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obviously i know ZERO THINGS ABOUT LIGHTING

despite my drawing teacher’s efforts that one year in secondary school

but the fill and blur tools allow me to fool my own eyes lol

clearly obviously i should have used like a reference for this but uhhhhhhhhh

well too bad i guess

hahaha this is really fun

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so i was just...doing something that was very pleasant. reading something?looking at something??? i don’t remember what?? what the fuck

i’ve had this before but generally i can always remember

[rakshasi-lm]

“You must come with me, loving me, to death; or else hate me, and still come with me.” - Carmilla. Joseph Sheridan Le Fanu

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episode 2 and 3 season 2

so i watched these with the bf and that seemed to have eliminated the desire to write these rants. maybe it really is a stand-in for wanting to share what I’m watching with someone....

Anyway. I did have to note: WHAT THE FUCK HAPPENED TO FINN AND BELLAMY??? it’s like they switched souls??? wtf was that??? When did Bellamy have a moment of remorse over torturing Lincoln that he doesn’t want to repeat it?

Is Finn acting like this because he’s like: yea the war has already begun lots of ppl are ded, Clarke might be being tortured/killed, so a bid for peace and no bloodshed is a lost cause? Last semester he was conflicted about killing people on the bridge even when they were already attacking, he felt bad about killing a Reaper trying to kill them. And now he shoots a dude in cold blood. Bellamy is suddenly trying to calm HIM. (wtf happened to Bellamy?)

I really appreciate how the show re-iterates that torture/threats is not a good or reliable way AT ALL to get information out of someone.

also Raven is such a hardcore badass what the FUCK. Yeah just do surgery on my spine without aneasthetic that’s fine. JEZUS FUCKIGN CHRIST. and so selfless, she’s like ah yeah just went through hell, got crippled will have to deal with all that shit but Finn, my family, best friend, the one i love most, my only real support, you should go get Clarke and the others back.

I always so happy to see the love between Finn and Raven. Clarke/Finn/Raven is the ONE love triangle ever that I’ve actually enjoyed? Because they are all super sympathetic and try to act respectfully and according to what they feel.

also Clarke is such a hardcore paranoid badass she RIPPED her STITCHES OUT just to be able to keep checking out the patient ward (I could not watch). I enjoyed her no-time-for-relaxation something-is-so-fucking-wrong rampage SO MUCH. She’s such a damaged, driven, crazy kid.

Kane was being such a bitch again. shock tasing Abby in a bid for crowd-control. All the ‘internal control’ sacrifices just seem so ungrounded to me.

I wonder if it really is too much to ask to humanise the crowd.... they did better this season but I mean is it just impossible? To not simply lift some faces from the crowd that I’ve never seen before? and have the rest of them  labour away in the background with no indication of direction until they gotta listen up for a speech or burst into violence? Abby was like: see if he’s got family. YOU WERE WITH 2000 people on the ARk. that’s 500 families perhaps. That’s less than a decently sized village. you should KNOW these people. We should know these people.

Of course Kane was right with his diplomacy mission, but maybe he should have communicated a little with his ‘underlings’ including Abby. As always ARK leaders fail on their lack of communication.

also Indra so fucking horrible haha. Like all Grounders really. Anya sucks (tho her attack on the Mountain soldiers was damn cool). It all makes sense but slamming into such a wall of hostility is like fffffuck. Nyko is awesome.

And I am so glad that at least INDRA knew that Octavia was following them. like SERIOUSLY, the grounders have grown up in and LIVED the woods, how the heck could Octavia have eluded them? She couldn’t have. (but whatever). Octavia is such a badass though wow wtf. She’s like spring, fresh brave resilient. I am very glad how we got to see that the Grounders warrior’d up against the Reapers and them hugging the people they freed.

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Episode 12

Honestly they saved Jaha from honour-suicide bc of bullshit ungrounded ‘inspiration’talk, they saved Abby from burning on the Exodus because of ??? bullshit. Just bullshit speculation.

It’s very interesting what ‘previous’ clips they decided to show for this episode. ‘We don’t decide who lives or dies’. lots of clips edited in a way to convey that the Skaikru are out of their depth and that they DID start the war. Interesting. good.

what? there was a political level below the council? like ‘station leaders’? you’d think they’d have been important for at least fleshing out background no -

aaaaaaand Jaha gives up. I mean??? you have a whole fucking space station, from what i can see you miraculously saved a lot of ppl from different parts of depowered ARK off screen - are there no engineers among them? I know Raven is a genius, but goddamn, she made it to earth in an escape pod BUILT BASICALLY FROM SCRATCH with a broken pressure regulator. Cannabalise the fucking ARK.

