Choi Junhong: Beaking Up
A/N: Hello! Anoter angsty breakup B.A.P scenario here. It’s baby Junhong’s turn. So for him I have picked the song “Here Come The Regrets” by Epik High of-course as their new album is what has inspired this sent of scenarios. So I hope you enjoy.
When Junhong wakes up he feels his head pounding and as he sits up slowly he feels dizzy. He clutches his head and groans in pain. He looks next to him and you aren’t there.
Dread fills him.
Ignoring the pain in his head, he gets out of bed and looks around. There are countless things on the floor as if they had been thrown around in anger. There is an empty bottle of alcohol on the floor.
Then regret fills him.
Oh shit.
He rushes out of his room calling your name but there is no response. The events of last night comes crashing down.
It was date night and the two of you had planned to gone to dinner but somewhere along the night it had turned into an argument. The two of you hadn’t even made it out of the apartment that night. Somehow an argument had started and now the entire apartment was filled with screaming and shouting.
How had it even started?
Junhong doesn’t remember but he had started to throw things around in his room out of anger.
You were hurting him so much. You wanted to just hug him but you knew he would push you away.
“I can’t do this anymore Junhong!”
Your heart was breaking.
“I can’t either!” he replies.
Another bullet shot through your heart.
“Let’s just end it then”, you say as he stops and looks at you.
The book he was about to throw across the room just falls on the floor.
“All we do is fight and I can’t help but feel like all I do is hurt you…I just can’t do this to you anymore”, you say calmly as you feel the tears fall.
His hands form fists. He was going to regret this tomorrow.
“Go”
And that’s all you need before you take your leave.
Your heart sinks as you leave Junhong’s apartment and shut the door behind you. The tears carry on falling as you lean against his door. You want to go back in there and tell him that you are sorry for everything but you know it’s too late. The two of you were just not in love anymore. He hated you and you probably hated him back.
But god, you missed him.
You don’t know how long you stand there but once the tears stop you manage to compose yourself. You take a deep breath. You dig out the key to Junhong’s apartment and leave it in the small mailbox out his door before you leave.
As he hears you leave he ruffles his hair, picks up the book and throws it across the room in anger.
“Fuck it all!”
He goes to the kitchen and grabs several bottle of alcohol and drowns himself. He loved you so much god dammed it. Yet, you were right. All the two of you did was fight and he always felt so angry with you these days and he knows that you were hurting too.
He ruffles his hair again before downing the entire bottle.
He regrets every moment he had spent hating you for the last few weeks. He regrets every moment he made you cry including the last time just now. But he knew you would be happier with someone else. The two of you weren’t meant to be.
He lands back in bed and stares at the ceiling. Regret from last night hits him like a train.
He was so sorry.
He really fucked up and hurt you so much. You were wrong. You didn’t hurt him, no not as much as he hurt you.
Things got so crazy after a while. All the happy memories went away and all that was left was anger.
He doesn’t remember how the two of you had gotten to this point but somehow he can only remember all the bad. All the screaming, shouting and the tears was all he can recall. He can’t remember the happy memories anymore. He doesn’t know if it’s all the alcohol or if the relationship really had been that bad.
He just laid there in bed drowning himself in self pity and regret.
Oh god, what have I done?
He suddenly wanted you next to you. He wanted to hug you. He needed you but it was too late. Somehow the one person he loved so much was now someone he hated. The constant arguments, the screaming and the tears, they are no longer worth it you smiles and the love he had once felt for you.
But god, he missed the familiarity.
He missed the routine.
H rolls to his side and is facing your side of the bed.
Or what used to be your side.
He knew you weren’t going to come back now. He closes his eyes as tears finally escapes his eyes as his body starts trembling. A sob escapes his lips and he just wanted to see you.
He knew that feeling was just temporary though.
It would get better but for now he will just accept the regrets.