20. Are you starting to realize anything?
Some things.. One of them being, not everyone wants only the happy side of me. There are people who care about me as a whole, faults and oddities and grievances included. I hope this doesn’t sound too much, but I grew up trying to hide everything I’m going through and be the happy, dependable friend/family-member/classmate/colleague/etc, that most of the people who know me just saw that side. When I got deeper into depression I lost majority of my friends because I wasn’t fun to be around anymore and that just made me feel even more that no one wants to know what I’m going through, that people want only my happy side. But lately I met awesome new friends who showed me that they care about my well-being and that I’m still likeable even though I’m not always chipper, and that they are even willing to (and already have) help me through tough times.
28. What was the last thing that made you laugh?
Just a while ago at work this happened, though I couldn’t laugh openly at that. Hmm and also just today at work, the “Big Boss” (Company CEO) made rounds to congratulate everyone for a reached goal so we all tried to look busy and formal, and then right after he left the room there’s a loud collective sigh or relief from everyone and someone also said “safe” and that made us all laugh.
Playlist already ended thanks for reminding me :D the last song was Everything Has Changed (Taylor Swift/ Ed Sheeran)