voltage is literally trying to kill me here; financially and emotionally. two slbp event stories back to back and i'm still recovering financially from the last one that was like A FEW MINUTES AGO. like THANK YOU VOLTAGE but also CHILL VOLTAGE.
OKAY. SO. i am aware that i’m a week late, but it turns out that weekend-long cons in another country take quadruple the amount of energy as going for a single day in a nearby city, and the recovery process has been a nightmare for my lil chronically ill heart.
STILL WORTH IT THOUGH.
anyway. prepare for a bunch of emotional rambling, because i still can’t find the right words to explain just how much i love this guy right here. every single interaction i had with him, even the smallest of moments, just proved to me even more that bob morley is a literal angel and we do not deserve him.
i arrived in boston on thursday, a day before the first con activities (will call/VIP party) would start. i spent a decent amount of time in the lobby, meeting new people, making friends. the cast arrived that day as well and would pass through occasionally. nobody really approached them because we wanted to give them space, it was really chill and respectful and cool.
THEN. tom (one of the con organizers) came in with bob and richard, started chatting with my mom while i was with my friends and was like “WHERE IS SHE!!!” and suddenly i was being pulled over to the group. he wanted to tell bob all about how he helped make sure i was able to get his VIP package. i was dying of embarrassment at this point and was internally like i am so sorry i don’t want to bother you i will leave ASAP but bob just gave me the biggest smile, thanked me and pulled me in for a hug and started talking to me about rooster teeth because i was literally in my RT pride shirt and sWEATPANTS BECAUSE I DIDN’T THINK I’D BE SEEING ANY OF THEM THAT DAY.
AND THIS WAS JUST THURSDAY. THE CON HADN’T EVEN STARTED YET.
on friday we had the VIP party, and it was super fun and super overwhelming. first party i’ve been to since before i got sick, and i got sick at the age of 14, so...... it was A Lot. when the cast came out, bob passed me on his way to the bar, and as he did he made sure to squeeze my shoulder and say hey again. i saw him again a lil later and he pulled me into another hug and asked me what i’d been up to all day and we talked about exploring boston. i was a lil stressed and dizzy throughout the whole night but i felt so calm when i was talking to him. also, a while after that i got to witness the great bob and eliza vs richard and luisa beer pong game up close and it was amazing.
saturday morning was our VIP breakfast meet and greet, which was such an incredible experience. during the big group photo afterwards we had to fit, like, 25 people + bob into this tiny little space and it was hilariously awkward having to sit right up front and being like BUT WHAT IF I BLOCK SOMEONE (clearly i think i’m taller than i actually am) while bob was in full director mode moving me into place by my shoulders and saying “don’t worry, i’ll find the camera” with a smirk lmfsjsjhd
ANYWAY. next i saw him at the autograph table, which is the first selfie you see up there. i really wish i’d had a friend around to record this one because the look on his face when i was explaining how happy i was to be medically cleared to come on this trip at all is something i’ll never forget. he pulled me around to his side of the table to give me the tightest hug. and then he casually asked me if i want to sit on his lap for our selfie???? (naturally my immediate response was WAIT ARE YOU SURE) it was the most considerate thing ever — i was using my cane, i was third in line and had been sitting the whole time, but he still didn’t want me to have to crouch down for our photos. MY HEART LITERALLY MELTED. i didn’t think it was possible to love this man any more than i already did (i was wrong). we also noticed during the selfies that his lil ponytail sort of matched my space buns which was super adorable.
later on that day was the murphamy photo op, which i was SO excited for. i’d actually had a pose in mind but as soon as it was my turn, i noticed that bob had a cane with him and i was like “CANE BUDDY!!!!!” and he said “YEAAAAH!!!! are we cane-ing it?” (for the pose) and it ended up being even better than what i’d planned. as we were posing he started making fun of richard for being left out of the whole cane buddies thing and richard was like “i was sad that i don’t have one!” after the picture was taken. what an iconic duo.