Jaha is such a bad leader. i know they try to position him as though he’s not but honestly???? he executed people without trial for nothing because??? the rules said he had to, and don’t try to tell me they float ppl because rationing of resources, you wouldn’t throw out a body that you poured years of food, energy, education and indoctrination into just to throw it out. THEY HAVE PERMA- CONTRACEPTION MEASURES. why the fuck not make sure that your population can be sustained by controlling its growth? Don’t tell me they couldn’t easily let smaller crimes than murder/rape be punished with community service to control crime. Jaha is such a bad leader, he keeps thinking that his people just can’t be trusted. He doesn’t trust them with vital information about THEIR lives. He executes a good friend in cold blood to keep the secret. He then plans to kill 300 people without their consent or knowledge. He sees that his good friend that he executed was right and people understand their situation, understand they are in this ARK together, are willing to work on the problem, to sacrifice for the solution, even their lives. Then he lies to them AGAIN about vital information that concerns their lives, and plans to leave about 1300 people behind on the ARK with no plans to cannibalise more dropships while he puffs off to Earth. AND NOW, I know, he’s gonna do his noble suicide for my people thing but then he gets saved by bullshit AGAIN because somehow he can come to Earth after all and spread some more pull-the-wool over people’s eyes ALIE literal digital reality shit.

This show almost literally said (with the 320 willingly dying => being the best that was brought out of people) and now again seems to be saying  that if you are willing to die for YOUR people you’re a Good person. No. It’s not NEARLY as simple as that.

Right now Jaha, with the Ark dying, doesn’t think of Jake’s good ideas of coming together and thinking of a solution again and just throws up his hands: oh well, whatever i guess us thousand are gonna die, no attempts scheduled to make it to earth. He has NEVER been an inspiring figure. He has never really been a very good person. at all.

also

I wonder if Lexa will make the point that actually it’s really stupid to be like ‘I will bear it so they don’t have to’. oh boo hoo, poor Clarke ‘had to’ commit a genocide to get back 50 or so of her own people (including her mum) and she won’t make it known. She will bear the burden of that guilt. No. Fuck no.

Every single ARker should know what atrocities have been committed to give them a chance at life and happiness and freedom. Every Arker should know and feel that guilt and pain because it means they will act to prevent it being necessary another time! It’s like leaving out war crimes out of the history books because well OUR people shouldn’t feel bad about all that murder that won’t help the nation and anyway it’s not like they could help it (firstly, yeah right, and secondly: BUT THEY MIGHT BE ABLE TO HELP IT IN THE FUTURE) It’s like; I guess hey they do benefit from dat genocide, but whatever, fuck responsibility. fuck co-existing with others in the future as thought they’re human worthy of the basics like life.

The worst thing in the world is not that tremendous suffering is caused, but that there is no outrage over it. no condemnation. Or at the very least an awareness that it is not RIGHT just BECAUSE it allowed you to survive.

no. What was done is NOT right DESPITE it allowing you to survive.

(i.e. ARkers are such fucking horrible people - look at ep 1 of season 3 they do not give a single fuck that 300 people died for those bracelets/medical shit/piano - they will not give a fuck again and again and again) If people think it’s totally fine, why not repeat? Repeat endlessly across the whole fucking board.

SO STOP LYING TO YOUR  PEOPLE EVERY FUCKING TIME. Leaders make decisions because somebody has to and I suppose that in some really wacky situatons like the whole of the 100 they have to bear responsibility for some pretty gruesome shit in favour of survival of the whole of their people. But these people are responsible for the decisions being made on their behalf or in their name. They have the power to choose, and act as well.

Why do I hold the Skaikru to such high standards when I don’t the Grounders? I mean...they certainly don’t see the fall of the Mountain as Not Right. It’s literally destroyed their greatest enemy, probably greatest threat. ...They must only be happy. Killing in battle is ‘brave’ (which makes more sense when considering how inhuman their reaper enemies are). They have a different code, they always act from self-defense. They see it as a necessity. But they don’t feel bad about mass murder. But Lexa (Anya too) - she still has a focus on peace, working together, and some serious dose of forgiveness/awful justice balanced with the practical considerations of keeping in power. She strives to be better. She KNOWS that peace is better than bloodshed. She doesn’t see violence as justified so much, she sees it as necessary. She didn’t even plan to destroy the Maunon - actual monsters to the Grounders, I don’t think the ‘rescue’ nature of the original plan came just from Clarke.

And I don’t think she ever lies about responsibility or atrocity to her people. All of her people are responsible for their people’s survival, and the actions taken to accomplish it. But does she call it Right? My impression is no. I hope I’m right. (there’s still a double standard there in my thinking but i need to consider it some more).

WELL. that was the first five minutes of the episode and rant on morality. good show this it really makes me think. thanks carrot clexa.