#irynith

[irynith]

Everything seems to breathe but you All the morning flowers and the dew wish I could have powered through The pain and the grief The dying underneath In my brain, despair I once dreamt, I was on the chair. Jumping to oblivion Jumping to nothingness But it was you Oh what did I do? Oh why must it be so. I thought we were friends But nothing really breathes though And the ocean breeze is rotting And my thoughts are all forgotten All the time we spent, just rotting I miss you my friend Til the bitter, the end Oh my what have I done? To make you run away from the sun. And I saw you once still breathing In the city of the night But only I was the ghost And I gave you a fright And you ran and cursed my name I'm sorry, I'll carry the shame. I just wanted a friend who was there But my mind degrades and despairs And spreads the illness through The atmosphere and you. I wish I was like you. I wish I was just true. And now we'll never see And it's all because of me I hope you're happy out there though I hope you forgot me so I hope on bad days you remember How kind and nice we were As friends of December As doommates of the world. I hope one day a memory Of us makes you smile I know it won't happen. But please, anything but dying. Everything is too trying.

[irynith]

La Luna dimentica di danzare.

Aveva perso la sua fortuna e il suo sguardo.

Piangeva durante la luna crescente.

Fino all'arrivo del Sole,

che proiettò un riflesso nel vuoto,

e raccolse tutte le stelle, una per una,

così che il mondo tornò a essere completo.

[irynith]

Everything seems to breathe but you

All the morning flowers and the dew

wish I could have powered through

The pain and the grief

The dying underneath

In my brain, despair

I once dreamt, I was on the chair.

Jumping to oblivion

Jumping to nothingness

But it was you

Oh what did I do?

Oh why must it be so.

I thought we were friends

But nothing really breathes though

And the ocean breeze is rotting

And my thoughts are all forgotten

All the time we spent, just rotting

I miss you my friend

Til the bitter, the end

Oh my what have I done?

To make you run away from the sun.

And I saw you once still breathing

In the city of the night

But only I was the ghost

And I gave you a fright

And you ran and cursed my name

I'm sorry, I'll carry the shame.

I just wanted a friend who was there

But my mind degrades and despairs

And spreads the illness through

The atmosphere and you.

I wish I was like you.

I wish I was just true.

And now we'll never see

And it's all because of me

I hope you're happy out there though

I hope you forgot me so

I hope on bad days you remember

How kind and nice we were as friends

As doommates of the world's end.

I hope one day a memory of us

makes you smile

I know it won't happen.

But please, anything but dying.

[irynith]

When all you love is dying When all you do is trying When all you that ruins is vying When all your thoughts are flying When all you want is ending Without any transcending When rot turns you to nothing When death gives you the escape hatch When love gives you the hate Then what shall we all be doing? When the world passes you by And all you can think is How can I die? The endings with no beginnings The darkness feels more forgiving Letting all that you love go away Because you just can't feel that way When your heart is broken Your limbs and lungs are choking Nothing to becomes your chest Like a loneliness in your internal self The world seems like it's gone And you aren't even the one Just a wind, a void, a gap. Wanting something But you forget Your name your hope and all Til you become a blank host thrall But please I don't want to give up Something come Make me stand up If not then I will gnaw and will tear Until my nails bleed Til I despair Please something give me a lighter Please make the world brighter I can't take it anymore But I want to love Just a little more I want to love Please just for a moment No one wanted my love quite before But I shall love Even if I can't feel My bones and my head Even if I don't know How much I bled Even if I am numb I will try to love And never shall I be forgiven For my Dread delusional giving I'm sorry for all that I had done Yet still I'll try to be someone Forevermore

[irynith]

Summers make me sad

death would be nice instead

Stealing, Breathing heat

Every day feels on repeat

But the forests are green

And the blooming of all things

Yet I need to decompose

I wish I had better summer clothes

Otherwise this all feels old

I miss everyone I suppose

Those who died in times trode

And the petty fights abode

All those who left me

Fuck what happened to those?

I hope everything is alright

Please just keep on and fight

The birds are chirping

And sun is burning

Why is my soul hurting.

I have no strength to cry

So I must lie

Just lie

I love the green and the wind

But by night I want to die

[irynith]

I'm laying on the floor

one with the ground, ages through

And my stomach and chest are sore

I don't want anything anymore

And what for?

Take the pain away

Why must it befall me

Please fell me where I lay

Don't want to feel anywhere

This is a hell

And I have yet to have sinned

Except for the tearing of my eyes

And the anger laying inside

God I wish it all would die

To feed the trees and wolves

To make this existance cease

But there is no heaven underneath

And for an unknown reason I persist

Hoping that one day

Something will change

With no peeling of flesh or skin

But every moment is a dying

And the bannermen come

To bring hell asunder

With a rapturous sound of thunder

Of artillery and fire

There is nothing that seems worthwhile

When the underworld falls

Annexed by national calls

Painfully alive

Still somehow

[irynith]

[irynith]

In absentia I built hell

A blindfold of despair

Realization that of the heart

Becomes everything around

So in presentia I tore it asunder

With my hands bleeding

there is no god

there is no devil

only the lightbringer

a mourning star, a moon and sun.

Illuminating.