#jellee.log

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do ai “artists” that generate stuff for the solarpunk / naturecore /etc tags not understand the pure irony

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I don’t typically try to actively remember my youth because im too focused on the future, and it’s honestly been a while .. but recently I’m being confronted how much I’ve changed!!!

more specifically, I realized i’ve been trying to become the person I needed most at my darkest moments

:’) oh to be able to give my younger self a big hug

we’re gonna make it!!!!!! RAHGHGGHHHHH

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it would be very cool of fic writers to remember to tag your smut 🫠

it would be so very very cool to be able to follow main fandom tags without also needing to manually add every “[character] x y/n” to my dash filters

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one time in middle school a classmate I barely ever spoke to found me alone, silently doing homework by myself at a big table with 15 other backpacks because all my friends had gone to do an afterschool club sports and he asked why I was the only one not with them

I ended up admitting that i felt too self conscious to join them because I was bad at sports so I’d rather just not try at all, I’d be a burden, I hated the public attention, etc., things a 10 year old should not have to be worried about!!

he seemed confused. “but .. do you like playing the sport at all?”

with genuine sincerity and slight confusion, he looked me dead in the eyes and said

“you don’t have to be good at something to want to do it”

I remember being fully stunned and just going like “haha oh. i..???? i guess so, huh?”

to this day, this entire exchange lives in my head rent free and it makes me a little sad (or reassured??) to know my anxiety has always been a real issue, even before i was fully aware of what that feeling was called

but I am also hopeful! is that really how simple it is for some people? just doing what you want to do? one day that will be me, too! I just have to keep trying, right? right??

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grrrr the urge to turn this into a sketchdump blog but i don’t actually have enough sketches to dump because all my energy is put into my main polished comms

actually yknow what maybe I will just throw up doodles here after all who knows

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really wanna get more into worldbuilding and write cool lore and stuff but man is it incredibly easy to get overwhelmed

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bitches makes 20 million hyper niche tags to sort all their posts and reblogs and forget about tumblr and come back a month later forgetting every single one of them it’s me I’m bitches