#jornaling

[moonandtrees]

[carothian]

#journaling #writting

[powerlineprincess]

Adam & Eve in the Palmetto State/Southern Renaissance. 2019 K.A. LuxHill336

[dias-en-tinta]

https://vsco.co/vgagl-

[ephemeralizing]

it became spring and i hadn’t even realized

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[turtles-in-a-trenchcoat]

23 November 2019

I haven’t journaled since September, and my god I only just realized how heavy it was making me feel. Today I deep cleaned my room and completely cleared out and reorganized my desk. School has been so hectic lately, mostly because I have so many after school things at the moment. I am doing tech for the school play, and robotics, (Thank god its not competition season) and rock climbing. Currently I’ve missed the last three robotics practices to work on props and that's made me feel very guilty.

[bpdandeverythingelse]

This and That

Gratitude:

1. I am grateful for my salary, which allows me to do the sports I want, the way I want. 

2. I am grateful for the apartment I am living in, which is bright, clean and spacious. 

3. I am grateful for the many months of summer we’ve had this year. 

Journal:

Right now I feel upset. I feel so desperately in need of affection and attention and at the same time I feel so impatient with the person I’m living with, because I know that he cannot give me the attention I expect from a relationship. So I feel sad and angry. I am on the verge of tears. I want to scream and I want to sleep. I want to know what the psychological explanation for my responses to greetings from my partner come from. Why do I grow cold and shut down. Am I holding on to a relationship that is doomed? I’ve heard anyone can be with anyone, it’s all a question of communication. But what if this isn’t going to work? I want so badly to connect and be understood. I want so badly to be taken at face value and to matter. I am not a fringe movement. And I try to remember what my yoga teacher said about change: that nothing is constant. This is a passing phase. Let it pass, oh please let it pass. 

[prideandpen]

Okay but writing a multipage letter to a future someone in your life is the most strangely cathartic thing. As someone who 100% heavily loves all things romantic and soft and loving but has no direction in their life for such feelings I highly reccomend. It’s the most relaxing and wonderful way to be at peace with the daydreams and lack of a love life