“You–uh–spooked…my heart.” LJLKDFJSDLKA
EAR-BLEED INDUCING DUBSTEP spawns a hazardous, mind-boggling concoction with massive alcohol evaporation from copious bodies, cups & bottles, along with the air particles that are engulfed in smoke coming out of the lit ends of cigarettes & joints. as if the toxic air around them wasn’t enough to alter their behaviour & get involved in their brains’ activities, plenty are there with previously ingested deliriants & other hallucinogens, making daehyun inexplicably tense. in spite of, perhaps, being slightly intoxicated, jaewon succeeds in noticing that his boyfriend’s having a hard time catching their breath in the midst of a dancing crowd with a grey, smog-like cloud above them, and the next thing dae knows they’re sitting on a couch with a glass of cool water being handed to them. a string of reassurances & a reminder that death sticks have a tendency to affect their pulmonary system, that there’s nothing major to worry about, turn out to be enough to calm down the brunet whose neck is all marked up with the same shade applied on dae’s mouth —— it’s now smeared all over the older’s chin as well, since they spent the entirety of two songs coddling jaewon’s flesh, their bodies rocking together to the beat while they were carried by the atmosphere of the halloween party. their heartbeat is somewhat rapid, they’re nauseous & their body’s on the tenser side, so they desperately fish out their PILLS from their bag, ones that they know would elevate their mood & deal with their body’s antics. upon having their lungs filled with a considerable amount of less polluted oxygen, a rosy, sublingual, disintegrating anxiety tablet is alluringly placed atop dae’s tongue, inviting jaewon into a world of slow heart rate & smiles that are beyond explanation. pulling him in by placing their small palm on the back of his neck, daehyun can only taste a sugary sweet cherry-flavoured non-alcoholic mocktail they drank beforehand, even though the tablet is currently m e l t i n g between two hot, wet pink muscles gently pushed together. they can feel themself being pressed against the backrest, sleeve-covered hands in their lover’s hair while they battle over who’ll get the higher dosage of HAPPINESS —— it feels relieving, freeing kissing jaewon in public as opposed to hiding even in their own home. they deem their friends drunk & distracted enough to notice them swallowing each other on the couch & daehyun enjoys pampering their man too much to stop for the sake of keeping their relationship a secret. neither their embrace, the gliding of their lips, nor the provocative movements of their tongues is akin to their usual, loving lip-locks that they share on a daily basis —— these are hungry & purely s e x u a l. if they were able to speak at this very moment, I LOVE YOU would be the last thing to come out of their mouth —— hushed, dirty expressions of neediness would be prioritised. when their lips get sore from horny kissing, throat hurting from holding back moans that are begging to come out, when jaewon’s hands start burning them too much for them to handle & do nothing about, they abruptly detach their mouth from jae’s & gasp for air, the sound overpowered by the obnoxious, myringa-tearing music, their bodies hidden by the darkness of the room. their head falls back as they pant & remove their hair from their forehead, feeling jae further transfer their sticky gloss onto their own neck. ❛ wonnie ? —— not here. i … i’m so thirsty, i’ll go get us some drinks so that i avoid jumping your bones. m’kay ? don’t go anywhere. ❜
A LAZY, MEDICATED GRIN languidly tugs on the left corner of their lips harder than on the right one, perhaps because the muscle on the former side has had more exercise throughout their life. among all the intoxicated party-goers, daehyun must be experiencing the most brutal high just from breathing & kissing jaewon, utterly dazed as they get their fingers around a plastic cup of gin & a bottle of beer —— they’re incapable of reacting to the coldness on their calloused skin, even though they’re sure they can sense it. TONIGHT, the night of halloween, is supposed to be the one daehyun proposes to jaewon that they should try releasing endorphin & drowning in it together, though, not with the help of chocolate or pills, but rather something much more intimate that they’ve been waiting & mentally preparing for for a great deal of time. unlit candles are awaiting them in their room &, judging by daehyun’s interests, they’re there to level up the spookiness rather than romance, though, they could manage to increase the latter as well. they have everything settled for tonight, but most importantly they’re mentally ready for bearing themself in front of their boyfriend & giving him their all —— the only thing left to do is let jaewon know that they desire him & are finally willing to do something about it. had they not previously rid themself of A N X I E T Y, they wouldn’t be able to whisper make love to me in jaewon’s ear, something they’re set on doing right now. the beverages are placed atop a coffee table with much care before daehyun sinks into the couch next to their lover once again. the boy appears to be in the midst of a conversation