All I want! Jared X Reader (Jensen X Reader)
Summary: After the sudden death of your husband, his best friend helps you through the grief.
Warnings: Death of a major character, suicidal thoughts, depression.
A/N: I'm sorry I haven't written anything in a while, my life has been hectic recently, but hopefully I'll be posting more often now things have calmed down.
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You were sat at your desk, flicking through your emails when your phone rang. You happily picked it up since your husband usually called you after he finished filming a scene
You had met your husband, Jared after being a guest star it one of the episodes for his show Supernatural. You two had immediately hit it off and he had asked you out. You had been dating from two years even whilst you lived in the uk and he was filming in Vancouver, when he asked you to marry him.
He made it extremely romantic and not long after you found out you were pregnant with your first child. You moved out to the states to live with him. That was when you met Jensen, his best friend and co-star in Supernatural. Little did you know how much he would help you in the coming months.
After your first child was born Jared, regrettably, went back to work with Jensen. He didn't want to leave you so soon after giving birth but both you and Jensen assured him that everything would be okay, and that you had Jensen's wife Daneel to help you if you needed it.
He made sure to call you whenever he wasn't filming just to check in on you and your son, Ash. It became a habit and he calls you every day just to check in whilst he's away.
You found out you were pregnant again shortly after the boys started filming season 10. Jared was so happy, and all the crew threw him a party to celebrate.
It was that night that you got the call you were never hoping to receive. Your phone rang at 2 in the morning waking you and your sleeping toddler.
Answering it, you didn't even look at the caller ID.
You didn't recognise the voice on the other end. Then your heart dropped, "I'm afraid to say your husband has been in a road traffic collision."
"Is he okay?" You question.
There is silence on the other end before they say "I'm very sorry for your loss Mrs Padalecki."
Your phone drops from your hand and you let out a few quiet no's.
You start to shake and sob uncontrollably.
You hear footsteps coming up the stairs before Daneel rushes in, engulfing you in a hug and letting you scream and cry on her shoulder.
The sound of your toddler screaming breaks through, and you reach for him. You pull him onto your lap and cry into his long hair. He is an exact copy of Jared.
You look up at Daneel, and her heart breaks for you, "it's gonna be okay." She says giving both of you a hug.
"He's gone." You whisper, Dani, barely able to hear you.
The next few days were blurry, everything happened so quickly.
You all flew out to vancouver, Jensen met you all at the airport. As soon as he saw you he hugged you tight. You broke down again.
"It's gonna be okay." He mumbled into your hair.
Your hand immediately went to your stomach where your unborn baby girl was certainly very active.
You had the funeral back in Texas, and Jensen didn't want to leave you on your own, so they invited you to stay at theirs. You could stomach staying in your own home. Everything of his was still there.
You found you really struggled with day to day things, even seeing your son shattered your heart. He looked so much like Jared, your heart couldn't take it.
One night, it got too much. You found your self in the bathroom surrounded by pills. You didn't want to do it but your heart couldn't take it anymore.
You sent a quick text to Jensen, 'Im sorry'
A few seconds later your phone rang. You answered put it on speaker and laid it down on the floor.
"Y/N, are you there? What's with the text? Are you okay?"
You burst into tears, and you hear rustling and voices on the other end of the phone.
"It's okay stay on the phone with me, me and Dani are coming round. Where are you sweetheart?"
You manage to croak out "Bathroom, upstairs."
You hear the door unlock, all of a sudden glad they had a spare key to your room. The bathroom door opens and what Jensen sees breaks his heart.
He crouches down and pulls you into a hig whilst Dani gets rid of the pills.
He pulls away, his hands still on your shoulders, and looks you in the eyes.
"I need you to be honest with me, have you taken any?" He asks as his thumb rubs your arms softly.
You start to cry again and shake your head no.
He lets out a breath, glad you hadn't done anything.
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A few months later, you're finally doing better. It still hurts, and it always will. But Jen and Dani have done so much to make it easier for you. You've started therapy, and you're on medication for your depression. They were even there when you went into labour with your baby girl.
You decide to name your daughter Elouise Ross Padalecki after Jensen.
Years down the line you're finally in a better place and you visit his grave every week. Telling your children stories of their father. Jensen and Misha love to tell them all the goofy things he used to do on set.
