Every person that I know, that I have opened up about my schizophrenia to, has shared that they have had at least one psychotic experience in their life.
Whether that was that they have psychotic features as a part of their bipolar disorder, depression or PTSD. Or that they have seen a shadow of a person out of the corner of their eye, or a delusion that some entity is after them. Even if it was just a single instance of hearing a voice that wasn't real that stuck with them.
It seems like when I break the barrier of stigma and silence, people feel comfortable enough to share their own experiences and I love that.
Psychotic experiences are extremely common. Anecdotally, it seems that everyone has had at least one hallucination, delusion or instance of paranoia in their life. And I wish everyone was able to talk about these experiences, and how they've affected them without fear of shame or panic from the people around them. This is a normal thing that brains do for whatever reason. It shouldn't be seen as bad unless it negatively affects someone, and then you should listen with care and see if the person needs help in any way.
That's why acceptance for those of us with disorders like schizophrenia is so important. If you can hear a schizophrenic person out, and not treat us like we are dangerous or scary. See as equal human beings that happen to have these experiences. Only then will the pathway for everyone to share their experiences with psychosis be open and normalized.
I think it's fascinating that human brains can create experiences out of thin air. I think it's so cool that everyone can relate to me in even a small way. Imagine how many interesting conversations and connections we could all be having about this if we destigmatized psychosis and schizophrenia.
…psychiatry assumes that society does not cause distress in biologically normal people, who are considered biologically normal at least in part because they are economically productive. This assumption permits the conclusion that if a person is distressed to the point of unproductivity, it is because that person—not society—is abnormal. Thus, psychiatry’s commitment to biological essentialism not only masks the role of the constructed sociopolitical environment in creating distress but depoliticizes it by characterizing that allegedly irrational distress as induced by biological abnormality.
– Kiera Lyons, “The Neurodiversity Paradigm and Abolition of Psychiatric Incarceration” (2023)
“Ah sorry I’m just dumb” (having ADHD my whole life has meant that I’ve been criticised heavily for making mistakes that come part and parcel with the condition. Even the people I love most in the world have chastised me for mistakes that I spend much of my life worrying about and trying to avoid. It’s much easier to tell you I’m just a silly guy than explain to you that no matter how much effort, how much thought, how much stress I put into avoiding these same mistakes, I will keep making them over and over again. My brain is structurally built to thwart me throughout it all.)
no constant affirming, acknowledging & reacting to the 3d, no methods, no living in the end — just choosing my truth.
my biggest turning point when it comes to manifesting was knowing non-dualism and then understanding that i'm not a person trying to manifest something. there's no me here and my manifestation there. there's no A and B.
i am my manifestation, matter of fact, i am everything. i am the experience. i'm not the human, i am the experience experiencing itself.
after understanding that, labels started to lose meaning. things like "bad" or "good" are meanings created by humans to help us explain how we feel and make us have a criteria to make decisions. those meanings make sense to me because i am, indeed experiencing human life, but i'm not bound to that, i'm beyond that.
as i said, i'm the experience. so, without labels, i started to realize that everything we experience is simply neutral. we are the ones to assign meaning to it, but, at its core, everything is neutral.
i'll give you an example. let's say you crash your car, you're not hurt or anything, but your car doesn't work and you need to take it to a mechanic, the mechanic tells you it's gonna cost a lot of money to fix your car. you'd certainly think "hell, this situation sucks. i have to spend a lot of money and i won't have my car for a few days." you claim this situation is bad. the mechanic on the other hand, thinks "ha! this dumbass crashes their car and now i'll get a lot of money!" he claims this situation is good.
same situation. two completely different interpretations. everything we experience simply is. not bad, not good. it just is. you can decide its meaning.
okay, got that. so how do i manifest with this?
we've learned that everything is neutral, we are the ones who can assign any meaning to anything. "true" and "false" are meanings created by humans, not set in stone laws. see what i'm getting at?
when manifesting, i simply assign meaning to my experience. i decide what is "true" and "false". i look at my initial circumstances, say for example: lack of money, bad skin, no job — and deem it false. deem it simply my imagination. not real. then i say to myself "the truth is actually that i have money, or clear skin, or my dream job." and done. saying it only once is enough. then i move on, and go on with my life knowing what is truth and what isn't.
at moments like these i like to remind myself that i'm not the human. i'm not a human trying to manifest something and i'm not stuck to identifying with something forever. i am the experience, i am the observer of the experience, therefore i can simply identify with a different truth.
that's how i ignore the 3d. or, rather, how i don't. i never force myself to ignore something, specially when it comes to circumstances that are hard to ignore. personally, it just causes me anxiety to force myself to ignore something because of the idea that "if i don't ignore it, i won't get my manifestation". whenever unfavorable circumstances arise, i acknowledge them, and gently remind myself "hmm... no. this is false, the truth is that i already have my desire." and move on. again, i decide what is truth and what isn't, i decide the meaning of everything because i am everything.
