#journl

[namiinaomii]

"With pure intention, never give up. Ever. Ever ever. No matter what comes your way, what leaves, or gets shaken up. Let it. This is the clearing of the path, the opening of the ways."

Open sesame, here comes RastaMan. Abracadabra. Catch me if you can.

[rininwaterloo]

Chloe got her next round of jabs today and she cried so much :( it just completely broke my heart to hear her cry so hard. We used the feeding room and was able to calm her down quickly though. Poor thing was hiccoughing as she nursed :(

She didn’t like the one she took orally and balked at the syringe thing the nurse tried to put in her mouth. The nurse said she had never seen a baby turn their head so sharply to refuse it before.

Edit: the doctor confirmed weekly poos are fine and stinky farts are fine also. Baby girl is 7.48kgs and 68cm at 4months.

[namiinaomii]

The "All-ness" - "Nothingness"- "Chaos": Functioning OUTSIDE of any time-space-birth-cycle. The realm (or unrealm?) of pure potentiality.

[namiinaomii]

There is nothing to fear.

[namiinaomii]

Art is a Portal/ Temple/ Gateway

Artists are the Vessels, Shamans, Oracles in their own right.

[fullcloudbeliever]

“Write what should not be forgotten.” — Isabel Allende It is only by writing, not dreaming about it, that we develop our own style. Journal Notebook from Neorah. Start writing your thoughts now!

[onedayillbeasaint]

Difficult Times - 25.02.2018

All of February has been a strange month for me. I’ve shifted between really happy times and really sad times. I haven’t been to church since stake conference on the 4th. I haven't had an actual lesson from the missionaries since the beginning of the month (though we did have dinner with a couple of friends on Valentine’s Day). I picked up the Book of Mormon a couple of days ago and flipped through and read a couple of verses, but I haven’t properly read it in weeks. 

I was able to go to Las Vegas last weekend to go see Lana Del Rey with my sister and to see my mom too. I don’t like Lana too much but my sister asked for tickets for her birthday and my dad bought me a ticket as well. It was great flying into Vegas - I realized how much I missed the sky and sun and mountains. Seeing my mom and sister was the greatest part of it all (I also met some other family members but I’ll write about that in a separate post). I’ve been pretty homesick the past few weeks and I can’t wait for spring break to get here, but I have so many things to get done before I get there.

I’m still grappling with the issues that were confusing me last quarter, namely future career path and transferring schools. I feel really aimless right now and, though this past quarter has helped me to revisit an old interest in urban planning/studies, I just don’t feel like I have anything more figured out. I won’t be able to apply to transfer to many of the schools that I wanted to apply to because they require recommendations and I wasn’t able to get them from my professors because they haven’t known me long enough. I’m thinking that it will probably be better for me to go home and go to community college for a year before hopefully being able to go to a school that I’d really like to attend. 

Moving on to the Gospel, I’m a bit fed up. Not with doctrine or practice. I’m just tired of waiting to be baptized but I don’t want to be baptized right now. I haven’t talked about it with my family at all since last quarter. I haven’t been keeping the Word of Wisdom and have been drinking tea and coffee and haven’t been praying and haven’t been reading my scriptures and I just feel a bit abandoned I guess. I know that Heavenly Father loves me and that He and Christ are both there, I just have some disregard for what God wants us to do. I’m almost to the point of saying that I just don’t care anymore because I’m not seeing future happiness in the Gospel.

[rainetheawesome]

Edelweiss I have a lot to do But I don't want to do anything I still gotta do them though No one's gonna succeed for me but me. #bloom #grow #calligraphy #m&g #signme #unipin #journl #planner #school #tryingtosurvive #pink #green #selfie #lunchbreak