#janny writes

[janny1989]

I'm still trying to process everything, and I wanted to put my thoughts into words.

Finding out about it made me realize how deeply I trusted you.

I’m feeling hurt, betrayed, angry, and confused, which makes me question everything we had.

I want to be clear that I cannot forgive you for what happened.

The trust is broken, and your actions hurt me deeply.

I know I deserve better - honesty, respect, and space to heal and move forward without you.

[janny1989]

As I reflect, I have come to realize that everything happens for a reason. People come and go, but the lessons they bring are meant to help you grow. Appreciate the journey! 🙌🏼

[janny1989]

To : B

During conflicts, I make an effort to understand your point of view and ask questions. Yet, I find myself apologizing unnecessarily. Is this my fault?

Your sudden silence is more painful and the feeling of not knowing what's wrong is overwhelming.

I recognize I have a tendency to overanalyze, which can make me toxic and negative.

And the feeling of being a weight on your shoulders has lifted. I am at peace wherever you are.

[janny1989]

I am currently outside my comfort zone.

All things are temporary.

Regardless of whether it is good or bad, everyone will eventually forget.

I will focus on one day at a time and adjust accordingly.

[janny1989]

This is likely the last time we'll be together.

I'll make the most of every minute.

I won't argue and will go with the flow instead.

No hard feelings.

I've reminded myself multiple times to focus on myself.

[janny1989]

Life Update:

In recent days, I have experienced persistent feelings of sadness, accompanied by a growing distrust of others. Instead of feeling secure in sharing my emotions, I am repeatedly disappointed.

In my car, coffee in hand, I think about my vacation, anxiety rising as I face leaving my comfort zone, but I breathe deeply to reassure myself.

My hope is to find someone trustworthy, who genuinely cares about my well-being and is happy for my accomplishments, rather than just valuing what I can offer them.