#julia daily

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11/03/2016 I don't even deserve a man like him 😩❤️

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10/17/2016

Today I picked up Michael before heading to Hand and Hand park to eno yet again! At first we snuggled and chatted about life, and about family and friends. That eventually turned into silly jokes, tickling, goofy snapchats, and funny kisses. He eventually started doing this stupid voice that made me laugh so hard I couldn't help myself! I swear to god I laughed for a solid hour or more! I have not laughed that hard or that long in a long time. He really is SO perfect. I really don't deserve him, but oh my GOD do I love him 😊

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FALL BREAK 2016

We both know what this is about future Julia. Michael. OF COURSE. Let's tell it like a story; On Friday morning I woke up at 6AM to pick up Michael. He hopped in my car and we made our way back to my place where fresh sheets were on my bed, candles were ready to be lit, and rose petals were ready to be scattered across the bed. Our intention was to cuddle and sleep for a while then get up and make pancakes together. We cuddled for about an hour and then things got heated. We had sex and rolled around in the sheets together before eventually going upstairs to recharge with some pancakes. I tried making them at first and make them really dark and kept fucking them up, so I had him try. Saaaame result 😂 With warm maple syrup and strawberries it was actually so delicious! We even shared a couple strawberries between our lips. Which was in theory cute but honestly I thought it was sexy as hell? Not entirely sure why. I though maybe we could watch Netflix together so I turned on something I thought he'd like (bc I was sleepy and didn't care what we were watching) and I koalaed him in the recliner. It wasn't very long before I asked him if we could go lay in bed instead. We made our way downstairs and intertwined ourselves in each other. I had never been so comfortable in my LIFE. Being his little spoon is one of my favorite things. I feel so safe in his big strong arms 😍 We eventually woke up a couple hours later and shared sleepy kisses that slowly turned into making sweet, slow, passionate love. It was beyond wonderful! We cuddled and made love a couple more times before deciding that we smelled too much like sex to leave the house (we planned on getting lunch) so we showered together. Part of that time was really sweet and loving and warm and wonderful. Another part was sexy because I may or may not have gotten on my knees in that shower for him 😘💦 When we made our way to Riveria we just had more laughter and talking. I could talk to him for hours ❤️ I happily introduced me novio to Hector! We had arroz con pollo and I was a HAPPY Juju! 😭❤️ When we got back we later down together in bed for s little while before we eventually.. You guessed it.. Had sex again! That happened off an on between cuddling before the night turned later and later. One of my favorite moments was siting behind him while music played and kissing on him and rubbing his shoulders. "5 Years Time," came on and I sang to him while I wrapped my arms around him and kissed on him and giggled with him. Every moment with him is absolutely magical. Driving him home SUCKED. But I love riding in the car with him because he always sings with me and that always makes me so so happy 😍 He's actually a pretty good singer despite what he says, and I adore hearing him get into a song with me. Sometimes we'll even sing different parts of songs unplanned and MYHEART. When we got into his driveway we got maybe an inch from each other lips and sang the song that was playing, "We Don't Talk Anymore," for a few minutes in between kisses. It was so fucking cute and he kept saying "I'll get out after just one more song!" 😅❤️ But then Saturday arrived, and I woke up without him. I would have loved waking up in his arms! Michael picked me up at home and we went to Nick's house to meet Nick and Matt to go to Gallows! We got cookout before heading out to find our way there! I hadn't been to a haunted house in years, and honestly would have not one if Michael wasn't there pushing me along and make me feel safe. When I'm able to lean back and feel him or squeeze his hand I feel okay. After playing Cards Against Humanity with Nick and Matt for an hour or two at Nick's after the haunted house, Michael and I were both super cranky and tired and he drove me home. He told me he'd stay for a little while but that he wasn't supposed to stay the night. So he set an alarm for 1:30AM so he could then drive home. We crawled into bed and snuggled for a little while. We joked about having sex but agreed we were way too tired 😂 Did we end up having sex? Of course we did. (Once without a condom, oops?) But that night was filled with so much more. At one point I told him to let me go. He was a bit confused at first, but then I told him to lie on his stomach for me. I crawled onto him and began massaging as much of him as I could. Occasionally leaving down to sneak in a kiss or to tell him that I love him. He melted under my fingertips! He was so tired he just decided to stay the night, even though he was supposed to meet friends the next morning. About that next morning.. 😅 He woke up at 7 which was when he was supposed to get up and leave to shower before going out with friends. But we were both so sleepy still, and his friends hadn't made a solid plan with him so we later down together for a while longer. It was Sunday at this point and we knew his mother wanted him home. Did that stop me from grinding on Michael, kissing on Michael, sucking in Michael, sticking the tip of him into me, and then riding him? Fuck no, that's my toy and I'll play with it whenever I please! 😈 After that (which was FUCKING GREAT) I let him go upstairs and shower while I made him a bite to eat before we had to say goodbye. What a weekend, if I wrote as much as I actually wanted to write there would be probably 3x what is here! I love him so much.

