08/06
Where to start - woke up early to do make up - think I’m getting better at it! Also played with a lot of new make up today, fun stuff. Thought I looked good without snapchat filter. Rare times - the book I’m reading finally getting to a REALLY interesting part 👀 - boss back in office! Nice feelings - pepper lunch for lunch - getting to do the illustration design for the upcoming event - the postcards I designed arrived!!! - ernz came to the book store and I was happy to see his face and hug him - dinner was so so good - met one of my fave sg lit authors - aaaaaaa I have such a big crush she’s not only good she’s so cool and fun and she hugged me and I see cuts on her arms and I hope she is okay and she gave me a signature!!! And we joked a lot and I love her!!!!!! So much!!!!! I want to protect her!!! I hope she gets protected! - went late for Jaye’s birthday party. Was panicky but the second I stepped in - people greeted me so friendly-ly. People I didn’t really talk to but knew, they hugged me and I was so so so touched. - at first I thought dead skin walked out the room when I came in - but turns out he wasn’t ignoring me, when he came it was cool and we did awkward dancing and the rest of my night was just bickering with him, it was so so fun and he made me so comfortable and more relaxed and less awkward and I was so happy and I wished I talked more like this with him earlier on, more comfortably, more openly, more freely. Its fun and I love it. - because I drank baileys (whoop) I was very Low filter and mildly high, so interacting with everyone was GOOD. I was not awkward. I braided people’s hair, I flirted with everyone in my vicinity, I sang, made everyone dance and do a group-hug-dance. It was so so good. I got to catch up on so many people and ebb is such a darling and berlin got me cake and beal is lovely and I love them!! - $5 cab ride back because split fare. Taking with salmon is cool because he’s a quiet guy type who fits in with the kind of people that’s easy for me to click with, and I got to catch up on dead skin’s life. - Its good to know that he’s doing well. I’m happy for him and his gf, and although I felt a tinge of jealousy before, I’m very clear about it - I feel happy that we’re not together and that nothing happened, because he is so happy and he is moving forward and I am moving forward, and in so many ways I recognise that his maturity level differs from me and we function differently; so I’m not jealous anymore and I’m Glad, glad I didn’t start anything with him. - young boi messaging me to arrange a meet up. This guy keep sending mixed signals ah, but I think in the end he just wants advice in a senior-junior way, which is the preferred signal I’d like to get from him.