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My blorbos <3

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SWTOR OCs ages!!

In this interview, one of the devs (Caitlin), says that 7.6 is set to be at the end of 27 ATC/3626 BBY. So simple tiny tag game..

How old are your OCs in the current timeline?

Maverik'a : 34 years old (29 biologically).

Yuthuura : 42 years old.

Kaaydan & Rue : 44 years old.

Juhann & Kyahni : 43 years old.

Zarsh'a : 39 years old.

Raeshen : 40 years old.

(no pressure) tagging : @reigraceee @catohphm @jukkaricity @relevant-url-incoming @selenescantina @callmeaiden @lanabenikosdoormat

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May the fourth be with you!

Happy Star Wars day from me and my beloved characters <3

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its the first day of summer! (at least, up in the northern hemisphere LOL) so what's a better time than now to ask -- what are your blorbos up to when the sun is out and the weather gets warm again? :0!

OOOOOOO thank you for the ask! Some of the answers will be hypothetical because I have no idea how summer is on their home planets so YEA!

Rahleigh and his sister, Raeshen are big on sun bathing. The purebloods yearn for the sun, okno. You'll never see Rahleigh with a shirt on when it's sunny or/and hot 😭

When the weather is good on Odessen, Maverik'a likes to spend some time in nature, walking, meditating or doing speeder races lol. But if she's at the beach, she loves being in the water (and splashing her husband and friends 💀)

Yuthuura loves to sit on her porch when the weather is good on Dantooine, probably while reading and drinking a cold drink. I don't think she likes beaches very much, specially since sand reminds her of Korriban and other planets she's been on in Sith duty.

Kaaydan would be absolutely chaotic at the beach, I think he'd spend most his time building sand castles and covering himself in the sand 😭 but I think he'd be pretty versatile and do everything there is to do.

Rue would be relaxing most of the time and be too lazy to get up and do something else. Probably just goes in the water like 10 minutes and goes back under the shade to drink some wine 😎

Kyahni loves the beach, any other planet reminds her of work. She would read a book next to the sea and later she would go play volleyball (or the SW equivalent). Her sister Juhann, who's big into sports, would definitely join her! Juhann also loves sharing stories around camp fires with people she cares about.

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freebie ask game

What are your OCs approach to sex, or any other sexual stuff? Are they more willing, or free with it, or are they like 'absolutely no', in any way?

Hehe, thank you for the question! Imma write an answer for all my OCs cuz why not. Lots of yapping in this one!

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Maverik'a | JK: She has been following the Jedi code her entire life and she had to deal with a lot of responsibility at a young age (girl should've been at the club instead of becoming a Master LMAO) but she also needs to form a deep bond before thinking about doing anything with someone. I think it's less in a demisexual way and more of a trust thing, because she does experience sexual attraction she just doesn't act on it until she feels 100% safe. She doesn't actually hook up with Theron on Yavin IV like in the game, it actually happens 5 years later 😭 And even then, it took her around 4 months into dating to feel ready. So yea, she's a late bloomer, I also think she perceives her own body as something practical that gets her around rather than an intimacy thing. So there's definitely something about her own perception and confidence in her body that makes her less comfortable in her sexuality. When you've built yourself on chastity, it's definitely weird to explore yourself in that way. Thankfully, taking things at her own rythm allowed her to feel really comfy her first time. And now she doesn't feel self-conscious AT ALL. Ask Theron 😜 LMAOOO

Yuthuura | SI: Honestly, I have a hard time understanding her relationship with intimacy. Because I feel like she has severe trust issues but at the same time, if she wants to do it, she'll do it. I think she used to see it as a "practical need" and less something to share with someone you love? So as long she had control on what it meant, she felt safe. She hasn't had that many sexual partners, her first time was with another Twi'lek when she was in an alien cult. I think they briefly dated but didn't last, and maybe for the best since the Empire took her right after 💀. As a Sith Lord, I think she felt more comfortable exploring more because she wasn't in such a vulnerable position, she WON'T have sex if there's an unbalanced power dynamic that's for sure. When she hooked up with Nikos for the first time, it literally was just for fun, to feel free but he genuinely made her feel loved/admired like never before. To see that awe in somebody's eyes when you've never felt like that about yourself, truly changed something in her. And the rest is history 🤭