with the only girl they’re living with —— they just have to wait with their sultry request. regardless, they glue their body to jaewon’s side, their cheek on the flat surface above his collar bone. dae catches themself m e w l i n g in need into jaewon’s ear while an attention-seeking hand is caressing his thigh, wanting to steal him away from kerry, who has an arm around his shoulders. daehyun’s current state of mind makes them agitated, their irritation threatening to bubble over the top & make them HISS at the female who’s keeping their boyfriend preoccupied, unable to please their currently immensely possessive self. suddenly, a god-sent angel appears in the form of han yeseul & drags kerry away —— they’re not eligible to tell whether she noticed what was going on & decided to get tipsy, clueless kerry away from the pair, or she simply wanted to dance with her best friend. not bothering to think about it at all, dae takes a nice, big sip of gin —— they’re so used to its unique flavour that they no longer scrunch up their face in surprise at the bitterness. as soon as the glass’ bottom finds its safe place on the table, daehyun shamelessly climbs atop jaewon’s lap, and immediately traps him in a deep kiss that chimlin notices after a few moments. the girl is not well-versed in their relationship —— all she thinks is that they’re drunkenly hooking up, like she’d do with one of her friends. curiosity keeps nagging at daehyun, even though they’re in the middle of teasing jae’s mouth with their tongue, so much that they pull back in order to gaze into his wide, deer-like eyes. they ask what kerry wanted from him & silently listen to what their boyfriend has to say. they remain expressionless through the entire explanation, though, their intestines keep twisting, heart turning black in annoyance & anger. jaewon will spend what was supposed to be one of the most special nights of their lives cuddling a housemate of theirs & daehyun can do jack shit about it, because they know how much jae loves kerry. they put a fake, sour smile on & pat jaewon’s shoulder weakly before getting off his legs. they mumble something about going to dance with jaesung & soon disappear in the crowd. they won’t even tell him what they planned for tonight, since it’s not happening for sure.
CONSTANT, INDISTINCT CHATTER in the background is all their fuzzy mind can pick up on, unable to comprehend any of the words which aren’t even directed at them, anyway. they’re all waiting for their ride & dae’s the only one whose lips are sealed —— taemin, jaesung, jaewon & kerry are talking & laughing, while their neighbours have already left in another car. although they’re not uttering a single word or actively participating in the conversation, they push themself to C H U C K L E every now & then, pretending to be fine so that no one would pose any questions. as soon as their ride arrives, dae’s the first one to hop inside, sitting right behind the driver with taemin in the middle, jaesung at the front, and jaewon on the far right with kerry on his lap. daehyun leans their temple against the window & exhales strained, warm breaths onto the glass whilst their whole face is scrunched into a painful expression. the effect of the pill has worn off, both the initial joy & the following numbness are gone & they’re trapped in the backseat with their suffocating feelings, somewhat tipsy. the others’ enthusiasm is making their skin crawl, they’re only a second away from allowing a scream to tear from their throat. the fact that they can’t get what they desperately need combined with the overwhelming jealousy turns them into a ticking time bomb, promising to e x p l o d e at any point now. however, a breath of fresh air that hits them upon exiting the vehicle, calms down their strained neurons. when jaewon & kerry head upstairs and taemin & jaesung tumble into the basement, daehyun ventures into the kitchen in search for the only possible remedy that might heal their needy, wounded & bratty soul —— SWEETS.
FIVE FULL MINUTES get wasted on rummaging through cabinets and cabinets filled with various snacks that could quite possibly feed an entire army, only for a sole winner to be chosen and placed on the counter —— an unopened jar of peanut butter. the thing is, daehyun knows that they’re not craving anything sugary, but their brain pushes them to unscrew the lid & devour as much of the product as they possibly can simply because it’s a habitual thing for them. having hopped on the counter, they allow their short legs to dangle over the edge as the first spoonful of peanutty goodness gets licked off the silver utensil. they cringe at the initial texture of the substance that they feel on their tongue, but the aftertaste is too amazing for them to be bothered by it. they distract their brain from thinking too much about kerry & jaewon all cuddled up by reading the ingredients of their treat. DEXTROSE. fuck. the carbohydrate resembles glucose too much, a simple sugar that daehyun has too much of in their bloodstream to begin with. what yanks their thoughts & sight away from the small black letters printed and plastered on the container that they’re holding is the sound of familiar footsteps approaching them.
