4/8/26 uWelcome! *always changing and updating*
They done hit me with Thragg after I recently cut my hair… they’re awktualllyyyy wight
To my journal this holds mostly raw thoughts unfiltered and I just refuse to correct my mistakes so deal with it :p
My favorite sample page:
💬 0 🔁 0 ❤️ 0 · 2/28/26 (Sample Page) Alice in Wonderland Madness Returns · The legendary Alice donned in her signature blue dress that has
Didn’t expect people really to read this at all (thought it was just going to be in the corner of the vast void of the internet where no light shines)
So this is my place I go to when I put on blaring music to drown out the world and organize my chaotic raw thoughts and emotions I don’t understand as I have suppressed them for such a long time without feeling them they have only amplified.
It was recommended by my therapist to do something where I created an alias in which I became comfortable with actually sharing the things that have happened to me… although I never tell my friends how I really feel or simply say I’m fine I am grateful for the one that has shown me tumblr… although I have multiple accounts on different platforms I find this the best medium for me… as I spill my guts on what goes on in my head and I was finally able to open up… and although I told her not to share with anyone I’m glad she did… or else I wouldn’t have called… I wouldn’t have broken down… I would of probably ended my life as I failed to re enter society as I struggle to break prison habits and try not to default from self destructive behavior and build healthy relationships and a better life.
So for guided reference when I use my tag names these are different versions of me from different times of my life
Jrawsone1 - was during my early adolescence
AmoktheBzrkr - was during my angry teenage years and gym mentality
XeroxTheApex - was when I was a number in the system known as BN6146 my thinking became predatory and violent in nature as given the prison environment consuming and adaptive by nature very tidy and organized moving systematically with a copy, edit, paste mentality
Vudon the Incubus - to compliment Jade the Succubus and to be her counter online online presence she wanted me to be a porn star but its not my style to be out in public on the internet like that
Darth Perdis - If a black spiderman from Brooklyn was actually a villian in the star wars scene with control of carnage… this is the new mentality that adapts the siths creed in my meditations
Sith’s creed:
Peace is a lie, there is only passion
Through passion I gain strength
Through strength I gain power
Through power I gain victory
Through victory my chains are broken
This was the original concept of the idea for Vudon The Incubus as I am at the cusp of Cancer and Leo which makes my personality pretty intense and high energy even when I was facing suicidal depression
Feel free to message me although I stay busy working 60+ hours going to the gym and studying we all have 168hrs in a week to use and abuse it just depends on if you’re efficient enough if not its okay life’s too short to be so serious and stressed and plus I spent my life on becoming “perfect” and honestly its over rated
Its better to be fat and happy than fit strong and miserable I only do it out of habit and nostalgia
2nd concept: I took the build of Amon to be the base form idea
One of my favorite poems I made is titled “The disciple of Atlas”
💬 0 🔁 0 ❤️ 1 · The Disciple of Atlas · (alt. from my original) 7/28/25 There once was a young boy who wanted to be a man to do things tha
also if I get comfortable enough I spam reels
Also if I add an element they are based on the principles on the book of 5 rings by Miyamoto Musashi
Void- (aka ether) the eternal now
Earth- basic fundamentals and resource management (inochi)
Water- adaptive + growth mindset (kaizen)
Fire- mainly with rhythm or the body GTG = Grease The Groove + Yoga
Air - Perspective/ Position/ Role (wim hoff + kuji kiri)
I also incorporated the 3 pillars (more of an occult thing)
Metal - spiritual essence (the iron will shaping reality to my will)
Blood - primordial essence (primal needs... fucking like an animal)
Energy- divine essence (thought)
My favorite words to live by:
Tempus Fugit Memento Mori Vivere
translation:
Time flies anyway, and one day we will die… so don’t forget to live
I text first and fast because it might be the last… I text first because it was a good omen… I text back as phones are always in hand and I let you know I am present with you here and now as we bounce back and forth between the eternal Tao the universe connects us all in ways that makes us co-creators amongst the Gods… but control thy thoughts and hold thy tongue as you speak the reality you seek… If its good or bad the universe doesn’t care and when you understand the methods it drives you mad when others don’t see it or label it as coincidence not seeing the divine powers at play… that influence our choices that make us feel deeply connected and as though our fates are intertwined in a sick yet twisted way that we can’t help but laugh at the irony at play… and with this message I hope you will have a phenomenal day…
music influences the emotions we feel by bringing our vibrations out into the rhythmic field of waves that are felt from deep within especially when you drown in the music and the world outside fades away when you close your eyes and let the muse of the Vudon (the power of music) take over your soul and moves your body as you bob your head to the rhythm of my beats that resonate with your mind and caresses your soul as I consume your body with the graceful touch of my hands