hugs from oppa
All the rage drained from Jisu after he hung up and faded into emotional exhaustion instead. It left him feeling uncomfortably vulnerable, to the point where he didn’t want to put on a cool façade and pretend like he was fine like he usually did. With Minjoon gone, he decided to seek out Haneul instead, but these past two years they were packaged deal anyway. They really did fit those Oppa and Umma roles with almost scary accuracy. He tried to resist the urge to depend on them for comfort, he was twenty-four and didn’t need to be coddled, and he had Air for that, but sometimes he just needed to be held by someone with that parental energy.
He knocked on Haneul’s and Minjoon’s door and waited to be summoned before slipping into the room and closing the door behind him. Without any kind of explanation, he climbed into Haneul’s bed and curled into a pathetic little ball, jaw working as he fought back the ridiculous urge to cry. He fought with Jihoon before, so there was no reason to cry, but this felt like their worst one yet. It was a harsh reality check that they weren’t as close anymore and probably wouldn’t be. In a few years, they’d be deployed and then they’d probably return to their careers for as long as their labels wanted them. Jisu couldn’t determine any point in the near or distant future where they would be near each other for longer than a few days.
He didn’t know how to explain this feeling to the others. They all had families, they all felt homesick, but he was the only twin in the group, and that was just different. Jisu was only in this world for a few minutes before Jihoon and then they were never without the other until they were signed, and it was like having a limb suddenly ripped from him. The pain got easier as time went on, but he never stopped missing him. He never stopped wishing he could just selfishly hoard his brother in his dorm. Jisu might just have to accept that their future wouldn’t involve each other.
“Jihoon-ssang is a new group and forgot to tell me. I had to find out through Kaimen-hyung, because Baekyung is part of it too,” He finally muttered as an explanation, pressing his face into Haneul’s pillow.