finally, i wanna highlight that, for me, 'knowing something is the truth' is not constantly affirming, doing 10 different methods at once, listening to thousands of subliminals until i convince myself. i also don't have to constantly be happy and gleeful about having my manifestation. i simply have to know it is the truth and naturally sustain that truth. like: when you got your dream phone, you were very happy for the first few days, but a year later with that phone, you're out of that "honeymoon phase", you just know you have it and... yeah. that's all there is to it. i simply have to know my manifestation as a natural and instinctive truth. doesn't matter what circumstances i see because i can simply deem them imaginary/false and still know my truth, sustain that truth for as long as i want.
et voila! there you have it, how i manifest! i simply live my life knowing what it is and what isn't truth and... yeah. everything just unfolds without me having to do much. everything is malleable, play with reality, you're the experience. bye bye 🪷
𝕿alvez você esteja precisando 𝗺𝘂𝗶𝘁𝗼 ler isso, assim como 𝘂𝗺𝗮 𝘃𝗲𝘇 eu estive também.
Sabe aqueles momentos em que as circunstâncias externas começam a te afetar psicologicamente? O impacto costuma parecer muito mais "real" do que qualquer entendimento interno.
É como se tudo que você tivesse aprendido, como: "não há o que conseguir", "tudo já está acontecendo na consciência" e "não existe distância entre você e o que deseja", simplesmente não conseguisse sustentar o peso da experiência do momento.
Mas isso não significa que você não entendeu nada, nem que está falhando, significa só que a mente ainda tenta usar o entendimento como uma defesa, e a vida mostra que não é assim que funciona.
Quando algo de fora te machuca, a mente entra correndo dizendo "mas eu sei que nada disso é real, por que ainda dói tanto?". Só que a dor não é um erro. A dor é uma reação natural de um "eu" que aprendeu por anos a interpretar o mundo como algo sólido, separado e ameaçador.
Esse corpo e essa mente carregam condicionamentos, e eles não desaparecem só porque você percebeu algo mais profundo, como a não dualidade. Eles continuam se movendo por um tempo, e isso não invalida a verdade que você já reconhece.
Você sente que não consegue porque ainda está olhando para si mesmo como alguém que precisa superar as circunstâncias. Mas nessa visão não dual, não existe você de um lado e o mundo de outro.
Essas "circunstâncias externas" também está aparecendo na mesma consciência onde aparecem seus pensamentos, suas emoções e até sua sensação de impotência, de insegurança.
Eles não estão contra você. Há apenas experiência acontecendo, e uma vontade enorme da mente de rotular isso como um problema pessoal.
É muito comum saber que "não há nada a conseguir" e mesmo assim, sentir que não dá conta. Isso acontece porque a mente tenta transformar esse entendimento em uma regra: "se não há o que conseguir, eu deveria estar bem"
Só que não é sobre >dever<. É sobre ver que até a sensação de incapacidade está incluída no que você é. Você não precisa eliminar ela. A própria tentativa de se livrar dela é o que reforça a sensação de que existe algo errado.
Quando as circunstâncias te machucam, você não precisa fingir indiferença. Pode admitir, dói, assusta, parece maior que você. E ainda assim, algo em você percebe essa dor. Algo em você não é essa dor. Algo em você permanece, mesmo quando tudo parece desabar.
Essa presença é o que você é. E é isso que significa não haver nada a conquistar, não porque "é fácil", mas porque nada do que surge, externo ou interno, tem o poder de alterar o que você é.
Você pode se sentir incapaz, sem força, saturado e mas nada disso diminui a verdade, nada disso tira de você o que sempre foi seu. O reconhecimento não é cancelado por emoções fortes ou recaídas. O "sentir que não consegue" também é só mais um movimento dentro da consciência.
Ele não define nada. Ele não prova nada. Ele não é um obstáculo real. É só mais um movimento passando, um que vai passar, sempre passa.
E é exatamente aí que algo começa a suavizar, quando você percebe que até o momento em que tudo parece te prejudicar está acontecendo dentro de um espaço que nunca é prejudicado.
Mesmo que a mente não entenda isso na hora, o simples fato de você perceber a dor já mostra que há um ponto em você que não está preso nela. O descanso que você busca não vem de controlar a vida, nem de eliminar circunstâncias difíceis, e nem de "fazer tudo certo".
Ele vem quando você para de tentar ser mais forte que o que surge e começa a ver que o que surge nunca teve força para te definir. Você está aqui, consciente, mesmo quando tudo parece pesado demais. E isso já é o que parecia faltar.
