I am overwhelmed, and I know exactly why I am. I was about to say I don’t know but that has to change. I am tired of giving answers in idk. I need to change my approach because often time i do know the answer but I don’t know just feels like a safer answer to give, a less tentative in terms of thinking.
The reason of me being overwhelmed is that i am not happy with myself, I am degenerating in terms of personal progress, in terms of personal growth. With the passage of time i am not getting better in anyting instead i’m stagnant, in this plac e where i have been for so many years. i hate myself I hate myself. there are people who wants to know me, wants to be friends with me, wants to talk to me, but here I am a 5 grader stuck in a 23 year old body. My mind freezes in situations is what my problem is, or it goes into a hurricane mode, where my thoughts are jumping inside, are in constant static motion. I hate myself, I am not an effecient person. wny am i not an effecient person. Why do i not meet the deadlines. I hate myself because I am not a good communicator, I am not very good in expressing my thoughts and emotions. why is that so? I need Allah. There is chaos, a panic building up inside of me, and it’s overwhleming me, why am i not progressing? why am i not growing in terms of personal skills? kuddos to people who do, I just want to be better too.
