Nov 30, 2014
don't do this, jen...
#Jen...#jen..#it's that time of night again :/#can't even say my own name#sometimes i wonder if the good memories are even worth it#what a fucking name#damn#what do i even want anyway?#i have nothing to say and there's nothing i really want to hear#so what is it?#to know someone's thinking of me? to have someone know i exist?#asking him about his life at this moment wouldn't do you anything#it'd probably make you feel worse#in fact it definitely would make you feel worsr#so what do i want?#a friend?#a specific friend?#human connection?#someone to relate to - someone to get it?#meaning of some sort..#when there is none#for anything#and i should learn this#and i should stop trying to hold on to people#to anyone of that group#to anyone at all#no one does#and i need to get over this and get passed it#because it's not gonna change and it's not gonna get better#so just give up already