James just posted about him and Jordan breaking up again to update his instagram and oh my gosh my heart is shattering into one million tiny pieces. I’ve always looked up to those two so much and obviously I still will they just had such a healthy and strong relationship (from a follower’s perspective obvs I have no idea what goes on behind closed doors) and it always gave me so much hope. Besides their great sense of humour, personalities and looks (lol) the main thing I admire in both of them is their self made success and how they’re each pursuing their dream like to me that’s the coolest thing. Idk I don’t normally get emotionally invested in people I follow online (ie I never do it) but those two mean so much to me it’s crazy haha I don’t even know them. And it just hurts to see them sad, James quoted earlier on his tumblr ‘the light has gone out of my life’ which is what Theodore Roosevelt put in his diary when his wife died then never mentioned her again. And reading that actually brought a tear to my eye cause it shows how much of a horrible place he must be in right now but they’re both being so mature about it and respectful which in a way made me more sad. Idk when I read Jame’s paragraph about Jordan the first time it was so sweet and sad and above all final like when my friend told me they'd split I was hoping to find something fuelled with anger or annoyance because then it would probably have just been a small lovers tiff which they would have gotten over in a heartbeat but the painful acceptance in his writing was so heartbreaking. I dunno I just have a lotta emotions about those two and what’s happening even though it’s not my place I just wanted to vent them somewhere :’) I wish the very best for both of them