Below is a letter I just sent to my friend Katie. I'm putting it here so I can remember all of these things about her forever and I will actually some day write all of this out and I will make her something absolutely beautiful, some big banner or something and hang it over her bed that says. "you're beautiful.' because my friend has issues with herself and I think she's one of the most flawless people out there.
People used to talk shit about her in high school because yes she likes sex, and yes she's slept with plenty of guys. But her "friends" used to talk bad about her and that always drove me up a fucking wall. Yes she could be a little over the top but when it comes to it. She's flawless, she knows what she likes and she goes for it, she doesn't hold back, she doesn't let her mom's constant nagging, or what people say get her down and that's something I admire about her. She is strong willed and fierce.
She's the one person from high school I never hid something or lied about. I told her all of my truth from Jesse, to Evan everything, and she never judged me, never thought I did something wrong or was a bad person. Never said anything against me, she helped me out a lot actually and I can never repay her for that. She's the only one who knew I was crying on the flight home from New York, and the only one on the trip who knew what I was "going home" to. She held my hand threw the flight and comforted me, and she's the one who understood what I meant when I said a hundred times, If I leave now no one will notice. She was the only one, the girl who'd known me less than a year, got it and she held my hand and kept me sane and I miss her so much it sucks.
First off, oops, I'm so used to calling you Jomai I typed it in the search bar when I was trying to find you lol. Katie I have a few things to say to you so listen up.
Secondly, I love you. Seriously and honestly I really do love you and I always have. I'm so freakin happy that we ended up having all those classes together first semester so that we ended up being friends. Because in all of high school I think you are one of the few real friends I made and I value you above all others. In new york I felt totally alone and abandoned by everyone I'd thought was my friend but you stuck by my side even threw my moodiness on that one day, you explored the broadway shop with me and sang and we had an excelent time without anyone else and I will never be able to repay you for that.
You are the one person I think I met in all of high school who I never felt judged by or insercure around. You were sure in and of yourself and I wish I'd pulled more strength from you. You are a wonderful person, who deserves someone who will love her forever and treat her right I don't give a fuck what you or anyone else has to say. If I could make myself a man I would so I could be that man for you because you deserve a good man. You are so talented in singing, and you make me laugh every time I'm around you.
You're the only one who ever actually listened to my problems and tried to help me out or make me laugh about them and I can't thank you enough.
I miss you like crazy, I can't believe it's been two months since I've seen you. Honestly you. You my dear, and nothing else are what I really miss about Vancouver. I miss coming over from a walk because I had to pee or something like that. I miss singing with you and seeing you everyday and I swear my hand to god when I am up there this week I will see you and bring you your music book and tights back or I will stab myself because you don't deserve a shitty friend like me.
I miss talking to you everyday, and I miss hearing about all your boy drama and everything.
I mean every word of this. You are one of my true and actual friends and I wouldn't trade you for anybody in the entire world. Thank you for everything you've done for me, and hopefully will do for me.
