*gif is not mine. credit goes to whoever made it.*
the song that goes with this is heart wants what it wants by selena gomez.
Summary: reader is an actress on supernatural, her and jensen get close, and he finally confesses his feelings for her, and vice versa. only problem is, he’s still married to danneel.
warnings: crying, idk if that’s a warning??
flashbacks are in italiacs.
You groaned as some sunlight went past your blinds, you turned over as you tried to hide your eyes from the light so you could get some rest. It was your day off for god’s sake. You froze as you felt someone next to you, you shot up as you looked at the being. You let out a sigh in relief as you realized who it was, it was Jensen. You laid there looking down at him, you admired every single thing about him. The freckles that were scattered randomly, the way his lips looked perfect even while he slept, everything about him was just perfect. Every time you looked at him, you felt your breath get caught in your throat because of how attractive this man was. His bare chest was showing as you smiled at the thought of what happened last night. You lightly and slowly traced your finger down his bare chest down to his lower stomach where the blanket began. You continued to do so as it had relaxed you a little bit, and you knew it wasn't going to wake him up. You leaned down and pressed a soft kiss against his chest before you propped yourself up on your elbow. You were mesmerized by the gorgeous man that laid in your bed. But once you looked at his hand, your heart slightly ached as you thought of reality. He was still a married man.
Lightening me up like Venus
But then you disappear and make me wait
And every second’s like torture
Even though you knew what was going on at his house, it still made you feel like you were the reason everything was ruined. But it wasn’t, things at Jensen’s home wasn’t fine. Him and Danneel fought every second of the day, the feelings weren’t even there anymore on his end. But he didn’t want to end it for the sake of their children, he didn’t want them to wonder where he was all the time. You knew all of this, because he had told you the night he confessed his feelings for you.
You and the rest of the cast and crew were just finishing up an episode. Of course, there was also going to be a cast party the same night, which were always very fun. You, Jensen, and Jared had all stuck around each other for the whole night. Up until Gen had showed up, Jared had departed from you two. You smiled at Jensen before you took a sip of your drink. Something felt off, you couldn’t quite put your finger on it. After a few moments, it hit you, Danneel wasn’t around. Jensen had sometimes brought her to the set whenever she would fly and visit, but you hadn’t seen her lately.
“Hey, Jay, where’s Danneel?” You spoke towards the green-eyed man, you watched as his facial expression changed. You couldn’t tell if it was dread or if it was him being nervous. You moved closer to him, “Is everything okay between you two?” You whispered loud enough for him to hear, before he even responded, you could even tell that things weren’t fine. You just wanted to hear it come from him.
“No, thing’s aren’t okay with her..Can we talk about this somewhere else?” He spoke out before he finished off his drink, leaving it on the bar counter. You nodded as you waited for him to lead the way. You thought that him and Danneel were madly in love, but something bad must’ve happened. Had she cheated on him? Did he cheat on her? You both came to a stop, you were standing outside, luckily it had been nice outside for the night.
“Y/n…Me and Danneel have been fighting so much..A-And I don’t really even feel for her anymore, I just don’t want the kids to wonder where I am whenever they don’t hear my voice when I come home. Or for when they grow up, what if they hate me for leaving them and her?” You nodded your head in understanding what he was saying, “But I also developed feelings for someone else, and I don’t know what to do. But all I do know is that I want this person.” His green eyes were now teary as he looked down at you, by the way he was looking at you, something told you that you knew who this other girl was. “It’s you, y/n..” He muttered out as if he didn’t want you to hear him.
“Jay-,” Before you could say anything, his lips were on yours. In that moment, everything melted away, you kissed him back with just as much passion as he did. When you came to your senses, you pulled away. “Jay, I-I don’t know what to tell you..But we can’t be doing this..Not here, anyways..” She spoke as she looked around them making sure no one could see them. “I have had feelings for you as well..Ever since I first saw you, but when I found out you were married, it broke my heart, but there’s nothing I could do about it.”
“Can we just leave here tonight? Then we can deal with this tomorrow?” You nodded in response to him, you followed behind him as you both made your way over to your car since he got a ride with you.
You sighed out as you looked down at Jensen, you laid your head against his chest as you tried to push everything to the back of your mind. But you couldn’t, nothing could stop your mind from racing about everything that was going on. Jensen had began to stir, you lifted your head once more to look at him to realize that his eyes were now open. It was almost as if he read your mind, “What are you thinking about, babe?” He rubbed around your back as he kept him tired eyes on yours.
“Jay..What’s going to happen to us?..I can’t stay a secret for too long, and I don’t want to be in the middle of everything anymore…But I know I want to be with you.” You muttered out, you tried your best to not let the tears fall. “I need to know who you’re going to be with..I can’t wait forever.”
Jensen had sat up as he kept his eyes on you, “We’re going to stay together..I just need to get this all over with..Please don’t leave me, y/n..” He spoke softly as he wiped your tears. The only other person that knew about this was Jared, and he found out on his own by the way you and Jensen had been acting around each other on set. You sighed out once more, “I got the divorce papers, I just..I just have to sign them and get them in.” He softly kissed your cheek. “I choose you, I’ve never felt so so strongly for someone like this, and I don’t want to lose you.” He spoke out as he gently caressed your cheek, his eyes boring into your own.
“Okay.” You whispered softly as you gently pushed him back down and laid your head on his chest.
Fast forward to a few months.
You and Jensen had decided to go public after everything was settled down. He kept in contact with Danneel and the kids, he visited them whenever he could. You respected it, you knew how hard it was for him to go through with it. Everybody wasn’t a fan of what was going no between you guys, but it didn’t matter because you guys didn’t care, for it was only your happiness that mattered.
