Jul 19, 2020
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Fragmento de poema Aveces no dejo de pensar en ti de José Miguel Silva
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Imagino que recorro a besos el camino marcado por tus lunares
Fragmento de poema Aveces no dejo de pensar en ti de José Miguel Silva
Nada basta cuando hay hambre de justicia
José Miguel Silva
Day1: First day not talking. Feels kinda crappy not speaking, I kinda miss the little things like hearing how her day was or how shitty the weather is. Somehow it doesn’t seem right.
Trying to keep myself occupied doing coursework and the like but I still wonder if she’s had a good day, whether she’s slept okay, if she’s eating alright, all that stuff.
Onwards and upwards I guess? :/ I hope it gets easier because this feels unbearable right now...
4:29am I'm so angry at myself yet I keep taking it out on you :/ I pushed you away when I needed you the most. You built me up, made everything okay for me then it all got ripped away because of me. You say there will be others but we both know there won't, I'm not that type of person. You forced your way into my life, made me feel like I was actually worth something, it was like one day you decided 'Dammit I need that person in my life ' and that day was the best day I ever. To this day in still don't understand why you came to me or why you stayed around for so long but I'm glad you did, you gave me the best memories and best feelings I could ever ask for. For once, I felt like I belonged somewhere, with you. You didn't care how difficult I was, how nervous I got when I saw you, what my story was or anything else you were just glad to see me. I know you don't /didnt want to replace me but I'm glad you're getting what you deserve (I think? :/ ). You were always the best part of my life, I doubt that will change . If I get through this hell alone I'll probably still tell people there was this awesome person 'JMSD', they helped, they fixed me when nobody else wanted to try. I still check my phone for you, just in case one day you decide you need me back, that maybe we were okay together. I know that day probably won't come, but I'll still check, I'll still wait. You act like you're stronger than the rest of us but I've seen you break man, I hope I don't see that again. You always try be everyone's saviour but who is going to be yours? That's what I miss the most, not the cute moments, not the kisses, not the cuddles but the fact I could be there when you weren't okay, I could support you, like you supported me. I know you say there's others but will it ever be the same with them, we grew together and I'm not sure that can be replaced.
When you held my hand I felt like I could do anything, now it feels like I can do nothing.
3:53am I wish you were still here to help with these thoughts, you made it all okay, just knowing you were there and loved me made things a whole lot easier to deal with, I don’t know how you did it but your clinginess helped so much :/ I miss you.
I’ll always be here if you need me, I know you’d hate to come to me but no matter how bad things get, I’m here and I’ll try my best to make things okay regardless of how stupid/insignificant the problem is, I’ll give it 110% for you.
If you’re here, please help me.