on sunday, i literally saw bob like 5??? different times. i went to his autograph line first thing in the morning, which is the second selfie you see up there. he gushed about richard and how much he loves working with him and like,,,, i am So here for this friendship. cutest thing in the world. witnessing it in person is precious. when it was time for the selfie he was like “come sit on my lap again!” while stretching out his bad leg again. then it was a solid 30 seconds of us fussing over each other because i was like I DON’T WANT TO HURT YOU and he was like I’M FINE WHEN I’M SITTING BUT YOU’RE IN PAIN SO SIT DOWN (side note: this whole weekend was literally everyone mom-friending me, from close mutuals to new friends to bob morley himself, and i love y’all so goddamn much for being so considerate and accommodating)
after that was photo ops. i had 2 photos but only one pose planned (the one on the right^) and when i showed him the pose reference he was like “you’re gonna be the little one, right?” and then laUGHED “how much littler can you get?” and then for the second one we bear-hugged which was lovely because i had full-body shakes throughout the whole weekend due to me overexerting myself and as we hugged he squeezed me even tighter after a moment and it relaxed me. i swear, the whole weekend he just Knew exactly what i was feeling and how to help without either of us saying anything and my heart is just so full.
after that, i went to his autograph line one last time to say a proper goodbye. i thanked him for how incredible the weekend was, and how intimate and fun the VIP experience was, especially because i didn’t think this trip would even be a possibility for me (to which he was like “oh shit!!! yeah” remembering what i’d said about getting medical clearance to fly) and he stood up to come give me another big hug and told me how glad he was that i made it after all. (he also remembered that we’d met before???? even though it was 2 years ago and i’d had blue hair, no cane, and was an anxious mess the entire time???) and y’all i am literally going to cRY AS I TYPE ALL OF THIS BECAUSE I TRULY ADORE THIS MAN MORE THAN ANYTHING AND I WILL ABSOLUTELY FLY MY CHRONICALLY ILL ASS OUT TO BOSTON AGAIN NEXT YEAR FOR HIM. all the pain, the extended dizzy spells, everything my body was and is still doing to punish me for being an active human for once in my life is SO WORTH IT because of him (and of course the rest of the cast).
i’ll start with richard, because we actually first met on thursday. it was in the lobby, and i mentioned this story in my other post. after i hugged bob, i turned to richard, and literally right as i was mentally debating whether or not it would be okay to ask him for one as well, he said “can i get a hug too?” and i was like “OF COURSE!!!!”
i went to his autograph line on saturday, and we talked about the guys panel with him, bob and zach that had just happened. he was glad that i enjoyed it so much. i also got to tell him how much murphy’s story in season 5 meant to me, because i’ve often been in that same boat of feeling useless, being depressed and isolating myself from the people i care about by shutting them out. he was sO SOFT AND SWEET ABOUT IT i was telling him how great of a job he did with it and he then went on to talk about how excited he is for season 6 and that it’s a really good one. before i left i asked if i could give him a hug and he was like “OF COURSE!!!” (literally exactly like i’d said to him 2 days earlier fkdnddj) and pulled me in and I LOVE HIS HUGS SO MUCH. t100 cast consists of the world’s best huggers and this is a Fact.
now. luisa. an absolute SWEETHEART. she was the first cast member i chatted with at the VIP party on friday. the crowd spread out as most of the actors moved into the room, but she stayed near the door to talk to a few of us first. she complimented my hair and i died internally because hELLO SHE IS THE MOST BEAUTIFUL PERSON EVER and she gave me a really big hug too :’)
i was initially planning to go to her autograph table on sunday because i’d thought that my schedule would be completely packed and i wouldn’t have time on saturday, but i ended up being able to! when we were talking about how i was able to come to the con, she asked where in canada i was from, and i’m so used to telling people “oh, just near toronto” because usually i’m talking to non-canadians who have never even heard of hamilton, bUT SHE KNEW AND WAS LIKE !!!!! I FILMED IN HAMILTON.