Kaaydan | Smuggler: *sigh* he's by far the most ~experienced~ LMAO. Sex means a lot of things for him, love, fun, detachment. It's has been an important part of himself for almost all his life. His first time was actually with his first love, they were both in their teens (yea.. he's an early bloomer 💀). So, at first it meant love for him but when they broke up he rediscovered sex in a LOT more lustful way. He had his first time with a woman in his first one night stand, I like to imagine she was Chiss (sort of as a hint for his taste in Chiss women 😜) but from there he only got freakier LMAO. After "losing" his first love, he actually was repulsed by dating for quite a long time. He saw sex as a way to feel loved without the responsibility of a relationship, without the possibility of losing the person he loved, without getting hurt. He's hooked up with so many people it's genuinely impressive 💀. I probably wouldn't be exaggerating if I told you he hooked up with ~at least~ 2 genders of almost every species. This man enjoys everything, he feels hot, confident and he KNOWS he's good. So um, talking about feeling free, he's freedom itself on that aspect LMAO 🧍 Then sex becomes one of his love languages again when he dates Risha, when they break up his drive isn't the same although he did date and have sex with someone else but after they broke up too he completely abandoned hook-ups. Like at that point, it wasn't even enough to feel loved so he stopped. Also in that period he felt self conscious because he had gained weight (because of his sedentary lifestyle and because he ate his emotions more) so he felt like he let himself slip. His "first" time with Rue when they started dating in KOTFE, he actually felt embarrassed (which is so unusual of him) because he hadn't done it in like maybe 1-2 years? And since they already hooked up in his "glory" era he was scared to let her down? And also felt bad he didn't look as "good". But she reassured him that she just wanted to have this moment with HIM, not his glorified persona, not his "perfect" self, she wanted to do it WITH HIM in full honesty. But as he got more confident in himself and in the relationship he goes wild again 😭😭 they do match each other's freak.

Rue | IA: Sex to her meant work for a really long time. Always as a superficial thing, sometimes fun but always primarily used as a technique to get information. She does feel confident in her body, she knows she's a femme fatale and knows her way around 💅 She's hooked up with people for fun aside from work but it has always been a superficial thing too. She hasn't really dated anyone before, she doesn't trust people enough for that. Maybe sex is a way to have more control, reading someone's sexual needs is probably easier for her than reading someone's emotional needs. The only person she's been able to read and has been able to read HER is Kaaydan. Sex with anybody else doesn't hit as much as with him 😏

Zarsh'a | JC: She follows the Jedi code to heart too except she's more relaxed than Maverik'a about it. She originally respected the no attachment rule so she allowed herself to experience sex as long as she doesn't have an attachment with the person. She's pretty free regarding her own sexuality, she's not self conscious in any way. She sees it as an opportunity to have fun and relax her body. She actually had sex with Zenith on a whim before they actually started dating, first kiss and first time right away baby LMAO. Though the emotional aspect of it is something she struggles with. Probably subconsciously because her parents never got to live their love story to its full potential, I think she's scared to have a similar situation. But she and Zenith made it work so she feels better about it.

Juhann | BH: She's very professional, so her job always comes first and fun later. I wouldn't say she isn't that needy in terms of intimacy, so it's not something she seeks often but sometimes it's fun 😋. She's comfortable with herself but I think people don't go towards her as often because she is quite intimidating, super tall and strong lady. But she might give a chance to those who fight through their fear 👀. She also prefers to engage in intimacy with someone she's already had sex with, like romances and flings. Not a big fan of one night stands.

Kyahni | Trooper: Most of my OCs always have complicated personalities and tough pasts, but then I always have that one OC who's happy and hasn't done anything wrong. And that's Kyahni LMAO. She has a pretty normal relationship with intimacy, I like to imagine her having a high-school/cadet sweetheart and having her first time with him. Probably stayed together like 2 years and then probably dated 1 or 2 other people before Aric but that would be pretty much it. As long as she's in a relationship with the person she's having sex with, she feels pretty good. Even more when she's very IN LOVE.

Rahleigh | main SW: Suprisingly he might be even more sexually repressed than Mave 💀. I picture him as someone who's alone most of the time, someone that's too much in his head to notice people around him AND he's a History nerd lol. I'm still undecided on whether I want his end-game partner to be Vette but if she is, it was both their first time ever when they had sex for the first time. He probably was awkward at first, quite contrasting with his confidence in battle but I think it's something he can improve on with the right person. He's probably better at it than he thinks tho 🤷‍♀️ but yea, he probably is demisexual in opposite to what I just said about Maverik'a. He just doesn't think about sex that often nor he cares all that much but it's something he can enjoy at certain moments with the right person. That and also the fact he's giving autistic but I don't know him well enough to be sure about that yet LOL.

Raeshen | SW: ah my hypersexual queen. There isn't much to say except that she's a horrible person and gets everything she thinks she deserves. She has needs and doesn't care about her partner's 💀 Still in a consensual way (she's not THAT horrible) but like, in an intercourse, what matters to her is HER enjoyment. She wants people at her mercy, she's probably VERY kinky but after the act is done she doesn't care about her partner anymore 😭. She doesn't feel romantic feelings because she doesn't care about people that much.

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freebie ask game... how do your different OCs feel about suicide? Others doing it? Do they know anyone who has done it? As for themselves, have they ever had thoughts/a plan/an attempt? how did that affect the people who found out about it?

OOOOOO I created this ask game EXACTLY for questions like that, stuff we don't dare to talk about...