JEREMY: ‘ look what the cat dragged in, ’ the infamously tactless artist, who’s descended to the kitchen from his room in order to get himself a drink, points out the utter mess on the tipsy one’s face. ‘ did you try to make out with a train while it was in the middle of running you over ? ‘ he teases whilst taking a bottle of water from the fridge.
DAEHYUN: instead of jumping to their own defense straight away, daehyun perks up their brows at the sight of jeremy holding a beverage in his hand, their throat feeling dry all of a sudden. ‘ can you pour me a glass of coke ? —— ZERO. ’ it’s nearly comical that someone who survives merely on carbs suddenly watches their sugar intake when it comes to cola. they get covered in g o o s e b u m p s at the sound of the fizzy drink being opened, not quite fond of that particular noise. they bring their phone up to their face to view & estimate the damage, which is how they become painfully aware of the ridiculous amount of crinkles their costume is adorned with, along with the glitter & gloss that are coating their chin & neck, as well as the smeared makeup that somehow fails to make their features unattractive. ‘ aaand exactly. except, the train took an unexpected left turn out of daehyunville. next station: KERRYLAND. choo-choo ! ’ they finally respond to jeremy’s original provocation, bottom lip poutily jutted out as they lower their device, their high-pitched, eternally childlike & ecstatic voice downgraded to an obscure mumble.
JEREMY: upon finalizing the entire coke-serving process, jeremy lightly slaps the inner side of daehyun’s right knee, spreads their legs and stands between their thighs. a jolt of his chin up marks his sudden rise in interest at the mention of their petite roommate, but he manages to hold back an avalanche of questions whilst daehyun’s refreshing themself with a large gulp of their drink. he attempts to stuck his finger in the jar of peanut butter, but his hand only gets smacked away from it. ‘ are you insinuating that ker stole jaewon away from you ? that’s nonsen— … ’ he exaggeratedly rolls his eyes at daehyun wondering how he figured out that jae was the person in question. without bothering to explain, jeremy takes a couple of sips of his water. ‘ listen, i’m not blind, or dumb, even though i look incredibly stupid. now, what’s the matter ? ’
DAEHYUN: they look down at their legs, quite expressionless, which is a rare occurrence when it comes to the designated sunshine of the house. ‘ don’t laugh at me but … i’m not like you, or chimlin, or yeseul. i can’t be … intimate with people because of my insecurities. now, jaewonnie and i have been dating for a while now & i’ve finally got my shit together, and i … ’ their voice becomes strained and they rub their eye, only further destroying their look. ‘ i wanted to do it tonight, but ker asked him to cuddle with her and yeah. i mean, i don’t have a problem with them doing so, i just have a problem that it’s tonight of all nights. but, yeah, i get it, it’s completely my fault, i didn’t make my intentions clear in the first place. ’ daehyun ends up whispering and downs their soda, the jar closed as jeremy moves out of the way for the smaller to hop down onto their feet. ‘ it’s whatever, really, i’m just being a sulky child. anyway, sleep tight, remy, i’ll see you tomorrow. ’ they smile weakly and get on their tiptoes in order to peck his cheek.
JEREMY: he keeps his eyes on the younger, not blinking for a second as he feels for them immensely, hating that they got somewhat broken-hearted accidentally. he toys with one of his many leather bracelets while thinking, only to theatrically snap his fingers before dae gets the chance to walk away. ‘ listen, go wash up & your boyfriend will be delivered to your doorstep in a couple of minutes. ’ he announces proudly, with a dorky grin plastered onto his lips, which leaves daehyun dumbfounded. ‘ my methods shall not be uncovered or questioned. just go. shoo. ’ with his rapid hand movements, he makes daehyun burst into laughter and throw their head back, only to listen to their trusty friend and head up to the bathroom.
