I wonder in my darker moments if I made a mistake. I promised myself that I would escape into world, knowing nothing is ever as simple, cut and dried as We like to think I still did it.
Took a risk and Spread my wings to fly.
Ok I’m being hunted for regional movies, not quite my bollywood aspirations but I’ll accept it as a stepping stone to different things.
I can officially call myself international, I’ve worked across the uk, holland, germany and india.
Tongue tied and twisted, the price I had to pay.
Its not a wholly bad journey; I learned that I can walk alone if I need to that I can fight my corner, red in tooth and claw, the question is, was it worth the sacrifice?
Dry eyed and hardened I stand my ground and hold my own.
The quote from bette davis “I survived because I was tougher than everyone else” and a marylin monroe quote “they only want you when your gone,” flit through my head daily.
Especially when I talk to old contacts who are begging me to come back, to what I ask?
The response is always home.
Home? I live out of a suitcase folks!
2014 Will see the beginning of a new JamesC, already working on the plan which 2013 almost killed.
I pulled it back and savd it from the lions just in time.
Stay with me folks who knows I may just video blog my memoirs or at least a taster of them…..