I’m back to working on Broken Chains. This one won’t be quite as heavy as the chapter preceding it! 😈
For a moment, Jake froze, but then he sat beside her and rubbed her back as she dissolved into sobs. “It’s all right. But please don’t tell her I made you cry…”
Estela laughed through her tears but couldn’t keep them from coming. So much had been bottled up for too long. After an age, the tears slowed, and she was left hiccoughing into her friend’s shoulder.
“Maybe… a little. I’m just… sorry I lost my shit with you. This has just been…” She shuddered.
“Water under the bridge. But, if you wanna talk…? The usual host of the sharin’ circle can’t be with us, but I’ll try and keep the sarcasm to a minimum.”
Estela nodded, but for a long while remained quiet. Some things she didn’t talk about, not to anyone. Not to anyone except for Taylor. But, she told herself, Taylor was right there with her. She grasped her wife’s soft hands gently.
“No, I… I do.” She took a deep breath. “So… uh…just before I got the letter saying my mother had died, she wrote to me, begging for help. She knew her life was in danger, that she was running out of time. Tio Nicolas and I did everything we could, but there was no getting anyone in or out of La Huerta without going through Rourke. I’d been trained all my life to take care of myself, but the only person I wanted to protect was so far away, and scared… and I couldn’t reach her. This… feels the same. I’m helpless, Jake. I can see Taylor right there in front of me, but she might as well be miles away. And the whole damn time I know that any second she could be ripped away from me forever, like Mom was. I can’t stand it.”
Jake rubbed her shoulder pacifyingly. “I think I’m getting why you took my head off…”
“Yeah, because you were being an ass.” She swallowed, hard and painful. “For so long I wasn’t scared of anything, I figured I had nothing to lose. But then I found Taylor. And now…”
“… now you’re basically re-living your worst nightmare come true.”
Estela bit her lip, holding back from crying, and nodded. “It must have been like this for you… with Mike. I’m sorry. And then… the person you most want to run to for comfort isn’t even there.”
For a few moments, Jake was quiet, forced into reflection. He certainly did know that feeling; having survived what should have been the worst trauma of his life, only to go through it all over again.
“I’m sorry,” she said again. “I just… miss her.”