Apr 30
I want to live in a world where my kindness and gentleness is honored, and not treated as though I am weak.
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I want to live in a world where my kindness and gentleness is honored, and not treated as though I am weak.
Thought I was going to be crying myself to sleep tonight but ended up writing stuff out and im glad but also now its 2:30 in the morning and I'm wide awake just blinking
Sometimes i see these sucess stories about how people don't make it till their 47 or 52 or 39 and it makes me cry because im ready to take myself out now at 29. I dont wanna have to endure this life that long waiting in this shit show for the possibility of my hard efforts to show through.
I really dislike the anxiety and dread that bubbles up inside me when i know i have work the next day. It feels like a longterm illness. Even when i change jobs it follows.
Thinking about getting medicated for anxiety. Something I've previously been against for myself personally, but im tired of this battle.
Genuinely good yesterday and today. Feeling grateful and pleased.
Today I woke up around 6am, stayed up, actually fed myself decently, cut own my hair and finally cleaned the bathroom. All of that took all day and im very proud of myself. These were all overdue needs being met.