Set in the V&V Era minus Dallon, you are the keyboardist, multi-instrumentals, and backing vocals for P!ATD.
"So yeah guys life's pretty good.." Dallon says to his phone on an insta live. You look at him tears welling up in your eyes from the statement. "Yeah its been pretty smooth these last couple weeks. Haven't had many issues popping up-"
You run out of the room into the bathroom before he could finish his statement and slam the door. You start to sob silently so Dallon doesn't hear you.
Dallon hasn't really spoken to you for a couple weeks for no apparent reason but when he did it was to be an asshole.
After you let all your tears go you walk out of the bathroom and back into the livingroom. Dallon didn't even look up as you walked by and go to your shared bedroom.
He had been your offical boyfriend for about a year and nothing like this had ever happened.
You grab a guitar off the wall and start playing chords as loud and as hard as you can in frustration. Tears start falling again.
"One moment." Dallon says to the phone and sets it down. He walks into the bedroom "Can you stop being obnoxious for once in your life?!" He says in a yell whisper so the phone doesn't pick it up. You raise your head up to him "Will once you stop."
"I could never match yours."
You throw the guitar to the side and Dallon go's back to the livingroom to continue the live "Sorry guys had to adjust something."
You grab a backpack and start throwing stuff in it. You put your guitar in its case and throw it over your back.
You walk into the livingroom and stare at Dallon. After several seconds until he looks up. He sighs "One second guys gotta take care of something."
He stands up and towers over you "Why are you so dramatic?!" He keeps his voice low.
"Me?! I'm not the one who keeps ignoring the person you said you would love forever!" You say loud.
"Its not like we're married!! We live together! I've had a lot going on!"
"I don't care you can at least tell me if you hate me!"
"Maybe we just shouldn't be together anymore.."
"Yeah. We've grown apart. I loved you but-"
Tears start stinging your eyes and run over to the couch and throw his phone across the room "Well I mean sure! You care about random strangers more than me so fuck you Dallon! You can just go and get 45 cent jobs in an alley way that's all your worth!" You scream with tears still falling.
He looks at you shocked but then runs after his phone. A lot of his viewer left but not after commenting things like "Fuck boy" and "Dip shit.". Some of course say that your a crazy bitch and that they are single.
"Goodbye Dallon." You say between sobs. You were about to run out the door but first steal the bass he was playing on the live.
"[Y/N] wait!" He yells. You were already out the door. The bass wasn't he worry. "I'm sorry." He whispers to himself before ending the live.
You walk over to Brendon's apartment he shares with Spencer. You bang on the door several times loudly until one of them answers the door.
"God damn it's 10:30pm!" Brendon says before he sees its you "Oh sorry [Y/N] I- what's wrong?"
Brendon takes you into the apartment and hugs you "Tell me later."
Spencer walks out of his room to see what happened "Whats going on?"
You just break out in more sobs. Spencer puts his hands up and doesn't speak again. Brendon puts his hand on the back of your head so your head is in the crook of his neck "Its gonna be ok..". He rubs your back.
"We have a third room you can stay in if you need it."
You nod. "Dallon-" you say and that's all you get out before getting into a sobbing mess again. Brendon hugs you again and leads you to the room.
"Whats with the bass?" Brendon asks. You shake your head and put all your stuff on the bed "Thank you." You say with a voice crack. Brendon nods "No problem. Tell me what happened in the morning?"
You get up and look at your phone just to see a picture of Dallon as your lockscreen followed with several texts from him. You block him as tears start welling back up.
You walk into the living corridors where Brendon and Spencer sit. "Morning!" Brendon says in a happy tone. You continue to walk but hold your hand out as a wave.
You go to the bathroom and look in the mirror. "No wonder Dallon broke hated you." You say soft and tears well up again. You shake your head "No.. he didn't deserve you. He didn't deserve this face, this personality." You try to make your self cheer up. You force smile and wipe tears so Brendon and Spencer don't have to see you in that state.
After you get your self together you walk about and go to a recliner silently.
Brendon and Spencer look at eachother awkwardly.
"What happened honey?" Brendon says sweet and calmly.
You wipe your eyes again "Dallon hasn't been talking to me much for weeks and we finally broke. He said he's glad he's not me and that we've grown apart. He cares more about random strangers than me anyway. He hates me." You start crying again.
"He doesn't hate you, if he doesn't know what he had. He didn't deserve you anyway." Spencer says to cheer you up. You nod wipe your eyes "Thank you." You say softly.
"We can go over there and get some of your stuff." Brendon says. You shake your head eagerly. "We can go in." Spencer responds to your disapproval. "No you don't have to do that." You say assuring him.
"No we have no problem doing anything for you."
"We can go now even." Brendon responds. Spencer nods.
Brendon knocks on the door. Dallon answers after a few seconds. Dallon's eyes were puffy from crying. "Hell are you crying?" Brendon asks pushing past him. "[Y/N]?" Dallon says hoping you were with them. "She's not here. Why would she want go see you anyway." Spencer says before walking past him and follows Brendon.
Brendon start just putting a bunch of stuff in a bag. Dallon watches "Tell her I'm sorry. It's been a lot these last few weeks I didn't know how bad it had impacted her." He says and starts crying again.
He and Brendon do the 'bro hug' thing "Will do.".
You are sitting in your room hugging the bass. Brendon sees you doing that and is immediately saddened after seeing both of you. "Dallon says he's sorry." He's says handing you the stuff. "Sure he is." You mumble under your breath.
You've been living with Brendon and Spencer. You haven't really had many things career wise you've had to do so it's been pretty chillatious. Brendon and Spencer have took care of you and made sure you ate.