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TW: Suicidal ideation/suicidal thoughts.

SO, I'm gonna start with my OCs who dealt with it in a more muted/internalized way. The first person that comes to mind is Yuthuura, she never attempted but she did think about it. She never managed to convince herself to do it tbh, she had that spite against the people who took everything from her. Ending it would mean they won, despite the pain, she found ways to keep fighting. She's a survivor, if nobody helps her, she will herself. Rahleigh is another one who had dark thoughts at some point, when he almost fell to the dark side, he didn't recognize himself. Rue most definitely had those thoughts as well but sort of grew out of it as she took control over her life but I can see a world when she didn't see any other option when she was younger but she did manage to escape and save herself. As for the others, I think they might've thought about it but more as an intrusive thought? I can see that happening with Juhann when she recently estranged herself from her family. But now, we start with the heavy stuff..

TW: Suicidal ideation/suicidal thoughts/suicidal attempt/brief mention of SH/substance abuse.

Kaaydan. Of course he was gonna be the star of this post LMAO. He has the Star Wars equivalent of Borderline Personality Disorder (BPD) which, sadly, almost guarantees suicidal ideation and self-destructive behavior. He's prone to addiction and illicit substances, he's dealt with a spice addiction very young (in his teens), he often abuses alcohol, he likes to gamble, he sleeps with people etc. And he's used those as coping mechanisms to survive his thoughts basically. Honestly, had it not been spice, it probably would've been SH or another substance. He's always dealt with dark thoughts occasionally but he always was able to aliviate them by using those coping mechanisms so it never got to the point of hurting himself.. UNTIL the big Zakuulan depression™. He's never been in such a dark hole as that period, he alienated himself from his friends and family, he engaged even more into alcohol, he stayed hours in his appartment in complete darkness, sleeping at random times, staying awake most of the night, he was A MESS. So much time alone made him contemplate his life and many times he would sit on the edge of his balcony, staring into the void, thinking about doing it or not but it would always end up freaking him out so he would go back inside. I talked about that brief romantic interest he had before, I actually was gonna write more to how Kaaydan lived the break-up but didn't because it potentially could be triggering and I didn't want the post to end like that lol but imma write it here. The relationship sort of got his hopes up for a better future and then he felt like he failed to do so, that he was uncapable to be normal. It lead him to a spiral and to shut it up he drank.. and he drank and he drank until he passed out. Luckily Bowdaar had come to check on him (he would do so once in a while JUST to make sure-) and found him so he was able to help him. I don't know if Kaaydan was in an alcohol coma yet but had Bowdaar not intervened, he probably would've died either way. When he gained consciousness, all he did was cry in Bowdaar's fluff, he was his only friend at that moment. So yea 🥲 I don't think I've mentionned this before (cuz I plan writing a fic about it) but when Rue and Kaaydan confess their feelings, and tells her that she saved him, he MEANT it. Because had she not been the motivation to bust him out of Zakuul, his sadness would've killed him at some point. All that to say that after this, he engages a lot less in harmful coping mechanism and gets a lot better. Building a life at the Alliance, with Rue, his family, his friends, saved him. But the truth is that he saved himself, he deserves all the credit for it 🥹

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hi hi i know you said you hadn't decided if Juhann and Rass have a history together or not, but do you have any ~vague~ ideas on what that relationship might've looked like?

(as a rassmancer, i must know 😂)

HEHEHE okay

so mainly the reason I'm not sure is because I've never seen them interact. And I have this thing where I can't envision anybody else being the Commander than Maverik'a, like it doesn't make sense in my head and I'm incredibly lazy to play like 200h just to get a few lines of dialogue between them SO.. YEA but I do have a few ideas about them 🤭

So they would've met before the class story, back when Juhann was just an unaffiliated bounty hunter, they probably stumbled upon each other while going after a bounty and he was just stunned by her. He saw this tall scary beautiful Cathar woman and he just FELL for her immediately. So flirtatious banter began and Juhann really didn't get why he was so drawn to her, so she didn't pay much attention to him lol. But then they bumped into each other a few times and she started to like him too 👀 they started hanging out, hunting bounties together, learning to know each other better. I don't know if they ever considered each other romantic partners but they basically were. But then, one day, Rass asks Juhann to join Clan Ordo and she refused. Not because she didn't like him, or because she didn't want to join the Clan (as a Mando nerd she probably got really happy) but she wanted to make a name for herself. She didn't want to take shortcuts, if she was gonna become a Mandalorian, it was going to be on her terms. And I don't know, I think it maybe caused a strain in their relationship, they were also young, immature, so they took distance from each other. And I imagined that maybe years later they could try it again, or maybe they just keep their on/off relationship, I don't know. I'm not sure if they're meant to be life partners or if Juhann maybe just wants to be by her own 🤷‍♀️ but this is what I've got so far! Now if he was a class story companion it probably would be different 😔

This is how I picture them btw HAHAJFJD