I mean, im a freakin animation major, and yet, im really uncomfortable with drawing cartoon styles. Im a painter. I paint oils. i know color theory. i know anatomy. But when i try to do cartoons, its like walking backwards. i suck at it. i have to keep erasing and make it more realistic. so i dont have a style. Not that i dont want to draw what i do now, i still like myself in that aspect. I just wish i was more ok with myself in what i want to do professionally. Animation. i came from a fine arts background, ive honed my skills for many many years. I think maybe its because of the fact that when i was growing up, art teachers would get really mad if you drew cartoony things. which was understandable because they were teaching me how to draw realism. which i now know. i dont think i can cut myself some slack and let myself work with other styles. which is crippling me as an artist. When i patrol around tumblr and see all these cute comic styles, i start hating myself. and when i attempt to work in cartoonish styles, i just end up steeling other peoples' styles. which is bad and im working on it. im working everyday now to improve my cartoon styles. but do note that i will never not paint realism and surrealism.