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10/10/2016

We’ve done it, yet again!

Today we went to Michael’s house and watched Netflix together. When the show was almost over Michael started kissing my neck, putting his powerful hand around my neck, and started moving his hands up my leg and up my dress. After a few minutes of grabbing on one another I had enough.

I told him I was, “pretty done with all this,” and directed him upstairs. I needed him, and I needed him right then. When we got to the bedroom he tried to make me beg him to let me ride him, but I was having none of it. I put the condom on him, and pushed him against the bed. Then I proceeded to ride him for the first time.

I was so afraid I’d hurt him somehow 😅 But I tried my best to do him right. There were a couple times where I was so wet I just slipped off of him! And every time I put it back in I had to stop for a moment because he’s just so big and 😍 At one point while I was on top of him I leaned forward toward him and he thrusted himself into me which was THE GREATEST THING. I can’t wait to see what will happen on Friday, this is going to be one HELL of a Fall Break! 😩💦

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10/07/2016

Today was the day we made love for the first time. I had planned to make him wait until Fall Break, but I couldn’t resist him anymore.

We went upstairs and I let him have his way with me, which was phenomenal. There were a couple things you can always expect with your first time, it had a little awkwardness to it and it didn’t last very long but that’s okay. I still had SUCH an amazing time with him. He is pretty big and the first time he stuck it in I was already blown away 😍

We only had one condom so when we wanted to go round two but couldn’t we were left very frustrated. Especially because I couldn’t stay away from my toy 😩❤️

I can’t wait to see how much more fun I can have with him! He really makes me feel so sexy, so empowered! I owe him everything, but I can give him me. That’s the best I got!

It really made me feel closer to him, I really trust him. Even though I’m still more self conscious than I’d like to admit, I honestly forget that when we’re in the moment.

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10/01/2016

I ate some sweets (which I haven’t done much in a long time) and it was a lot and I feel fucking disgusting. I literally feel like I gained ten pounds. I don’t want anyone to look at me. And as much as I love love love and trust Michael the thought of him touching my belly or hips or thighs makes me cringe. I loved our first bigger sexual experience together a few days ago but I also hate that he saw me? It’s really complicated. I felt pretty comfortable with him, but I was still a bit scared and insecure.

Tomorrow starts the start of the end of being this way and feeling this way. I’m not happy, and I want to feel sexy and I want to feel happy with the skin I’m in. I’m honestly mortified when I really study myself in the mirror. It’s painful, and that’s so sad.

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09/23/2016

Just a fuckton of pictures from today, and one super cute gif 😍 He makes me so happy, the world feels alright when I’m with him. When we’re together it just feels normal, like that’s how my life is supposed to be. It’s selfish to say I want him with me everyday, right? It really does make our time together really special though, I cherish everything.

The stubble on his chin, and how it scratches me just barely. His soft lips, and how he can kiss me so gently. The way he uses his hands to please me. (Sexually, and not.) Every time he looks at me. Every time he speaks. Even down to when we have to say goodbye, and he kisses my cheek. All of it is so damn special. He’s such a beautiful soul.

(Ain’t hard to look at either 😉)

I know I haven’t posted a lot about anything other than Michael, but not a lot else is going on. Which isn’t a bad thing! I normally use this shit blog for a place to dump sad emotions. Now it’s practically a Michael journal. # I'mAFaggot4Michael

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09/19/2016

Today we napped together. It was a rainy morning, but when I went to pick him up the sun came through and brought my smile along with it. He looked handsome as always. We went to hand and hand park and set up my eno under the trees by the tennis court. We sat together in it and chatted and giggled and kissed, but when we laid down I was instantly at peace with everything. I forgot the stress I've been having from school and home, I forgot how messed up the world was. The only thing I knew was that he and I were together, and he and I were closer than ever. We kissed and talked, and there was a good period of time of silence. We both drifted in and out of sleep. I could tell when he fell asleep because he'd start moving just a little bit, and when he'd wake up he'd pull me closer to him and stroke my hair or hold my face. The weather was beautiful, that time together was beautiful, he's beautiful. Every part of him. Yeah, you could say I'm in love.