okay so… ya know how i said i’d yap about my deh headcanons??? I wrote out all of my ones that are just for connor and holy shit i have so many. perks of hyperfixating on a character ig? anywayyyy they’re all under the cut lol
(also TW for brief self harm/substance use mentions, but this is connor fucking murphy what do you expect here)
—doc martens wearer. would have the specific pair that I wear to cosplay him (which are platforms with studs/spikes. they’re very cool)
—has scars on the backs of his heels from breaking in said docs
—neurodivergent in some way shape or form. (fun fact, killian!connor specifically is intentionally adhd coded and it fills me with so much joy)
—early 2000’s pop punk/emo music enjoyer (okay i know he’s canonically into punk/indie stuff but THIS IS ON TOP OF THAT!!!)
—he’s absolutely covered in godawful edgy stick and poke tattoos. he’s canonically a really good artist so i hc that he draws the designs himself but then ends up doing the actual tattoos whilst high so they obviously don’t look as good lol
—has a shitty selfdone septum piercing that he keeps flipped up and hidden around his family
—also has shitty wonky selfdone ear piercings. both them and the septum were done with a blunt safety pin since larry and cynthia wouldn’t let him get them done professionally
—punches walls to sh which is partly why zoe was so scared of him cuz of all the noise and blood from his hands and the holes he would leave and one time he broke his hand from it and his parents really begrudgingly got help for that but really really drove home the “you did this to yourself” side of it. it didn’t heal up right cuz he practically had to beg them to do anything about it for a few days before they did so as a result one of his hands is kinda fucked
—sooo basically in the uk/international tour production, connor has a plushie dog on his bedroom shelves that you can see during IICTH and i hc that he's had it since he was really little and sleeps holding it (and it’s literally the only thing that can actually get him to sleep half decently)
—said plushie dog would be covered in tear stains and lighter marks (…and blood.) from the amount that connor smokes/from him burning himself to sh (this is mentioned in the book for those who don’t know)
—when larry and cynthia started getting onto him about his addiction/behaviour and threatened to send him to rehab, he found a way to hide his weed(/any other drugs if he took them but weed is the only one I have confirmation that he does so..) in it,
and after his death cynthia would sleep with the plushie under her pillow on bad nights and zoe noticed and got her to stop it bc it was unhealthy
—stole zoe’s indigo hair dye and dyed his hair on impulse in the bathroom at like 3am, only for it to go that really fucking ugly dark blue/green colour that brown hair goes when you put blue over it without bleaching it first
—is the most impatient fucker ever when it comes to waiting for his nails to dry. like you can visibly see where the polish is smudged from him touching stuff with wet nails
—loudly cracks his knuckles when he’s bored, zoe absolutely hates it
—has the most fucked up sleep schedule ever. regularly pulls all nighters and would just overall go to sleep at the most absurd times ever
—loves sour candy, regularly scarfs down those toxic waste candies (this one is actually canon, thank you deh book)
—I feel like he’d also really like ginger/mint flavoured dark chocolate specifically (yes this one is based off of me)
—has a skateboard that he barely uses
—the night he killed himself, he tried to spend time with zoe but she thought he was just being annoying and kept yelling at him to get out her room
—suprisingly good at baking, the knowledge comes from the amount of times he’s made pot brownies lmao
—english and art are the only classes at school that he remotely concentrates in, given that he’s canonically a big literature nerd/artist
—speaking of the artist stuff, he’d definitely take his sketchbook around with him and would draw random shit in it if he had nothing better to do
