hadn’t ever thought that he’d consider a friend, much less a good friend.
that was what jaein was, right? a good friend? jihoon was someone bomin could consider family, but jaein was someone that seemed to always thread the line between friend and more. or at least, that was what it felt for someone like bomin. someone who’d spent so much of his life guarding himself against the world.
it’d be a lie to say that bomin didn’t want to get closer to jaein. he trusted the boy, even if jaein didn’t know him (the real him. the him that sits behind a computer, working for a criminal organisation), he’d always wanted to be close to jaein. closer, closer, closer. maybe something about jaein gave him comfort, the fact that jaein didn’t live in this world of his. maybe being with jaein meant that bomin could sometimes forget that he lived in this world of crime. maybe that was it, maybe that was why he’d always wanted to be closer to jaein. closer, closer, closer.
but too close? how? bomin didn’t quite understand. was jaein pushing him away? (no. jaein wouldn’t do that).
he turns to look at jaein, and it’s only then when he realizes the distance between them –– the physical distance. jaein was so close. but too close? no, bomin thinks, this doesn’t feel too close. and then he remembers the different worlds they live in.
icarus had flown too close to the sun and burned his wings. jaein was like the sun to bomin, something that was constantly shining despite the dark world he’d lived in. something that bomin would turn to when he needed warmth. and how could someone like bomin dare to close the gap between him and jaein?
“maybe,” he finally replies. “but is that so bad?”
icarus had flown too close to the sun, but at least he flew.