Apr 25
Well that was a shitty unfun lesson learn. Let's never do that again 👍🏻
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Well that was a shitty unfun lesson learn. Let's never do that again 👍🏻
Im not going to know everything immediately. Im going to make mistakes and thats okay. Its okay to learn slowly. Its okay to take your time. You are the only one placing expectations on yourself so when you decide to drop them they become completely irrelevant. You're doing your best. Trying to learn new things is brave regardless of the degree or speed of your sucess.
But mooooooom what if its different this time? What if somehow im magically able to just be friends instead of immediately falling in love with him this time?? What if im not a selfish piece of shit bothering my ex for no goddamn reason?
I've literally never been so in love with someone this far into a relationship what the fuck. The other shoe never drops. He's just everything I could ever think to want in a person? And he tells me he loves me constantly? And does everything he can to build me up and make me a better person? Like what? Im so fucking happy and in love with him and we fuck constantly?
What a shocking turn of events, engaging with the things I love results in better mental health! Who could've possibly predicted this? Wild how someone's personality reemerges when given enough time away from high control people/groups.
I dreamt of you again. Dreamt you were moving into this beautiful apartment with me. I wonder if you made it out of Texas. If youre better now. I hope so. God I hope so.
We were mostly nonverbal all day yesterday and it looks like today will be much the same. I guess Bianca used up all our words yelling and now we have nothing left.
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