이건 어때 !? // @juhelious
This is such an anserine incidence but does he need any justified reason to be his usual self? Not the boy who wears a mask filled with smiles and jest --- he isn’t as foolish as everyone he beguiles... he’s the boy who’s inner parts are filled with incertitude and anxiety and in such moments it takes over him like a sight never seen before. Is he petrified or pained? That is undisclosed -- his expession will turn him in at any given moment, 'Fundamentals of Biochemistry: Life at the Molecular Level' translated into Korean dropped onto the floor and with all of his height his torso leans forward in an aching perturbed motion. He has read about twenty pages as his eyes engulfed words upon words with manifest thirst and concentration until a loud noise disturbed the ears. A storm as big as the one inside of his mind -- rain and thunder, typical of a horrifying settings to cause even the most stoic person some apprehension or bothered sensations or anything along these lines. He’s somewhat dismayed, in the most innocent way because he’s entirely aware of his surroundings and what is occuring in his body -- the fact that he cannot muster control over his own reactions and that he cannot halt himself from breaking down is terrfying itself... now, place him in a room with a few people who are already bothered by the fightening storm and power outlet, shattered pieces of broken glasses of lightbulbs and there is no wonder he’s agitated, solicitous -- anxious. He breaks down into an anxiety attack with his frown deeper than ever and his breath choked in the midst of his throat -- leaned forwards by slightly just as if there is something pulling the middle of his chest onwards the floor, the boy seems remote (as if out of the reality, out of comprehension) albeit, inside of his conscious there is a panic alarm ringing in tones that are deafening and duressing.
❛ -- ... oh-- ! ❜
He wants to scream, to weep, to vanish into the thick air which suffocates him but he barely whispers his distress. Anything... anything but this. This is too much to bare -- he needs solace, he needs to return to his ‘normal’ conduct and wear the aloof mask back onto his face yet it is painted with luridness that is way too manifest to be misinterpreted. He’s disregarded the storm and that was wrong of him --- why hadn’t he listened to his mother’s pleads and stayed home that day? Bad, very bad of him ... now he is being punished because the trepidation he’s gathered these weeks is nowhere near enough and now he must suffer; he must panic and be filled with dread.
