So I should be working on that request I have, but this idea hit me on the way to work and I wanted to write it down. It's inspired by that sneak peek of the newest episode. And because it occurred to me that, while Kendall obviously knows Logan and Camille broke up...he may not actually know why because he was too busy wrapped up in his own Jo drama
The first thing Logan sees when he walks into apartment 2J is his two taller friends glaring at each other. He rolls his eyes as he makes his way over to the pair. He can only imagine what stupid thing they're fighting about now.
"She's the love of my life, Kendall!" The pretty boy cries dramatically.
Kendall rolls his eyes as well, unaware of both the smaller boy walking towards them and the fact that he'd just mirrored his actions. "And all I'm saying is that she winked at me so she might not be interested."
James huffs, clearly insulted by this and storms out of the apartment, bumping into Logan and sending the genius stumbling back a few feet. The sudden movement causes Kendall to finally take notice of the other boy. "Oh hey, Logie." He half scoffs, half laughs as he gestures to the door where James had just left. "Can you believe that guy?"
Logan shrugs, going to the fridge and grabbing a bottle of water. "Just be careful, okay?"
The blonde raises an eyebrow. "What's that supposed to mean?"
"It means that Lucy's pretty and cool and all, but she's not worth losing a friend over. No girl is."
"Oh come on," Kendall nudges the smaller boy. "You'd do the same thing if you were in my position."
"Honestly," Logan takes a sip out of his water bottle and frowns when the blonde grabs it and takes a sip too. "I wouldn't. I know my friendship with James isn't worth giving up because of a girl. That's why I forgave him when he kissed Camille."
The taller boy spits out the water he'd been drinking at Logan's words, drenching the smaller boy in front of him. "What?!" He exclaims, wiping water off of his chin while Logan grabs a towel and starts drying himself off. "James kissed Camille!"
The brunette nods, running a paper towel over his face. "Yes...That's why we broke up. I thought I'd told you that."
Kendall shakes his head. "No. I definitely would have remembered you telling me that."
The genius shrugs as if it's no big deal and this causes Kendall to frown. "Why didn't you tell me?"
Logan shrugs again. "It wasn't that big of a deal to be honest. I mean at first it was, but after I'd had a few hours to think about it, it was obvious that James' friendship meant more to me then my relationship with Camille. Once I forgave him there was no drama left and no need to tell everyone what had happened."
"But...but I'm your best friend!"
"You were my best friend. By the time that happened you weren't anymore."
"W-what?" The blonde isn't able to hide how much that statement hurts him. It shows clear as day on his face and in his voice. "What do you mean?"
Logan sighs. "Look, you're always going to be one of my best friends. And two years ago, if you'd ask me who I was closest to, I would have said you without having to think twice."
"What changed?"
"You did." When he notices Kendall open his mouth to argue, he holds up a hand to keep him silent. "It's not a big deal or anything, I mean it was at first, but I got over it. But you started dating Jo and you started spending all your time with her. Which I understand. You really liked her, so of course you'd want to spend time with her. But you didn't have time for us as much and you never had time for me." He shrugs. "Like I said, I understand why it was like that. Stuff changes. Relationships change. It's a part of life."
"So...so who is you're best friend now."
Logan thinks, but only for a moment before replying: "James."
This hurts the blonde more than he's willing to admit. "Really?"
He nods. "Yeah. Once I didn't have you to spend all my time with, James and I started hanging out more, just the two of us. He's the first person to-well he's the only person-who knows that I'm gay."
The blonde knows that he should probably focus more on the fact that his best friend (because no matter what Logan thinks now, Kendall always has and always will consider Logan his best friend) has just told him this, literally, life changing secret, but all he can focus on is the fact that he told it to James first."How did you know?"
Logan shrugs again. "It started when James and Camille kissed. I was so...not as a bothered as I should be by it. I was more upset at the fact that James had kissed my girlfriend than I was about the fact that my girlfriend had kissed James, if that makes sense. And I realized that I just didn't feel that way about Camille like I'd convinced myself I had. And then I realized that I'd never felt that way about a girl. And then the rest just kind of fell into place."
"W-why didn't you tell me?"
"I tried. But every time I tried to get you to talk to me you always had somewhere to be with Jo or something to do with Jo. After almost two weeks of being blown off for Jo I just...sort of gave up. I mean I would have told you and everyone else, eventually."
"But you told James?"
The brunette nods. "Yeah. We were getting closer and I needed to tell someone. And James, as girl crazy as he is, was willing to listen to me. Was willing to cancel his date the few times I needed to talk to him. It just made sense to tell him."
"Are you in love with him?" Kendall's terrified of the answer he's going to receive, but he has to know.
Logan laughs. "Are you kidding? I love James and all, but he is way too high maintenance for my tastes. I need someone more your speed."
The blonde sucks in a breath. After a beat he asks, "Are you in love with me?"
The genius blinks. Once. Twice. Then he rolls his eyes. "Relax James Jr. I said I needed someone your speed. I didn't say I needed you."
"So...you're not."
Logan looks thoughtful for a moment before replying. "I honestly haven't thought about it. You've been one of my best friends for so long that it never occurred to me to think of you, James, or Carlos that way. I mean, I can admit that you're all attractive, but that doesn't mean I'm in love with any of you."
And then, to the brunette's complete and utter shock, Kendall's green eyes are glassy with unshed tears. "You...you should be in love with me."
Logan's mouth drops open. "I'm sorry...what?"
"You should be in love with me." The blonde repeats.
"Why?" It's honestly the only thing the genius can think to say.
"Because I'm in love with you."
And, really, there's absolutely nothing that Logan can think of to say to that.
Kendall takes a shaky breath before speaking again. "I don't know if I'm bi or just in love with you, because I have never been attracted to another guy in my life. But I-I think I've always been a little bit in love with you and it's just gotten stronger."
Logan blinks, his eyes wide and his mouth open in a perfect 'o'. "If you're so in love with me," he finally manages to get out, "then why were you fighting with James over Lucy?"
"Because I always thought you were straight. A little shy and awkward, but straight. I never thought I'd have a chance. So I just tried my best to ignore it."
"Kendall I-"
"It's no big deal." The blonde cuts him off, shrugging and trying to sound nonchalant. "I mean I've only felt like this since I was twelve. It has to go away eventually, right?"
Now it's Logan's turn to choke on the water that, until a few seconds ago, he'd been ignoring. "Since we were twelve?"
Kendall's face is a bright shade of red, but he nods anyways. "Yeah. I just...I don't know what that means exactly because, well, like I said, I've never been interested in another guy. I just love you and I don't think it would matter if you were a boy or a girl. I would still have fallen in love with you."
"Kendall..." The genius takes a few steps forward, invading his personal space far more than the blonde is comfortable with, considering what he's just revealed to the other boy. "I've never thought about you like that before."
The taller boy sighs. "So you've said. I-"
"But," Logan cuts him off and grabs his hand. "I think..." He shakes his head, "No, I know I could start. If you'd be willing to give it a try."
Kendall stares at the other boy, green eyes shinning hopefully. "Seriously?"
Logan nods. "You were-you are my best friend. I already love you. There's no reason why I can't fall in love with you. You just need to give me time."
The blonde nods happily. "Yeah. Of course. We-we've got all the time in the world." He gives the shorter boy's hand a squeeze.
The brunette grins, his dimples matching Kendall's perfectly. He leans up and brings his lips to Kendall's gently. The kiss is simple and sweet, both boys perfectly content to just stand together, wrapped in each others arms, chests pressed together, and hearts beating in sync. They're so caught up in the rhythm of the others lips that they don't even notice the sound of the door opening.
