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[iojun]

REEE g in among us:

[positivelyfilthyrich]

You would think with all this new obtained “freetime” were experiencing that we’d be establishing healthy routines and better self care. I have always had a procrastinative mentality about things I want to accomplish. I don’t hold myself as accountable as I should but I am aware my limitations and try not to overbare myself with things to do. I suppose a quarantine routine is necessary for me to step up to the plate. Prioritizing my goals will also help me to not become overwhelmed with trying to do everything at once and ease the guilt for doing so. I need to work on my patience. I really would like these things to happen overnight and its simply not even possible. I believe the journey would be a long one but must learn to enjoy it. It is said that success is not a destination but on going, much like happiness. You can’t fail something that is continuous. Failure can only come from quitting. Mistakes are meant to be learned from and improved on. 

[positivelyfilthyrich]

In these times of uncertainty I urge others to make the best of their own circumstance and allow gratitude to fill their spirit with the joy of being present. We all have the tendency to think of the past and how things were better or wish of a hopeful future. Nothing wrong with acknowledgement of both yet opportunities for blessings are of the now (this instance).

[positivelyfilthyrich]

Making a connection is difficult for me these days.. I don’t know if I’m numb to the process all together as a result of how I’ve handled relations since heartbreak. It maybe also how I prioritize. I tend to disregard my own emotions, and put my all in establishing myself but I struggle with that as well. Often feeling as though I don’t have the patience to deal with others feelings. If circumstances were different I might be more receptive and possibly that will change with time. I can be pretty intense and I don’t always think like how I feel is warranted but how can anyone value my feelings if I don’t consider them valid either?

[positivelyfilthyrich]

I had the pleasure of participating in a peaceful protest in Anne Arundel county outside their circuit courthouse. Alongside myself we’re all walks of life. Judges, business professionals and rightful citizens. We had gathered at 8 am for the cause of equality in the industry of cannabis, specifically growing licensing which has been denied to minorities. Less than 30% are awarded these privileges awhile the system continues to profit from the incarceration of these same individuals. It was mentioned that the courthouse after 366 years had its first African American female judge, whom lead the rally into the courthouse after hours of chanting and dance for said cause. The blistering cold and windchill didn’t prevent us from voicing our rights and facts to the community. This is only the beginning of change. Special thanks to Remileaf for the invitation to be apart of rewriting history.

[positivelyfilthyrich]

I’ve been stuck trying to write a memoir and honestly just wasn’t sure how I’d go about completing it. I started years ago and I’ve made little progress. I’ve been very critical of myself and in retrospect I wasn’t in the right head space. I had forgotten when I began, I was sober. Since relapsing it’s been difficult to articulate emotions I was actively trying to suppress with drugging and drinking. Today was an emotional one. I’ve been attending AA meeting to help with my sobriety. I’ve heard on several occasions there how it’s important to feel your emotions and I can attest to how difficult it is to have all these bottled emotions surface at once. I was hysterical and felt helpless. I had been triggered by a conversation with my father and due to circumstances I felt the flood gates open. I was drowning and wanted freedom from how I felt. I spoke with my counsel as instructed to prevent a repeat of past behavior. I shared how I felt and was assured it was okay to be in that state and it’s better to feel this way than nothing at all. I’m struggling with my conscious to remain on this path, questioning just about everything as my mind races.

[positivelyfilthyrich]

Lotus throne scoundrel

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