#just 11pm thoughts

[elitefourkylewantstobattle]

When will my cavehusband return from hunting the mastodon, and unga my bunga?

[kiera--b]

That anxiety of the influencer generation harpers article tugged on a very weird part of me.

Like freshman year of college I’d consider myself a mildly successful youtuber or at least in a position to pivot to one. I had ~100k subs and 2 videos above 2mil ish views. I had a ‘brand’ sort of. I also knew I had the base springboard to be successful if I started generating more content, like to some extent I’d hit a lucky jackpot of visibility a lot of people try really hard to hit.

And then art college burnt me out of animating and making things and I didn’t make anything of substance there for two years, for one reason or another. I spent a lot of time doing commissions and projects that I was happy with and paid, but wasn’t #original #content for my #brand so my channel #died

Then I just kind of decided I liked the idea of an annual salary, health benefits, a 9-5 kinda thing, and I still do! And I have that now, I love my job. But in the ~~creator economy~~ I am so adjacent to still, it gives so much fomo not throwing everything away for five minutes of fame.

like. Our entire media culture is contained in these little screens and now the vast majority of it is presented by creators who are Just Like You and so much of social media incentivizes joining with the promise of vitality. It’s hard to not feel like I threw away an opportunity, even if I know I made a choice I’m happy with.

I guess it’s survivorship bias you never hear about almost successful content creators who just decided not to do it.

[horonomi]

Thinking about how perona for sure has her tits pierced in modern au, but what if she just has them pierced in canonverse too

[alittlequad]

I’m overdue a new tattoo…or a piercing 🤔

[protozoass]

it’s occurred to me that if I ever, for some odd reason, decided to switch my major it would just be......impossible. 

It’s like history is this soul-sucking cult yet instead of feeling trapped I’ve consumed the Kool aid. 

I now feed off the souls of the dead 

Every history fact just makes me stronger

[sportingsims]

I’m helping my little cousin with her english oral presentation and it’s like a big #throwback to my 11th grade and she’s only at 7th’s.. I have to admit it - I don’t miss doing oral presentations in english.. I love english but only when I talk freely not in front of people and bc I’m “forced” to. Anyway it feels great being able to help her because I didn’t have anyone who could help me out.. my closest cousin wasn’t always around..

[lost-in-time-n-space]

Not everything will remain forever As the water evaporates So does pain

Hagashi