My god.. Not you. Not you Jake.
Jake, My Jakeface, the last person I got close to before I moved.The only reason I've truly regretted ever leaving.
Such an amazing year its been until 7:25am on Monday, September 8th, when my ignorant innocent bliss crashed down on me.
You were tragically killed in a car accident. You... You. Of all the god-given good there was on this whole damned planet, you and your amazing goodness was stolen from me, from us. from everyone who had yet to meet you and would have loved you.
Im at work right now, listening to Bashar... because i just really miss you more than i already did before any of this. I havent listened since before my move last year.... with you. In my room on those sunny days we'd laze and fuck around. It hurts a little but I love when he gets comical. I remember just listening and looking over at you to smile/laugh.... because you knew I loved aliens and of course knew to show me this human channelling an extraterrestrial being coming through to open our minds to our own power and natural selves..... ugh.
Its sinking in more and more by the minute. I wish you knew how deep I felt for you. I hope you do now. I love you Jake.
