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So our apartment is amazing and everything is moved in (though still packed) and I'm working today and I'm so tired but I know I get to go home to Joey tonight and that makes everything better.

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Spent last night in with my honey bear watching Doctor Who and eating pizza while getting white girl chocolate wasted via several shots of Jäger. It was a perfect way to ring in this new year which is no doubt full of amazing things in store for us. :) Happy New Year!!

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I get my first midnight kiss in four years tonight. :3

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If there was a contest of how much I love you, I would win.

Joe being the most adorable fucking person at 7AM

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True love is...

Staying at work over three hours after I've clocked out and waiting for about an hour and a half after we close for my boyfriend to get off work so I can buy him dinner. I love you honey, never ever forget that.

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Joe

I was thinking about that overused quote from Perks of Being A Wallflower, y'know, "We accept the love we think we deserve."

And as overused as it is, I can't agree with it more. Like, it's so fucking true.

For two and a half years, I settled. Because I thought I wasn't worth anything more. Because I didn't think that I deserved more than what I was getting. I settled for a year and a half of relationship limbo because I was so scared that I would never find anyone better. I was terrified that no one would ever love me again. While it's true that we had our good moments when things were okay, the fact of the matter is that the bad stuff outweighed the good. But I didn't want to believe that. I wanted to believe in him, to believe in us, to believe that the few good moments we had were worth the stress and the heartache and the tears.

Now I'm finally starting to like myself again. Now I'm finally seeing myself the way I should. And I realized that I deserve so much more than what I was getting.

You helped me to see that. You made me remember what it feels like to be with someone who actually wants to be around me. You showed me that happiness, real, honest to God happiness, is possible and I don't have to sacrifice my own for anyone else's. You make me feel like a real actual person rather than just a convenience. You've given me so much in the albeit short span of time that we've known each other and been together, and I don't care if people think that we're moving too fast or what it looks like from an outsider's point of view. I know what I feel and what I want.

And now more than ever I know that the love that I deserve is the love that you're giving me.

Thank you, baby boy. For being with me. For loving me. For caring about me. For wanting me. For fighting for me. For giving me everything that I've craved and needed from a relationship for so long. For being my new and exciting present and future.

I love you so fucking much. :) <3

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joe278 replied to your photo“Got these made at SeaWorld on Sunday. He wears my name and I wear his....”

Yeah woooo love u

I love you so much baby boy. <3