#june!!

[weeping-orpheus]

Yall are so stupid and cute and it’s soooooo adorable

Pffftt thank you thank you!!

I honestly wouldn't have it any other way with him<3

You and your partners are also soooo adorable and cute with each other!! We love seeing you guys on our feed! My boyfriend was just telling me the other day about how you got a new girlfriend and we are very excited for you guys!

[vampire-in-the-corner]

I am losing my miiiind 😭🙏

[guacala]

i’m so sorry, ik i’ve said that im gonna post something soon, but my mental health has been so shitty lately, and i j got on meds and it’s like the end of the school year where i live so i’m super stressed and it’s like been a lot, so i’m so sorry i’ve been like so inactive lately, and hopefully i’ll post once i’m done w school :/

[cream-soda-please]

ok now you HAVE to tell the my immortal girlfriend story

Ok ok ok so.

In middle school I liked this girl (she skipped a grade and she was super smart and into alt style) and we were both on the cross country team. We became friends and I was at her house one day and she was like 'do you want to hang out in my closet' and I was like 'yes hot girl please let's hang out in your closet' so we both got in her tiny cramped closet (it had pride flags everyone and was very cute!) And it was dark and we were both reading stuff (I think fic? Idk)

Because I am the smoothest person I know, I was like 'hey have you heard of my immortal it's the worst fanfic ever' and she was like ' I've never read it' so OF COURSE I'm like. Well we gotta read it!

So I'm reading my immortal out loud to her and we are. In a cramped closet. Cuddling. Very closely. In a very homosexual way. And basically one thing led to another and we made out in that way only middle schoolers can (read: not very well)

And then we mutually decided to be girlfriends but it was very much a middle school relationship so we are no longer together but it's chill and we're cool.

So that's how My Immortal got me a girlfriend and my first kiss!

[leafblogger]

the feeling when you've pulled an all-nighter and you're watching the sunrise from inside and you can hear your neighbors walking up but it doesn't seem like morning

here you go june!

five a.m. sunrise/stay awake

1. An Ode to the Nite Ratz Club by The Hotelier - right off the bat, a banger that’s sort of nostalgic.

2. Humpty by Mitski - I’m so sorry already but I promise they get progressively less depressing

3. Blue Bucket of Gold by Sufjan Stevens 

4. The Gold (Phoebe Bridgers Version) by The Manchester Orchestra, Phoebe Bridgers

5. Smoke Signals by Phoebe Bridgers - This is the least depressing one yet! 

6. I’ll Not Contain You by the Microphones

7. I Wanna Get Better by Bleachers - nothing like a little bit of self-destruction to start your day

8. Holocene by Bon Iver - and this is the release of everything. you’ve pulled an all-nighter. the sun is coming up. go take a nap.

(send me a specific feeling and i’ll make you a 30-minute playlist)

[leafblogger]

hey jamie did you know you can link things in asks now

JUNE I JUST PHYSICALLY CLENCHED WHY

[leafblogger]

4 and 9 for the meta writer asks??

June!! Thank you for the ask !!!

4.  Share a sentence or paragraph from your writing that you’re really proud of (explain why, if you like)

From a long-term side project (called How to Bring Someone Back From the Dead) - it’s more of an excerpt than a paragraph, but I can do what I want.

I wasn’t expecting there to be no one, but I certainly didn’t think it would be crowded.

My breath catches when I finally see her.

It’s hard to look, honestly. She looks washed out, almost like that time she got the flu and had to go to the emergency room because she couldn’t breathe. Her skin isn’t opaque like it should be and if I look hard I can see the other souls through her.

She’s wearing the clothes she wore the day she died. It shouldn’t affect me as much as it does, but normally that forest green sweater makes her eyes go bright and flashy but she just looks duller in contrast.

“Hello,” she says dreamily, like she’s not really there at all—and I suppose she isn’t, not really. She’s not tethered to anything, not yet. “Who are you?”

I can’t tell her, not here. Even if I wasn’t following the instructions to a T, I wouldn’t be able to do it. Just looking at her made me want to throw up the unresolved tangle of feelings in the pit of my stomach.

“I’m someone you can trust,” I say, because she seems to be expecting a response. “You should come with me.”

She nods like it’s perfectly reasonable to walk out of hell with me. “That sounds nice.”

We walk in silence. I make sure I’m positioned just slightly in front of her so I can see her out of the corner of my eye and I’m not checking every few seconds to make sure she’s still there. She turns away a few times, momentarily distracted by the crowd of souls moving, but each time I call back to her, careful not to use her name. I’m cautious now, even more than before. The idea of losing her when she’s close enough to taste? It’s devastating.

I like this, mostly because I haven’t written much else for this project. The little pieces I write always make me happy, I guess because I haven’t tied them down to anything.

9.  Are you more of a drabble or a longfic kind of writer? Pantser or plotter? Do you wish you were the other?

Probably more of a drabble writer. Out of the three fics posted on my AO3, two are single chapter (and less than 2k words) and one was abandoned after two chapters. I wish I was a longfic writer - I love losing myself in stories, and I listen to podfics so I love being able to just listen and go. 

I would say I’m a planster in the worst way possible. I can’t write if I don’t know what’s going to happen but I avoid outlining as much as I can so I end up with nothing done :(

Thanks again June! I love getting asks :)