UNINVITED & UNANNOUNCED, much like all the other times in his life, jeremy struts into kerry’s room, only to catch the two best friends talking & innocently cuddling on the bed. thankfully, he’s not the type of person who often feels awkward or embarrassed, so he effortlessly, naturally starts clowning around.. ❛ there’s an emergency ! ❜ he claims as he walks up to the bed & wraps his fingers around kerry’s ankles, slowly pulling her towards himself, until she’s close enough for him to pick her up and throw her over one of his shoulders. ❛ the emergency is that my heart is bleeding because this one right here has completely forgotten about our movie date. sorry, i have to take her away right now. ❜ jeremy shrugs and gesticulates to jaewon that he should go to his room by also pointing in that direction behind kerry’s back. he carefully carries her to his room, which is farther away than kerry’s is from the one where dae & jae reside, so that she wouldn’t have to hear any noises coming from them. ❛ sorry, i really had to do that. i’ll explain everything in a second. ❜ he mumbles once kerry’s safely placed on his bed, only to find his phone & jokingly send maybe i’ll get lucky tonight too to daehyun. he gets a pig emoji as a response, which he finds fitting & smiles at it before lowering himself next to the probably confused female. ❛ soo, do you want me to a) explain why i did this, b) explain why i called this a movie date or c) shut up &, i don’t know, cuddle you instead of jaewon ? ❜
BUZZING WITH AN ALARMING AMOUNT OF JOY, as if they have a fucking fever, daehyun’s located in front of the mirror of their & jaewon’s bathroom, stripped of all of their clothes, apart from the tight black briefs with a print of skeletal hands that are positioned so that it appears as though they’re grabbing dae’s cute, round butt —— this particular pair has been chosen over a punny one with white want this booooty? writing + an adorable drawing of a ghost on it. having washed their teeth already, dae’s in the godawful process of taking their makeup off, a candidate for the biggest annoyance & inconvenience of their entire life. a pair of glimmering dark eyes doesn’t lurk away from their own reflection upon having their ears acknowledge jaewon’s arrival, but their heart sure does start doing somersaults when he enters their field of vision by standing right behind them. ❛ hi, ❜ they emit a quick giggle, a product of their tense nerves, as they turn their head back to revel in jaewon’s beauty over their shoulder whilst feeling his strong arms wrap around their waist. dae leans all the way into him, not allowing a single particle of air between their bodies &, before they can talk themself out of it, they’re kissing him with a minty mouth, an enticing vanilla flavour coming from the smooth lip balm that they slathered on beforehand. it doesn’t take long for both of them to realise that the initial THIRST from the party is still there, revived by only a few greedy touches. trying to keep things from escalating too quickly, as well as having an utter need to be a damn tease, daehyun spins around and smacks a makeup wipe into jaewon’s hand, directing him towards their under eyes. they entertain themself as they shove his sweatpants down past his thighs, mouth forming an innocent o shape while the younger’s cleaning up the black mess from their skin. the angel smirks devilishly, yet they stay still until their boyfriend deems his job finished. immediately after that, assuming they no longer look like a damn raccoon, daehyun grabs the hem of jae’s shirt and yanks it over his head, their mouths colliding passionately as the older’s hands worship every dent & curve of the younger’s sculpted torso. a whimper echoes against the tiles and bounces back to them when jaewon puts them up on the sink, standing between their legs so that they could be as close as humanly possible. their hearts beat as one, daehyun’s fingers expressing their d e s i r e by having their short nails gently scratch at the tender flesh of jaewon’s back before they get lost in his unruly locks, pleading him to inch forward & deepen their embrace. ❛ make love to me. please. just, t-touch me & love me, i’m begging you. i’m ready, lover, i want this. ❜ dae looks at him with desperately blown pupils, yet with a hopeful glint prettily sitting on their irises while they’re attempting to get what they want in a meekly voice, an octave higher than their usual speaking tone. the next thing they know is that they’re being carried out of the bathroom & into their beloved chamber. thick thighs are holding on to the taller for dear life, pink knee-high sock-covered calves crossed behind jaewon’s back, until the smaller is pressed against the softest of mattresses. they’re purely disoriented for a couple of moments, twisting & wiggling their body underneath their boyfriend while sharing kisses & placing them all over each other. ❛ wait, wait ! we need to do this right. ❜ they swiftly escape from the bed & do