As i wake up out my sleep, i instantly start to cry. I’m missing you. I’m lonely and scared.
I look over and you’re not in bed with me, you’re not in my arms loving me.
I cry some more, I’m crying so hard i can feel it in my chest.
Then i turn over and shut my eyes as i try to catch my breath.
Sobbing, breathing hard and praying to god.
A slight knock on the door, so slight and tender. I peak out the window and see your truck.
I gasp for air in disbelief, god has answered my prayer. He sent you to me once more.
As i open the door i rush for a hug. A hug so tender yet so tight. A hug so needed yet full of pain, sorrow and regret.
We hug for a while. As we walk in the house we then hug again.
I don’t want to let you go, not today, not tomorrow. NEVER!
We then walk to the bedroom where we lay and hold each other tighter.
Not one word has been said. Not one word needs to be said.
Your touch is enough for me, your scent makes me cry more.
Is this it god? Is this his way of saying goodbye?
Does he simply needs comforting?
What is it? Why is he here?
All these questions I’m asking god as i lay on your chest.
I love that you’re here. I love feeling your body on mine.
It’s like we merge into one when we’re together.
I love everything about you!
As i lay in your arms i cry. I pray again in hopes that this could last forever. In hope of guidance and forgiveness.
As i lay in your arms i smile, because even if it’s the last time we touch I’m happy itll end silently. And I’m happy you’re holding me this tightly. As if the world is falling apart and you’re saving me.