Before Ryan and Jon left they had asked you if you would go to their new band. You considered it but ultimately declined after you saw the impact the split had on Brendon and Spencer. You were glad you stayed in Panic! now.
Today you have an acoustic performance for a radio station. These were always fun...
You only had to do backing vocals as Brendon would cover the acoustic guitar part.
You get to the stations set up and sit silently. "You sure you can do this?" Spencer asks quietly. "Yeah.. it's not like I'm dying. Only inside." You respond. Spencer nods.
You and Brendon were going to duet the songs. The station gave you the list of songs There were five of them and they went straight through you. "Lying Is The Most Fun A Girl Can Have Without Taking Her Clothes Off", "Northern Downpour", "When The Day Met The Night", "New Perspective", and of course "I Write Sins Not Tragedies".
"Can I do this?" you asked yourself. Well you were gonna find out.
You sang all the songs in duet form and as soon as you were done with the last song you stood up and just walked away before anything else could happen.
Dallon saw the performance in his YouTube feed. He held back tears as soon as he saw you. You didn't look as full of life.
The first song was I Write Sins. You and Brendon did the face to face thing which Dallon always laughed at but not this time. The song didn't really get to him, hearing your voice did. The next one however it was different.
It was Lying Is The Most Fun. You looked straight at the camera when you sang "You know it will always be me." It was as if you have sang it straight to him. Dallon had tears falling.
Then there was Northern Downpour. That song is just sad in general but him hearing it come out of your mouth after what happened made it sadder.
Then you sang New Perspective. Dallon felt every word go straight through his heart especially when you sang "Who cares divine intervention I wanna be praised from a new perspective but leaving now would be a good idea so catch me up I'm getting out of here."
Last was When The Day Met The Night. It was like the story of the both of you and Dallon so hearing you sing it he lost it and started sobbing again.
He sees you leave the set as soon as you finish singing and has an idea why. Him.
You sit backstage wiping your eyes before tears fell.
Brendon and Spencer came back to you as fast as they could. "It was like the whole set was about Dallon!" You sobbed. Spencer hugs you "Its ok. It'll be alright." He rubs your back as you sob.
You walk out to the car Spencer and Brendon guarding you from pictures as you were embarrassed about the entire situation.
You get to the car and sit in the back seat.
"So [Y/N].." Brendon says driving.
"What!" You yell not wanting to speak.
"See its that time of the month.." He mumbles under his breath to Spencer not expecting you to hear it.
"You asshole! I can be mad any day of the damn month!"
Brendon and Spencer tense up as you yell at them.
"Brendon have you even had a girl long enough to know what happens? How did they even get it through both of your bone heads?! You both can preform but you're both dumb as fuck! Do you even want me living with you? Dumb fucks I could take you both in a fight any day! Pull over lets go right now!"
"Me and Spencer are going to this performance thing at a bar tonight. Come with us?" Brendon says trying to de-escalate the situation to prevent homicide or even more distracted driving.
"No." You yell back "Why would I want to that that would be rather embarrassing going out in a public bar with you both!"
Brendon looks at Spencer not knowing what to say. Spencer motions in a way to say I don't know. Brendon motions back that he doesn't know and to say something.
"Oh yes you are." Spencer says "You need to get out and around. You can't stay locked up forever. We could be like you dads?"
"What the fuck?" Brendon mouths theatrically to Spencer.
"I don't know?!" He mouthes back in the sane fashion.
As soon as you pull up you storm passed them both and into the apartment.
Spencer and Brendon drug you out of the apartemnt and to the bar bit not without a fight.
You follow either of them around just depending on where they go.
About an hour later the music begins. You watch in admiration for some of them and really enjoy it until you hear oh so familiar names.
"Next up we have Dallon Weekes and Ryan Seaman!" The announcer says.
You start to walk toward the door but Brendon catches you "No. You have to listen."
He drags you back to Spencer fighting you
"Your not my dad!" You yell.
"Yes I am!" Brendon realizes what he said to late "I take that back Im your brother figure!"
Brendon eventually drags you back before it starts.
"Hey so I'm Dallon Weekes and we are gonna be singing a song my friend wrote called "Always". I'm also dedicating this to a girl that probably wants to set my house of fire and murder me so yeah go's like this."
You look at Brendon and Spencer and then back to Dallon. You try to tip toe away but Brendon and Spencer have their eyes on you.
When you actually listened you could feel the emotion in every lyric he sang. After the first chorus tears started to form. Did he still love you? That's all you wanted.
The performance felt so genuine and you just wanted to give him a hug and tell him it's all better now.
After he finishes he walks off. He didn't see you. Brendon and Spencer lead you back stage where Dallon was on his phone.
There were tears in his eyes as well as yours. You immediately ran up to him and started hugging him. "[Y/N]?!" He said exicted and immediately returned the hug. "Yeah!" You say with tears running down your face. You continue to hug and tear up for several moments.
"I didn't think you'd ever forgive me." Dallon admitted.
"I didn't think I ever would when it happened."
Dallon wipes your tears away "I was going through a lot and regretted everything Insaid immediately. I'm so so so sorry I didn't mean anything said or that I called you. I don't think I could ever get tired of you."
"I don't care." You say and kiss him and wipe his tears.
When you turned around Brendon and Spencer were already gone.
"Can I come back." You say and start tearing up again.
"You shouldn't ever have to ask that baby. Yes, you are always aloud its your house too."
Dallon smiles back "I love you too."
You and Dallon walk back into to the audience area close together. You find Brendon and Spencer and they are happy with the outcome.
After you get all your stuff from the apartment you go home with Dallon and finally get to sleep in your bed.
"It was always you." Dallon whispers to you thinking you were asleep. You were glad you go to here those four words coming from the love of your life.
This ending sucks that's all I've got say. This was also really long so.
