#jazzyblusnowflake

[timbits4dayz]

HEY HEEEEY

I finished this 3 days ago but I wanted to let my shootpost to get its attention before I posted this.

THIS was suposed to be for @jazzyblusnowflake DTIYS but unfortunately I had joined 2 days before it was closed- (Jazzy was very nice and gave me a few extra days but I just didn't have enough speed to get it done) by the time the deadline approached and the contest was over I had a colored stage ready and a sketch of Ell (Ellsworld) ready, Instead of just quitting on it cause at that point there was no real reason for it anymore- I just kept going with it- not only cause it was already half way done but mainly cause I was actually having fun with it- I would listen to the song that this whole DTIYS was based off of, SIA - Hey Boy! Feat Burna Boy. The song is amazing, you should listen to it. Anyway I was listening to the song on repeat alone with some Alice and wonderland sound track xD and after a long time of editing and details and lighting- I was having just way toi much with this xD i love editing things on my art peices, it's it's much fun for me xD long while later I was done and here was the result! I'm not sure why uts appearing darker than the actual drawing itself, I adjusted the lighting on my phone to see if I had my brightness too too low but nope- it just came out that why and I'm not sure why, but hey I'm not complaining o_o

I love ell, the version of that I think of- shes not a person thats into revealing clothes- so I gave her some concealment to make me and her feel comfortable- I treat my drawings like they are real people leave me alone

[timbits4dayz]

RANT

Warning: This is just me pouring out how I've felt lately, and today was just my breaking point, I'm so sorry if it sounds like I'm being a baby or im just whining, I've tagged my most favorite people just because? I'm not really sure why, I guess I just want someone to talk to.. since I can't do all 30+ of them I just did #to all I follow or whatever I put in there, sorry again, please don't read this if your just going to be rude to me or 'call me out' about being insincere or a attention hog.

Do you guys just ever have those days where you take a look at your own art.. and then compare it to somebody else's and then you just thing "I'll never be like you.." I understand that you shouldn't compare and stuff and it's not the art style itself im jelouse of its the skinny, how they shade so well, their ability to put in little detail that makes everything worth while, and you just look at their work and just take a moment to relize how.. in this case me, how I'm just unable to do any of this, no matter how hard I practice or how hard I try, I just never get what I want. It just comes to a point where I cry, thinming I'll never have art that would make people go crazy over it, all the artists I follow on here are just so talented, holave a large follower group and have people (including me) that just shower them with kindness over their art and how amazing they art, how cool they are, and how talented they are.. and what do I have to show for?.. nothing but a few friends appreciation.. not that that's bad, I of course love it, but it just comes to a point where I start to wonder, the more I post things, how less of a attention grab they are.. (Crud I'm crying rn) im not trying to sound like I'm begging for attention, call this a rant or a vent if you will, I'm just.. I guess tired of never being enough when it comes to art, other than my skills and talent I dont really have anything special to share.. im just.. plain, art is the only thing I have that makes me feel i portent ut if my art dosent even get noticed what does that say about me? That my art is so easy to miss? That it's just another cringy page to pass by?.. I dunno.. im sorry.. for annoying you all with this.. I dont have anyone else to talk to about this..