Random Writings, opening chapter ideas blah blah blah
You ever have that empty feeling in your stomach? When you are not quite sure whether you are hungry, thirsty...nervous? Even though you can feel it there as a dull ache its only when you pay attention to it that you suddenly feel as though you are falling. Usually these feelings are caused by something palpable, like teetering on the edge during a roller coaster ride, or waiting in the coffee shop for that first date to come around the corner; but you see that's the problem that I am wrestling with, I have no idea where this feeling is coming from. No matter how hard I try to identify it the cause of this ache is constantly eluding me.
After all, what do I have to possibly feel anxious about? I have a comfortable life, yeah times are hard across the board at the moment and money isn't in abundance but I am getting by. I have a good job in an office, my own modestly furnished flat, fantastic family and ever loyal friends...so what is wrong?
I'm sitting cross-legged in the middle of my living room floor, I think i have been sitting here for a while now, the colour of the light I'm basking in has changed from the gentle orange of the evening to the harsh cold silver of the streetlights outside. I haven't even drawn the curtains; and the cat has given up on the prospect of getting her dinner and is currently curled up with a very grumpy demeanor on the sofa cushions. I consciously blink, my eyes feel tired and I realise that I really have know idea how long I've been sat here....or why.
