I dont think we talk abt Kayla's and Jake's relationship post TAaS enough.
He lives so little. He's the first to die. She pities him. She's so jealous of him. He's her best friend. Her fucking platonic soulmate. She hates him. She loves him so much. She's so happy he's part of her life. She wished he never met her.
Like, she's obvs not aware of the narrative, but I think that somehow she FEELS the fact that he's the protagonist. She can see it. Can see his fucking happy ending and how she doesn't fit in it. She feels like she could/should hate him but CANT. And that makes her feel worse. ESPECIALLY after he's gone.
It's such a fucked up feeling and I think it really is the trigger that gets her pulling away from the rest. Like its INTEGRAL! And we don't even really talk abt it.