their best to light the candles as quickly as possible, as well as put on the music, a playlist which consists of the songs that jaewon has picked out for dae, along with a handful of those that the latter has added. their ‘ lettuce ’ is no longer in the room, which has, instead, been decorated with some of their favourite plants: dark pink amaryllis, pastel pink balloon flowers & stunningly unique bleeding hearts right at their window. once the mood is set, daehyun nips at their rosy bottom lip & stands at the foot of the bed, admiring their boyfriend’s physique with a slight blush strategically hidden by the barely illuminated room. chuckling in amusement in order to conceal their timidity, they throw a light blanket over jaewon’s nearly nude body, only to crawl under it & between his legs. from underneath the thin fabric comes a series of wet smooching noises produced by dae’s thick lips loving on jae’s thigh from his knee up to the hem of his underwear. testing out the territory, they give the bulging outline a hard lick & a drag of their full bottom lip, noting jaewon’s reactions whilst they move to his upper body. not an inch of his flesh is left unkissed or immensely lightly suckled on during the travel of daehyun’s mouth from jaewon’s hipbone all the way to his jawline. with a set of swollen petals, the infinitely enamored one pulls back from jae’s chin just to bump their noses together & hum a weak BOO~ as they form an endearing expression. their boyfriend’s comment about his spooked heart cracks them up, their eyes turning into beautiful crescents. ❛ that’s not your heart, it’s mine. i can spook it all i want. ❜ they announce with a confident, dulcet smile, and lower themself so that they could place a caring kiss right on top of jaewon’s sternum. their love for this man is strong enough for them to overcome their shyness, which leads to them getting rid of their safety blanket after which they curl their fingers around the elastic band of jae’s boxers.
GRUMBLING TUMMIES turn out to be the thing that breaks apart two sweaty, burning bodies that have melted together only hours after they’ve first come in contact & definitely after daehyun & jaewon have witnessed the rays of sunshine peek through the glass of their window & caress their glistening skin. clad in their boyfriend’s oversized shirt that barely reaches their mid-thighs, and nothing other than that, daehyun decides to head downstairs in search for something edible that would restock their energy. having had their last orgasm just minutes ago, they’re barely navigating on their wobbly legs, having to fully lean against the wall so that they wouldn’t kiss the ground whilst going down the numerous steps. needless to say, their locks are all over the place, the flesh of their neck, collar bones & inner thighs coloured with a distinctly rosy shade, with occasional, much redder spots here & there, which may or may not blossom into a deep purple with time. when they step into the kitchen, they’re immediately met with four pairs of eyes feasting on their unexpected appearance. looking straight in front of themself, daehyun fails to converse with any of them, since they have only one goal & only one goal in mind: find some food & bring it back to the bedroom where they can enjoy themself with the love of their life. mentally thanking jeremy for preparing pancakes, they stack a couple of them on a clean plate, drowning them in syrup, and take a whole bottle of coke from the fridge. they head out, walking like bambi on ice & feeling everyone’s silent stare on the back of their skull. before they close the door behind themself, they huff and peek inside. ❛ yeah, we banged. ❜ they start shutting the door, only to poke their head inside one more time. ❛ and yes, it was fucking amazing. ❜ they almost slam the door behind themself and try to go to their boyfriend as fast as their sore legs allow them. the biggest grin in the world graces their face when they see jaewon stretched out & naked on the bed. the plate is gently lowered on his chest as daehyun assumes their place on their rightful throne with a faint moan —— jaewon’s pelvis. without letting him protest, they feed him the first piece of one of the pancakes and lick the syrup right off his chin, which leads them to a sticky, sweet kiss. after a few shared bites, daehyun moves the plate onto the bed, so that they can lay their head on jaewon’s chest, eyes closing briefly to the sound of his heart vibrating. lazily they take their phone from the nightstand while jae’s munching on his breakfast, not minding if he looks down at their screen to see what they’re typing. upon being asked that exact question, they kiss jaewon’s pectoral and nuzzle his whole face into it. ❛ i’m just cancelling my plans for today. not like i’d be able to function properly after losing energy all night anyway. ❜ daehyun raises their head the slightest bit in order to look at the other. ❛ stay with me ? we can cuddle all day, sleep, not leave the bed … ❜
