#jimoens

[irynith]

La Luna dimentica di danzare.

Aveva perso la sua fortuna e il suo sguardo.

Piangeva durante la luna crescente.

Fino all'arrivo del Sole,

che proiettò un riflesso nel vuoto,

e raccolse tutte le stelle, una per una,

così che il mondo tornò a essere completo.

[irynith]

Everything seems to breathe but you

All the morning flowers and the dew

wish I could have powered through

The pain and the grief

The dying underneath

In my brain, despair

I once dreamt, I was on the chair.

Jumping to oblivion

Jumping to nothingness

But it was you

Oh what did I do?

Oh why must it be so.

I thought we were friends

But nothing really breathes though

And the ocean breeze is rotting

And my thoughts are all forgotten

All the time we spent, just rotting

I miss you my friend

Til the bitter, the end

Oh my what have I done?

To make you run away from the sun.

And I saw you once still breathing

In the city of the night

But only I was the ghost

And I gave you a fright

And you ran and cursed my name

I'm sorry, I'll carry the shame.

I just wanted a friend who was there

But my mind degrades and despairs

And spreads the illness through

The atmosphere and you.

I wish I was like you.

I wish I was just true.

And now we'll never see

And it's all because of me

I hope you're happy out there though

I hope you forgot me so

I hope on bad days you remember

How kind and nice we were as friends

As doommates of the world's end.

I hope one day a memory of us

makes you smile

I know it won't happen.

But please, anything but dying.

[irynith]

When all you love is dying When all you do is trying When all you that ruins is vying When all your thoughts are flying When all you want is ending Without any transcending When rot turns you to nothing When death gives you the escape hatch When love gives you the hate Then what shall we all be doing? When the world passes you by And all you can think is How can I die? The endings with no beginnings The darkness feels more forgiving Letting all that you love go away Because you just can't feel that way When your heart is broken Your limbs and lungs are choking Nothing to becomes your chest Like a loneliness in your internal self The world seems like it's gone And you aren't even the one Just a wind, a void, a gap. Wanting something But you forget Your name your hope and all Til you become a blank host thrall But please I don't want to give up Something come Make me stand up If not then I will gnaw and will tear Until my nails bleed Til I despair Please something give me a lighter Please make the world brighter I can't take it anymore But I want to love Just a little more I want to love Please just for a moment No one wanted my love quite before But I shall love Even if I can't feel My bones and my head Even if I don't know How much I bled Even if I am numb I will try to love And never shall I be forgiven For my Dread delusional giving I'm sorry for all that I had done Yet still I'll try to be someone Forevermore

[irynith]

Summers make me sad

death would be nice instead

Stealing, Breathing heat

Every day feels on repeat

But the forests are green

And the blooming of all things

Yet I need to decompose

I wish I had better summer clothes

Otherwise this all feels old

I miss everyone I suppose

Those who died in times trode

And the petty fights abode

All those who left me

Fuck what happened to those?

I hope everything is alright

Please just keep on and fight

The birds are chirping

And sun is burning

Why is my soul hurting.

I have no strength to cry

So I must lie

Just lie

I love the green and the wind

But by night I want to die

[irynith]

Perhaps there will be a good day Where all the things feel okay And all the pain goes away Just a tranquil moment in decay Unmourned and forgotten Healing what has rotten Feeding things at the bottom Hopefully not a wasteful trotting I know It will always wither Like the leaves in the winter And my soul will grow cold again But it doesn't have to be the end And in time maybe more days will be warmer Coloured, maybe even bolder Perhaps then I will forget bad ones Yet for now I'm done of all this just wish I could get a silent rest A sleep for a couple hours to scare the eternity this day.

[irynith]

can you run? can you hide? from the crying in your heart? will you die from the starving flames? if you would, if you will does it all really matter? all the promises of null batter but nothing of a swill of tenderness oh what a bliss must you twist? to be a silent dying mist and remembered by nothingness i just wish for a simple wish. i have no words to give and my incantations plain as the air i just ask to be a little more insane if you could? if you will? drive a knife in my still then i'll know all my hope will be dark and i'll be free of all desire i'll never sing in that choir and i'll never hear your voice again but what a miss i'd rather be amiss to then live knowing that i'll never get there and honestly miss i'm tired of all this i just want soft hands and a softer pillow and i have to learn to be more mellow since the world begun i was yellow for it all and everything that i wanted i could never quite receive but life is like that they say. i hate it that way just a little comfort and peace for a second? is it so much to ask? Why do others get it easy? i just want to feel something without weight or coldness. with no sharp edges or bleeding boldness and all the wounds they will spark and i'll never quite depart from this world of desperate calderas. they melt your will away and lead you astray because maybe one day there will be an eruption and from it a seismic change so that life could be re-arranged and maybe then it will all be easier and the honest truth is i'm just quite pissed and really quite saddened that there is no one asking for my name

[irynith]

waking every moment i tremble and cry hoping to know i'm alive

on my hands and my feet i feel quite discreet living but not alive i fall on the floor and try to survive a screech inside my soul: Please, don't die no more thunder strikes again, shaking all therein and i adore all that is before but unloved as a whore i keep wanting more but i don't receive a thing that i want and i weep i have all these things all these things i don't need all these things i've received but not a hug nor or word not a kindness but a sword don't want to kill anymore i dream of peace not of war where all stand by a shore south down the river the river of the war the one we've all been to before [somber guitar jingle] but never, together never before so together without war we'll come together to swim down swim down the dniepr down the dniepr and sing about more [melancholy epilogue] more to life more to know and so that all live forever more the world gone awry yet i wish and i hope that holding on together will solve all the woes and if they don't then we'll do it together together without war learning to be alive

[irynith]

Everything seems to breathe but you All the morning flowers and the dew wish I could have powered through The pain and the grief The dying underneath In my brain, despair I once dreamt, I was on the chair. Jumping to oblivion Jumping to nothingness But it was you Oh what did I do? Oh why must it be so. I thought we were friends But nothing really breathes though And the ocean breeze is rotting And my thoughts are all forgotten All the time we spent, just rotting I miss you my friend Til the bitter, the end Oh my what have I done? To make you run away from the sun. And I saw you once still breathing In the city of the night But only I was the ghost And I gave you a fright And you ran and cursed my name I'm sorry, I'll carry the shame. I just wanted a friend who was there But my mind degrades and despairs And spreads the illness through The atmosphere and you. I wish I was like you. I wish I was just true. And now we'll never see And it's all because of me I hope you're happy out there though I hope you forgot me so I hope on bad days you remember How kind and nice we were As friends of December As doommates of the world. I hope one day a memory Of us makes you smile I know it won't happen. But please, anything but dying. Everything is too trying.