my memori photo op was actually a total impulse buy, because again, i didn’t actually think i’d be able to fit it into my schedule on saturday. i’m so glad it wasn’t as packed as i thought it would be and i had time for so much more.
speaking of, i also got a suuuuuuper last minute grounders photo op on sunday, too. and i mean LAST. MINUTE. my mom bought it for me as it was finishing up and i was the very last one.
after the photo was taken, luisa pulled me aside and she actually remembered everything i’d told her the day before about being able to fly to boston! she said she was so happy that i ended up being able to make the trip, and i was just in awe because she is so kind and sweet and genuine and WOW i adore her. this was right before the final panel so we both said we really hoped conageddon 3 happens so we can see each other again (AND THEN THEY ANNOUNCED IT AND I AM SO HAPPY)
second of all: CHELSEY REIST IS A GIFT TO THIS WORLD THAT WE DO NOT DESERVE.
i’m an awkward and anxious person. especially in public. especially at cons. as soon as i started talking to chelsey at her autograph table on saturday??? all of that went away. i felt so comfortable and at ease, like i was chatting with an old friend.
we talked more about narcoleap than the 100, but i did make sure to tell her how much i love harper and how her being at conageddon was a huge reason why i wanted to come. i was telling her about how i related to her character in narcoleap and a particular emotional scene because of my chronic illness, and SHE STARTED TEARING UP AND THEN I STARTED TEARING UP AND IT WAS TEARS AND HUGS EVERYWHERE. she also told me season 2 is coming which i am Very Much Excited for because i need new chelsey content to look forward to after t100 went and crushed my soul like that with harper.
also: that third selfie was her saying “THUMBS UP BECAUSE YOU WERE ABLE TO MAKE IT [TO THE CON]!!!!!!” and it was ADORABLE. I LOVE HER SO MUCH.
i met her first at the friday VIP party, which i was shocked about because i assumed she’d be swarmed by fans all night. i didn’t even want any photos, just the chance to say hello and maybe get a hug. i genuinely don’t know how she did it — i was getting claustrophobic just walking near the different clusters of fans around each cast member. my friends actually helped get me close to her and told her that this was my first con (and i clarified that it was my first con specifically for the 100) and she looked so proud because of course this was partly her con :’) she gave me the biggest hug when i told her i was so excited about being medically cleared to fly to boston and told me she was so happy i came and i just about died.
saturday morning i went to her autograph line, and i got to tell her about how much i absolutely love clarke and how she means the entire world to me, and as she was listening to me talk she had her hands over her heart and GOD she is truly the sweetest soul. she pulled me behind the table for a hug and then i told her about how her body positivity has helped me deal with the internal self hate i have from my chronic illness. i told her how on my worst days when i’m hating my body for not working properly i remind myself that eliza wouldn’t want me to feel this way and she looked so proud and happy and emotional i’m honestly surprised i didn’t burst into tears???? because HOOO BOY were they waiting to flow
my photo ops with her were on sunday, and i had 2 photos for her as well. the second one was supposed to be a me-twirling-her/showing-her-off sort of pose and we were laughing while trying to figure it out even with a reference and honestly that made me love how it turned out even more. she’s literally the cutest, brightest ray of sunshine and i just!!!! adore her so much!!!!!
i also saw her at my bellarke and delinquents photo ops — i posted my bellarke one but not the other, so:
(the pose idea was “family photo” and i think we nailed it) (look at all of us with our green clothes or accessories what a festive delinquent family) (i didn’t buy jpegs of every photo op because they were $10 each and i had like 11 so imma have to scan this one soon)
i’m sorry i’ve been away for a bit. i guess it’s a day too late for a bfsn update, so: i’ve been busy in full prepping + planning mode for conageddon! buying luggage, going to last-minute doctor check-ups, thinking up photo op poses, all that good stuff. i’m excited. i’m doing well, and i hope you all are too. 💜
