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[jackabbot]

ER (1994-2009) 1.22 • Men Plan, God Laughs

[koreanakuno]

Venting session 101

Do you think I am being unfair to you? Cause that’s what I feel again.

I can’t give you what you want. I think you got pissed earlier too. I do understand that you have your needs but I just can’t give those things yet. I really have a strong control that even if I wanted to do it, my mind says no. Also, I wanted to say sorry but I’m not really sorry so there’s no point.

I am saying all of these because I want to be honest. I want to be honest in this relationship. What is this relationship called by the way? Courting stage? (Wait, is that even a relationship name? Haha) So if we’re still in that stage, you can’t really ask me to help you with that yet LOL.

What else, ummm. I wanted to get mad to that Filipina old lady cause I think she’s taking you away from me but she has a point so nvm and maybe it's not obvious but I trust you with this matter.

It’s just that my insecurities are getting bigger. I think I will never be good enough for anyone. This is toxic I know, I’m really trying to think of positive things but I always end up at the conclusion that I am never good enough, I couldn’t even take care of myself. 😣

Maybe I was fooling myself into thinking that I already accepted my fate— that I will not be normal anymore and that’s okay because I know I still have a purpose and someone will come and love me even though I’m more of a pain in the ass.

But it’s been years and I still don’t know what’s my purpose, why am I here? What's my mission? Why the heck am I crying. Ew.

Anyways, I think I’m not making sense anymore. 😬 I just need to vent out and I chose to vent out to you cause couldn’t see you in person, I won’t get too shy. 😅 I just have to do this cause if I don’t, my walls that I broke will be rebuilt again and will just be stronger. I will end up pushing more people out of my life because I am a pessimist and I don’t trust easily. I don't want to do that anymore, I'm tired of keeping these feelings. Are you still reading this? Do you think it's okay not to be okay? What are your thoughts, can you share it to me? Lastly, I really like you or maybe it's more than that and I'm just in denial.

Thanks for coming to my TedTalk! 😉

[symfonie-lidy-braunovy]

"cože jsi vystrčil svou hlavu z nory, ty starý jezevče?" "mají cukrovou vatu" <-TAK PLATNÝ DŮVOD

[newstech24]

JCPB: Core Plus Bond Technique

JCPB: Core Plus Bond Technique

JCPB: Core Plus Bond Technique